Journey To Fair Play
Alicia Jie Hye Lee
Genre : Aerospace Crime Fiction
4/11/2022
Began to write in February 2022 . .
Prologue
Place I . .
Have not even been . .
Not even have seen is now a . .
Place desperately I wanna have to be . .
To . .
Unveil . .
Bygone . .
Wrong . .
8/4/2022
“I wanna catch it . . Aunt Yilainah throw it . . ” A boy shouted as he ran toward a wide pastoral . . Then a woman who was following the boy mildly shouted back . . “Johzeln . . How many times I have to tell you . . you need to throw it yourself . . and then catch it yourself . .” “I can’t . ." shouted out Johzeln as he continued to dash toward the pastoral . . "whenever I throw it . . I miss it or get hit by it . . then you throw it . . I catch right away . .” “Please hurry Aunt Yilainah . . here stand near me and then throw it . .” “Alright . . alright . .” said Aunt Yilainah . . And without a doubt . . as she lightly threw the boomerang away . . did the boomerang fly and fly . . and as it flew and flew right back toward where they stood . . did Johzeln . . catch . . the boomerang right beside his aunt . . “Yay . . caught it . .” shouted Johzeln with in full joy . . “Now Johzeln . . to throw and catch a boomerang is a skill which requires specific techniques and plenty of practice . . throw at eye-level . . lower your body a little bit like the time when you surf . .” said Aunt Yilainah . . "you gotta be peaceful whenever a boomerang flies fast toward you . . take a deep breath . . be prepared of which way you are gonna head to grab it in advance . . am not gonna be by your side lifetime . . Johzeln . . ” Johzeln . . looked at his Aunt . . and looked . . then with a little hesitation grabbed the boomerang . . and slowly carefully posed the way his Aunt told him to . . and after Johzeln slowly took a deep breath . . vigorously tossed the boomerang . . yet . . as he threw it . . Johzeln felt himself thrown into enigmatic panic again with a cold sweat . . and as he gazed the boomerang fly across and across and then . . see it heading right toward him . . faster and faster . . closer and closer . . Johzeln alarmed with fear and panic instantly shouted and began to dash away as fast as he could from the boomerang . . “Johzeln . .” cried out Aunt Yilainah as loud as she could . . as the boomerang nearly hit Johzeln . . Aunt Yilainah instantly blocked the boomerang . .
8/12/2022
Johzeln . . was a 12 year old school boy who lived with his aunt ever since he was 1 year old . . His parents passed away in an accident . . and because his parents passed away when he was a child . . sadly Johzeln did not have any memories about his dear parents except the faces Johzeln knew through the photos his aunt Yilainah gave him . . Yilainah . . age 44 . . aunt of Johzlen was . . an astronaut . . a payload specialist and . . a space law researcher mainly concentrated on the subject of space debris . . and because Yilainah was a space law researcher . . whenever Yilainah had time . . she attended conferences . . podcasts . . radio talk events to talk about the countries that are experiencing injustice due to the increasing unidentified space debris that are gradually causing problems to both the international stations & spaceships and especially astronauts . .
8/16/2022
“Johzeln . . tune into the podcast at 8 pm . .” lightly shouted out aunt Yilainah as she was about to head out the door . . Johzeln as he dashed toward the front door cried out . . “Was it tonight . . Yay . . my teacher and my classmates liked the report I wrote about the space debris aunt Yilainah . . and remember to enunciate that way I won’t miss a word you say . .” “Alrightyroo spaceman . . I fixed a bit of my and your favorite cherry shake with yogurt and walnut for a snack . . and if I am not home before 11 . . zone out . . ” said aunt Yilainah with a smile as she stepped out the door . . “I will aunt Yilainah” answered Johzeln with a smile too as he saw his aunt off . . and as soon as aunt Yilainah was out of sight . . Johzeln elated . . hurriedly grabbed his phone and cherry shake with yogurt and walnut with a cup of water and dashed to his room . . carefully put them on his desk . . turned on his phone and adjusted the volume . . and as he was about to take a sip of the cherry shake . . a bell rang from his phone . . He grabbed his phone and checked . . It was one of his classmates . . He began to text back and forth . . He texted when to tune into “Space Podcast Real Talk ” to listen to his aunt Yilainah speak as a guest expert . . and after a few text exchange . . He looked at the clock on the wall as he took a sip of the cherry shake . . He waited and waited for the clock to strike 8 pm . . At last . . “Space Podcast Real Talk” . . began . . “Hello everyone welcome to ‘Space Podcast Real Talk’ . . I am . . " "Alright alright . . Let's begin . ." said Johzeln thrilled . . "and Now . . ” “Yay . .” shouted out Johzlen with full excitement . . “We will be right back after these commercials . .” Johzlen looked at his phone with disappointment . . “why . . why . . ” grumbled Johzlen to himself . . as he threw himself on his bed tossed and turned . . and . . how many minutes passed . . “We will now invite our ‘Space Podcast Real Talk’ guest for tonight Ms. Yilainah Leah . . Hello . .” Johzlen exhilarated quickly sat on his bed and adjusted the volume again a little . . and leaned on to his phone . .” “and your comment to that Ms. Leah will be . .” “Thank You . . I Agree . . These days due to space debris . . though the countries are not at fault and merely because the countries were involved in the accident . . they are to compensate the damages and injuries made due to the accident because currently there are no mechanical device to hold the unidentified defendants responsible for the damage incurred to the victim states . . which is very unfair to both the countries and to their economy . . The problem is that these accidents are occurring frequently and there is no actual law that could stop the unfairness . . I believe it is a very serious issue because these space debris is in increase every single day though there is no current collision between the objects . .” “Yes That is correct . .” shouted out Johzlen on and on . . on and on . . how many minutes passed . . Johzeln slowly felt the podcast was about to end for he could hear the finish line by the podcast speaker . . and as he drank the last water drop from his cup . . he tiredly lied down in his bed with a little joyful stretch and then looked out the window next to his bed . . he looked at the bright night sky . . he looked and looked . . and smiled . . and then exhaustedly yawned . . he slowly felt himself head for a journey . . as . . an adult Johzeln . . a Journey that felt . . like a deja vu . . yet . . a dream . . yet . . is it . .
8/26/2022
Johzeln . . when he turned 16 . . and whenever his Aunt Yilainah had time to spend time with him . . Because Aunt Yilainah was an austronaut . . once in a while . . went either for sky glider ride . . or fighter jet ride . . At one Friday early summer night . . Aunt Yilainah decide to take Johzeln for a fighter jet ride as she did once in a while . . however Johzeln was especially excited for the ride tonight compared to the ride in the past . . because in the past they usually went for rides in the afternoons . . Aunt Yilainah while driving toward the local airport . . looked at Johzeln who was looking out the window with full excitement . . Aunt Yilainah then said as she looked back at the road in front of her . . “Johzeln . . you enjoy the ride . . yet always remember to listen to me through the headset while you ride in the back seat . . in case of an urgent emergency . .” “no worries Aunt Yilainah . . You are the Boss . .” said Johzeln as he looked at his aunt with a full smile . . and then quickly looked back out the window . . and then . . slowly looked above the night sky . . Johzeln looked at the sky for a while . . and then he excitedly said while looking at the sky . . “Aunt Yilainah . . I cannot wait to sit in the backseat of your jet and . . fly . . fly . .” and then looked at his aunt . . Aunt Yilainah smiled and quietly eyed the road . . “and then . .” abruptly said Aunt Yilainah . . “Huh . .” said Johzeln . . a little puzzled by her sudden words . . “I mean . . is that it Johzeln . . are you only gonna sit in the backseat of the jet . . won’t you wanna fly a plane yourself . .” Johzeln surprised by her sudden words . . slowly turned his face toward the road and looked at the direction she was looking at . . and then looked at the night sky . . he looked at the sky for a while . . then . . turned to his aunt and cautiously said . . “I . . I am not sure Aunt Yilainah . . I fear . . I mean . . the thought of heading toward the sky me flying the plane . . kinda freaks me out . . ” Aunt Yilainah . . quietly listened . . a minute of silence . . Johzeln a little worried of the thought that he might have upset his aunt again carefully said . . “Aunt Yilinaha . .” “Johzeln . .” called Aunt Yilainah still looking at the road . . another minute of silence . . “Johzeln . . listen to me and listen to me good . . the fear you mentioned . . is it the same fear as you fear the boomerang heading toward you . . is it the same fear you fear when a wave heads toward you when you surf . . is it the same fear you fear when you get closer to the land from the sky glider ride . . is it the same fear you fear to experience without me beside you . . Johzeln . . I like spending time with you . . yet . . you have to learn how to be independent without the fears . . have to try these activities by yourself . . Johzeln . . all we need to fear is fear itself . . you have to conquer your fears . . Are you gonna live with fears for the rest of your life . . No Johzeln . . You Cannot . . you have to try to conquer those deep fears inside you . . How many times did I tell you I am not gonna be by your side all the time . . ”
Johzeln . . astonished by the tone of Aunt Yilainah . . slowly looked down toward the road . . felt . . unconscious hurt permeate deep down into his heart . . yet not to disappoint Aunt Yilainah . . tried to smile and said cheerfully . . “I will definitely try . . Aunt Yilainah . . I . . will . .” and hurriedly looked out the window . . tried to calm himself . . yet the sudden hurtful pain permeated deeper and deeper into his heart . . followed by little tears filled in his eyes . . “Good . .” said Aunt Yilainah as she slowly drove into the parking lot of the local airport . .
9/2/2022
Johzeln pushed the first floor button of the elevator his Aunt Yilainah behind him . . and as soon as the elevator hit first floor and the elevator door slid to the right . . Beautiful night light scene of the calm airport filled his eyes . . and suddenly “whoosh” flew a jet airplane pass right before him . . Johzeln suddenly got excited . . He naturally felt the dismal feel gradually fade away within him . . Then . . he started to dash and dash toward the lighted runways . . Aunt Yilainah calmly looked at Johzeln . . did not stop him . . It seemed like Johzeln knew where he was heading to for it was not his first time at the airport . . Johzeln dashed toward several hangars that were aligned side by side . . Johzeln dashed and dashed . . until he stopped in front of one hangar . . As he panted trying to catch his breath . . he turned back and looked at his aunt who was walking toward him . . and as Aunt Yilainah arrived where Johzeln was . . she patted Johzeln on the head and walked toward the access door . . unlocked it . . went in with Johzeln following behind her . . and as she closed the access door . . she turned on the top lights . . and there she walked toward a lighted locker where her G-suit . . life preserver jacket . . harness . . fighter helmet . . along with the harness and the figter helmet of Johzelns were at . . Aunt Yilainah carefully unlocked the locker . . took a harness . . gloves . . and helmet out and passed them to Johzeln . . because it was not his first time . . as soon as he took them . . Johzeln put his harness on as he put his backpack on . . and then clipped several straps that were hung on the harness . . and then he wore his gloves . . then Johzeln began to wear his fighter helmet which always felt a little tight whenever he wore it because of the headset that was attached both sides of the helmet . . despite . . to make himself comfortable with the helmet as he always did he continued to push and turn push and turn until he got comfortable . . and then he tied the attached chin strap to the other side of the flight helmet and clipped . . and finally . . had his respirator mask . . clipped . . Aunt Yilainah already finished wearing her uniform and equipment on was quietly waiting for Johzeln to finish his . . and as soon as she saw Johzeln had his fighter helmet respirator mask on . . Aunt Yilainah smiled winked at Johzeln as she approached to the hangar door to release the bolt arm from the door . .
“YaY . .” shouted out Johzeln as he followed his aunt right behind . . and as Aunt Yilainah pushed the door forward . . there it was . . the grey fighter jet . . Johzeln as soon as he saw the fighter jet . . ran toward it while his aunt walked toward the center of the door to unlock the door by controlling the drop pin . . and then went from the left corner to the right corner to release the bolt arm from each hangar door . . and then finally pressed the button near the right door to draw each hangar to head upward . . and there . . Johzeln and Aunt Yilainah saw the beautiful night light brightly shine in the midst of the darkness . . Johzeln who got excited hurriedly ran toward Aunt Yilainah and waited for Aunt Yilainah to help him get on board on the fighter jet . . “Alrighty . . let’s carefully have you on board . .” Johzeln excited yet cautiously climbed up the pilot ladder that was hung on the side of the jet . . and carefully went into the back seat of the jet and sat . . “seat belts . .” “and connect the wire of the mask and the headset to the connector and cord that is part of your seat . . ” said Aunt Yilainah a little bit out loud . . Johzeln . . carefully buckled his seat belts and then connected each item to the connector . . “I am all set Aunt Yilainah . .” shouted out Johzeln with a beam . . Aunt Yilainah before she got into the front seat . . walked up the ladder of the back seat . . checked confirmed checked confirmed . . “Good job Johzeln . .” said Aunt Yilainah as she patted his helmet and shoulder . . and then . . attentively got down walked up the ladder that was attached on the side part of her front seat and got herself in the front seat . . and as soon as she got in . . she began to activate a number of lighted switches in the cockpit that was prepared to lit . . and after every switch has been activated . . finally . . Aunt Yilainah switched on the last . . where the canopy begin to direct low and low . . until it shut totally . . Johzeln felt his heart begin to beat with full thrill and exuberance . . “Alright Johzeln can you hear me . .” “Yes . .” shouted out loud Johzeln immediately with full excitement as soon as he clearly heard his Aunt Yilainah through his headset . . “Good . .” said Aunt Yilainah . . and there the fighter jet began to slowly head straight and straight out of its hangar home . . toward the airstrip that was endlessly . . brightly lit . .
9/11/2022
As the fighter jet slowly entered the airstrip . . stopped . . and then another minute of wait time . . Then . . with the radar signal from Air traffic controller . . “whoosh” . . the fighter jet began to accelerate its speed . . through the runway did it glide and glide . . faster . . and faster . . and in no time . . up up it went . . “Johzeln hold on . . there will be lots of turn and dive . . ” shouted out Aunt Yilainah . . as the jet continued to fly up toward the beautiful night sky . . away and away from the coast . . head toward the last shade of bright sunlight filled with endless sea of beautiful clouds where it felt like no darkness could ever exist . . on and on . . did the jet flew and flew . . “Hold on Johzeln . .” shouted out Aunt Yilainah . . then did the jet dive down and down toward the land . . “Whoa . .” shouted Johzeln as he saw the Earth turn upside down and upright and away . . again and again . . “Are you alright Johzeln . .” shouted out Aunt Yilainah after a couple of turn and dive . . “uh . . I mean . . Yes . .” shouted Johzeln . . “Are you not scared . .” Aunt Yilainah shouted back . . “A little . . yet . . I could take it . . I could . .” shouted Johzeln as he felt the plane was now flying straight ahead . . “That is right Johzeln . . You are not scared . . There will be lots of turns and dives ups and downs in life as it is now . . Yet inasmuch as you pull yourself together and push on straight forward . . with your positive mind and attitude . . as we are now . . one step at a time Johzeln . . you will be alright . . your fear . . it will fade away . . and away . .” with that Aunt Yilainah shouted out loud . . “Johzeln can you Push on and Pull whenever fear confronts you . . can You . .” Johzeln . . surprised by the sudden shout out by his Aunt Yilainah . . and not sure whether he could or not . . however felt like he did wanna . . at least he wanna try to . . by himself . . no matter how much how often the sudden fear tries to let him feel helpless . . no matter how much how often the sudden fear he confront tries to erase his way . . yes . . he truly wanted to . . and he is gonna . . he . . is . . gonna . . “YES . . ” shouted out Johzeln with all his might . . as though he desperately wanted to throw away his deep fears . . throw away his incomprehensible heavy heart placed deep down inside him . . “Yes . .” did Johzeln shout out again and again . . and with his enliven buoyant shout out . . up went the jet . . into peacefully endlessly light embellished beautiful night sky . .
9/21/2022
Then appeared . . a beautiful celestial-like night sky . . a night sky that was too clear to be true . . “Johzeln . . space is such an amazing place . . though I am in space and while I am at work . . I try to enjoy feel it as much as I could because I know I will miss it . . and . . I know it could be my last time . . to see and feel it near . . and its far beyond . .” “Johzeln . .” called out Aunt Yilanah . . “Yes . . Aunt Yilainah . .” answered Johzeln . . “Johzeln after I pass . . like my remained ash . . to be slowly spread . . in faraway space yes . . ” Johzeln . . halted . . was astounded . . astounded by the genuine tone of Aunt Yilainah . . Johzeln slowly looked at the front seat . . he looked and looked . . Life . . without his Aunt Yilainah . . is life that he has not in the least considered once . . life which seemed to be too far away to be real . . too difficult to live . . alone . . Johzeln . . looked the other way . . again . . felt sudden hurtful pain . . permeate deep down into his heart . . deeper and deeper . . until tears . . imbued in his eyes . . his heart . . as his future seem to fade away . . further and further away . . and as the jet begin to head down down toward the coastland . . Johzeln . . with a heavy heart . . slowly . . looked up and up the sky . . and a little further above and above . . and beyond . .
9/29/2022
Johzeln . . as he walked toward front of the elevator pushed the basement floor button his Aunt Yilainah behind him . . and as soon as the elevator hit the basement floor and the elevator door slid to the right . . there he saw Ayhilina . . a classmate who Johzeln had a huge hearts for at school . . “Johzeln . .” called Ayhilina “hey Hey . .” hesitantly called out Johzeln with sudden pulse rise . .
Ayhilina . . as she then saw Aunt Yilainah right behind Johzeln greeted her happily . . “Hello . . Ms. Leah . .” “Hello Ayhilina . .” Aunt Yilainah greeted back and said . . “Are you here to practice for pilot license . . isn’t it too late . .” “No . . I briefly stopped by to rearrange my equipment for my next practice . . uh Ms. Leah by the way . . Would you mind I stop by tomorrow to inquire as to the FAA Private Pilot Test . . ” “Absolutely not Ayhilina . . Wait . . however let’s make that next week . . I will be in train for a few days at the AIHE Space Center before I take off two weeks later . .” “Right right . .” said Ayhilina abruptly with full excitement . . “You are to head outer space for your last space mission . . soon . .” Ayhilina then all of a sudden quietly looked at Aunt Yilainah . . and said . . “It will be your last visit to the International Space Station . .” “Yes I am 48 years old now . . it is about time . . ” said Aunt Yilainah with an awkward smile and a little sigh as she slowly looked down . . Ayhilina suddenly felt regret that she mentioned that . . and to change the subject Ayhilina abruptly said . . “Did you guys fly . . How was it . . ” Aunt Yilainah . . with her sudden words . . gave a light push to Johzeln to talk . . astonished by the sudden nudge by his aunt . . Johzeln awkwardly with a perplexed smile . . said . . "wa . . wa . . Was . . Good . .” “Were you sitting at the back . .” said Ayhlina as she smiled at Johzeln . . Johzeln . . all of a sudden . . felt his face turn red in embarrassment . . “He did . . yet he said he wants to learn how to fly soon . . didn’t you . . Johzeln . .” said Aunt Yilainah as she gave his shoulder another little nudge . . “Are you serious Johzeln . .” said Ayhilina to Johzeln with amaze . . Johzeln baffled abruptly looked at Aunt Yilainah who was looking at Johzeln with a smile and said . . “well I will be at the garage Johzeln . . Ayhilina I will see you soon next week . .” “Yes . . Thank You . . I will call in advance and briefly stop by early next week . . again Thank You . .” answered Ayhilina as she saw off Aunt Yilainah . . Johzeln still bewildered perplexed continued to stand still . . “Johzeln Are you serious . . are you gonna learn how to fly . .” said Ayhlina as she turned back to Johzeln . . Johzeln . . reluctantly tried to smile . . then looked at Ayhilina with a continued awkward smile and said . . “Y . . yes . .” “That is amazing Johzeln . . We could later be best pilot buddies . .” happily shouted out Ayhilina . . “Y . . yes . .” repeated Johzeln with a sudden genuine smile on his face because of the thought that he could be best pilot buddies with Ayhilina not knowing whether it could even happen or not . . “Good . . Well . . I gotta head to my hangar . . see you again soon at pilot practice Johzeln . .” said Ayhilina as she turned to head out . . “Prom Night . .” abruptly shouted out Johzeln . . Ayhilina . . a little bit surprised by the sudden shout . . stopped and looked back at Johzeln . . Johzeln baffled and bewildered felt his face now turned full red . . yet because he did not wanna miss his chance that is now given before him again shouted out even louder . . “I mean . . Tuesday is Prom Night . . can . . can you consider to be My Date for the prom Ayhilina . . ” Ayhilina turned and looked back at Johzeln . . she looked at Johzeln for a little while . . then with a regretful tone cautiously said . . “Johzeln . . Filiahn already asked me out weeks before . .” Johzeln . . stood still . . Filiahn . . is one of the popular guys at school . . Johzeln . . instantly felt . . his body hit by a thunder . . his breath halt by heavy air . . his heart struck by a bullet . . his mind blank by her words . . “Johzeln . .” “Johzeln . .” called out Ayhilina . . “Are you alright . .” Johzeln . . regretted and regretted . . it happened too fast . . he should not have . . Johzeln still out of his mind became restless wanted to disappear . . “Johzeln . .” called Ayhilina again . . “it is not a date night . . it is one good prom night . .” “Let’s hang out altogether . .” said Ayhilina with a heartfelt smile . . Johzeln tried and tried to pull himself together tried to act as though he was alright . . forced himself to look at Ayhilina and nod with a smile . . however . . Ayhilina could feel his hurtful helpless look remained intact despite his smile . . “Johzeln . .” said Ayhilina as she looked at him . . “I am gonna request my favorite slow dance music to the DJ like rest of the students at slow dance time . . ” Johzeln who was still trying to calm his unsettled state of mind . . slowly looked at Ayhilina a bit surprised . . “See You Again Soon . . Tuesday Johzeln . . at slow dance time . . take care . . ” with that Ayhilina slowly walked out toward the airport toward her hangar . . and as she continued to walk Ayhilina looked back at Johzeln gave him a warmhearted smile . . Johzeln stunned absentmindedly looked at Ayhilina with his revived heartbeat suddenly felt . . as . . his heart pierced by an arrow . . his mind filled with blessed gratitude . . his body reawakened by an angel . . his breath filled with sunset kiss . . Johzeln looked and looked at Ayhilina walk toward her hangar until Ayhilina was wholly out of sight . . then quietly said to himself with his ceaseless heartbeat still beside . . “See You Again Soon . . at slow dance time . .”
10/11/2022
Johzeln was a little early at school . . Tuesday At Prom Night . . Johzeln stood in front of the Prom Room . . a grand room covered with heavenly clear mirrors on each and every wall . . gracefully embellished with beautiful colorful pastel chandeliers above . . filled with celestially vivid light above spread across the huge venue . . a grand room that was about to be filled with lively hearts . . Johzeln . . slowly went into the prom room . . on his dark grey pair of loafer . . grey wool silk suit and white shirt inside . . with a burgundy color tie within . . Nobody was in yet a party music was on as though it wanted to get the party started . . Johzeln slowly went in and walked toward a desk where the prom name tags were aligned . . Johzeln looked . . and there he found his name tag . . “Johzeln Leah” . . Johezeln held it clipped it on his right pocket . . then . . he carefully looked at the desk again . . looked and looked and . . there he found her name tag . . “Ayhilina Ineznahl” . . Johzeln looked at it for a while . . “See You Again Soon . . at slow dance time . .” her blissed calm shoutout . . that made him enliven . . that Johzeln held on . . until now . . Johzeln . . calmly . . looked and looked at her name tag . . “Johzeln . .” suddenly a loud call from afar startled Johzeln . . Johzeln astonished hurriedly turned . . one of his classmates with a group of students walked in . . “you are here early . . nice suit there pal . .” called out one of his other classmates with a smile as he and a few gave him a brotherly pat on his shoulder and a brotherly light punch on his back as the group passed by him . . “Th . . Thanks . . same to you guys . .” said Johzeln with an awkward smile as he nearly tripped because of the sudden unexpected near encounter . . “again . . Thanks . .” called out Johzeln as he kept his balance and cleared his throat . . “stay calm . . stay cool” said Johzeln to himself as he cleared his throat again and then looked at the near mirror on the wall . . Johzeln looked at the mirror and then begin to straighten his tie as he held his head high try to feel confident . . and then confidently sprayed in his mouth . . a cherry raspberry scent mixed breath freshner spray . .
“Ayhilina . . How are you . . ” Johzeln . . all of a sudden . . heard . . from afar . . as he was about to inhale the breath spray he sprayed . . He instantly . . felt . . his eyes turn wide . . his ears turn pink . . his cheek turn red . . his mouth in shock . . Johzeln begin to choke . . and cough . . harder and harder . . “I am very Well and Good . .” said Ayhilina with a bright smile as she greeted her classmates and walked in the room with . . Filiahn . . “Who is that guy . . is he alright . .” one of the classmates said as she looked at a boy who looked as though he was seriously sick . . with that . . Everyone in the grand room looked at . . Johzeln . . Ayhilina slowly looked too . . “Is that . . Johzeln . .” said one of the classmates with a laugh . . “already drunk . .” said the other classmate with another laugh . . Ayhilina surprised worriedly looked at Johzeln . . “Johzeln . .” called out Ahyilina and begin to walk toward him . . Filiahn who was drunk already said as he loosened his extragavant tie . . “who cares . . ” then looked toward Ayhilina forcefully stopped her and grabbed her in the waist and sternly said . . “where are you headed . . ” Ayhilina who instantly felt uncomfortable said . . “Filiahn . . stop it . .” and tried to get away from him . . however Filiahn nonchalantly again forcefully grabbed Ayhilina closer to him even harder . . with a lustful grin . . then said . . “I will grab you a drink Ayhilina . . you be right here . .” and then headed toward where the drink snack table was followed by a group of students . . Ayhilina . . suddenly again felt uncomfortable and weary . . wanted to be alone . . wanted to be home . . and then . . “Johzeln . .” Ayhlina remembered Johzeln . . Ayhlina turned and looked at Johzeln who was still in the middle of the corner . . Johzeln was now nearly calmed from his hectic choke-cough situation . . “Johzeln . .” Jozeln suddenly heard his name called . . Johzeln . . slowly turned . . and there was Ayhilina . . with her golden silver . . neutral flats . . her LV burgundy purse . . with her silver golden . . bodycon dress . . her light heart Necklace . .
Johzeln . . felt . . heart . . beat . . felt his eyes stop . . felt his body becalmed . . Johzeln . . now felt . . his heart . . race . . however Johzeln . . felt peace . . felt comfort . . It seemed like he . . was here before . . It seemed like he . . felt the same peace and comfort before . . right here . . yet couldn’t remember when . . “Johzeln . . I brought you a glass of water . . are you alright . .” Johzeln . . without a word looked at Ayhilina . . “Johzeln . . are you . . Alright . .” said Ayhilina again . . now a little worried . . “Y . . Yes . .” answered Johzeln who noticed the glass of water in front of him . . Johzeln . . hurriedly and thankfully . . took it . . “Thank You . . Ayhilina” . . Ayhilina smiled and slowly began to walk toward the drink snack table . . Johzeln . . as he saw Ayhilina walk away . . felt his mouth dry . . Johzlen hurriedly drank gulps of water from the glass . . quickly took out his breath freshner spray and sprayed . . then instantly shouted out . . “Ayhilina . .” Ayhilina . . stopped and . . slowly turned and looked back at Johzeln . . “I . . I . .” Then . . all of a sudden . . lights . . turned off . . and a second later . . the Lights . . one in the middle . . two on the sides . . turned on . . begin to spread its colorful pastel bright Light across the grand room . . and then all of a sudden . . Huge curtain at the back of the room went up slow pace . . and there appeared a number of band members with a neon sign at their back written . . “Hello Prom Night Dates” . . “Now Slow Dance Time” . . and then went on the neon sign . . “you Always with me here Together . . though We fall apart in Life . . let’s Remember our memories deep Within . . every Time you will be Missed . .”
Then the slow dance music started to play . . the students in the venue fully applauded with joy and started to gather in the middle of the stage and began to dance with their partners . . Johzeln looked at Ayhilina . . Ayhilina looked at Johzeln . . Johzeln because he did not wanna miss his chance that is given right before him bravely walked to Ayhilina and said “Ayhilina would you please dance with me . .” Ayhilina looked at Johzeln . . and smiled . . “Yes . .” with that . . Johzeln again . . felt . . his body awakened by an angel . . his heart hit by an arrow . . his mind filled with blessed gratitude . . his breath filled with sunset kiss . . “stay calm . . stay cool” reminded Johzeln to himself . . and with his endless heartbeat by his side . . as Ayhlina walked closer to Johzeln . . Johzeln bravely walked closer to her . . held her . . close . . as Ayhlina held Johzeln . . and there . . they began their little slow dance . . Johzeln as he felt his heart race . . slowly looked at Ayhilina . . where their eyes met . . Johzeln . . felt . . his heart pound like persistent waves against the cliff . . his heart pound like wings of a bird head to high mountain . . Johzeln to calm himself looked above the Light . . and then suddenly felt . . Ayhilina give him a nudge on the shoulder . . Johzeln . . abruptly yet shyly looked at Ayhilina . . Ayhilina smiled . . Johzeln . . looked . . Ayhlina again . . smiled . . Johzeln . . as he felt his face turn red . . his ear turn pink . . shyly smiled . . and suddenly . . felt . . the same peace and comfort Johzeln felt before . . yes . . right here . . Johzeln looked at Ayhilina . . and again . . smiled calmly at her . . within peace . . within comfort . . and then . . said . . “You Look Beautiful Ayhilina . . ” Ayhlina looked at Johzeln and gave a little giggle and said . . “You Too . . ” with that . . Johzeln beamed with full joy from the bottom of his heart . . gently dreamily held Ayhilina closer and closer as they slowly danced . . To Johzeln right now there was nobody else in the room yet he himself and Ayhilina . . Johzeln Ayhilina smiled and smiled as they Timelessly and Joyfully danced . . and . . as they held on to each other closer . . and as they heartedly looked at each other . . closer and closer . . they . . kissed . . right below the vivid bright light . . as the music went on and on . .
11/27/2022
Heavenly Time . . Again and again on and on the music went . . Time passed . . slow dance . . slowly began draw to a close . . pastel lights . . slowly quietly began to fade away yet . . Johzeln and Ayhilina still within their time close to each other . . quietly looked at each other close as though time has stopped . . However suddenly a loud yell was heard from afar as it got nearer and nearer . . Then . . all of a sudden . . Johzeln felt a huge strike on his head . . Then heard a sharp high pitched scream . . one after another and then another . . as it dreadfully echoed throughout the grand room . . "Ayhilina . . Ayhilina . ." voicelessly cried out Johzeln . . as he felt himself unconsciously slowly fall down on the dance floor . . He dejectedly absentmindedly tried to look toward Ayhilina . . yet out of sight . . Johzeln slowly passed out . .
How many minutes passed . . “Johzeln are you alright . .” Johzeln slowly felt himself regain consciousness . . then felt a bright flashlight fixated on him . . Johzeln astonished abruptly tried to stand . . yet Johzeln instantly felt huge pain on his head . . Johzeln nearly collapsed again . . then he felt several students help him stand . . take him to nearby empty low table where he dejectedly sat himself . . “are you alright pal . .” heard Johzeln very faintly . . Johzeln in a dizzy foggy state . . looked toward students with his eyes a bit closed and said . . “Yes . . Yes . . Thanks guys . . Appreciate it . .” repeatedly . . “Are you alright for sure Johzeln . .” “Want us call 911 . .” “How are you gonna drive home like that . .” “I can drop you off at your place . .” Johzeln . . though felt deeply thankful for the warm expressions . . because his mind was in a foggy state and with the sudden abrupt unexpected attention he started to feel a little uncomfortable . . “I am alright guys again Thanks . . Appreciate It . . ” “I am gonna walk home thank you . . yet can you guys get me a glass of water please . .” said Johzeln as he tried to pull himself together . . and then . . suddenly . . Johzlen remembered . . Ayhilina . . “Guys . . Ayhilina . .” instantly shouted as he straightly looked at one of his classmates right in front of him . . “Filiahn . .” said another classmate as he brought Johzeln water . . Ayhilina . . Johzeln dejected . . absentmindedly . . looked at his classmate . . then helplessly thanked his classmate for the water . . drank a little sip . . put the glass of water on the table . . and slowly stood up . . slowly began to walk toward the grand room door . . walked . . walked . . until he reached outside the school yard . . It was filled with full laughter and joyful shoutout here and there . . Johzeln suddenly felt forsaken . . totally lost . . Johzeln wanted to feel his laughter his joy . . yet . . no . . emptiness . . felt empty as it can be . . "Ayhilina" . .
12/8/2022
Johzeln slowly began to walk toward home . . Johzeln walked . . and walked . . Johzeln felt the fresh clear breeze pass by him with a little nudge on his shoulder . . Johzeln felt . . Restful . . no one was on the street on the sidewalk . . Johzeln felt . . Peaceful . . Johzeln walked . . and walked . . as he tried to forget about the incident . . as he tried to forget about . . Ayhilina . . yet Johzeln . . could not . . Johzeln . . could still feel her . . face . . body . . scent . . smile . . near him . . Johzeln . . abruptly shook his head . . tried to take his mind off . . Ayhilina . . however as Johzeln walked . . he suddenly . . realized . . he was in front of her place . . right in front of her place . . Johzeln . . then . . all of a sudden . . saw an unusual extravagant car parked in front of her home . . Johzeln . . felt uncomfortable . . Johzeln stood still for a while . . and then . . hesitantly . . slowly walked . . toward the parked car . . “Filiahn . .” said Johzeln . . to himself . . Johzeln . . suddenly felt . . disappointed . . felt dejected . . to the point that . . it was too painful . . Johzeln frustratedly looked at the car and then kicked the sidewalk near the car as though he wanted to break it into pieces . . like his lost heart right now . . that has instantly broken into pieces . . Johzeln . . downhearted . . crestfallen deeply . . dashed toward the other side of the street . . yet then . . all of a sudden . . Johzeln heard a cry . . “stop it . .” Johzeln . . instantly stopped . . “Ayhilina . .” it was her voice . . faintly . . yet . . it was her voice . . Johzeln . . astonished . . immediately dashed back toward her home . . stopped right in front of her door . . “Filiahn . . stop it . .” again . . did Johzeln hear Ayhilina cry out . . With that . . Johzeln began to press the doorbell . . shouted out . . “Ayhilina . . Ayhilina . .” however . . no response . . Johzeln stood still . . and then did Johzeln hear a struggle . . “Ayhilina are you Alright . . Are you alright Ayhilina . .” shouted Johzeln as he instantly dashed toward the side of the house where he heard the struggle . . and as he arrived at the back yard . . Johzeln saw a white-wooden fence nearly his height . . Johzeln urgently stood on his tiptoe . . and there . . Johzeln saw Filiahn nearly on top of Ayhilina . . Johzeln astonished furiously yelled . . “Filiahn you drunk stop it Right Now . .” with that . . Johzeln dashed back to jump over the fence . . then suddenly . . Luckily . . Johzeln saw the back door on his right unlocked . . Johzeln instantly dashed toward the back door and then charged right toward Filiahn as he shouted . . “Filiahn you drunk stop it Right Now . .” and then threw himself at Filiahn . . Filiahn got knocked down . . “Ayhilina head inside now and call the cops immediately . . stay inside . .” shouted Johzeln to Ayhilina . . Ayhilina . . as she got up nodded her head yet worriedly looked at Johzeln . . “I will be Fine . . Hurry Ayhilina head in . .” Ayhilina nodded and hesitantly walked toward home . . Johzeln then looked toward Filiahn where he was lying down on his stomache . . Filiahn was one of the best fighters at school . . Johzeln all of a sudden felt sick a little . . “how am I gonna fight him . . I am a dead man now . .” thought Johzeln as he walked closer and further back and forth from where Filiahn was . . however . . all of a sudden . . Johzeln heard Filiahn shout as he tried to stand up . . “Johzeln . . not the cops . . I will get busted by my parents . . not the cops . .” Johzeln . . a little surprised at the sudden situation . . at the same time relieved encouraged by his words . . shouted back . . “then get out of here right now . . Now . . ” with that . . Filiahn . . in a drunk state unsteadily hurriedly stood up walked toward the back door and then . . suddenly stopped . . turned and . . looked back at Ayhilina . . “I said get out of here Now . .” shouted Johzeln furiously . . Filiahn who nearly tripped hurriedly went out . . Johzeln carefully followed Filiahn at a distance to make sure he was totally out of sight . . and as Johzeln saw from afar a guy drive away with Filiahn . . Johzeln dashed to Ayhilina . .
Ayhilina . . was outside . . “Ayhilina . . “ “are you . . Alright . .” said Johzeln . . “Yes . .” said Ayhilina as she thankfully looked at Johzeln . . “Thank you . . Johzeln . . Appreciate It . . Cannot thank you enough . . " “No worries . .” said Johzeln as he smiled with a relief for he did feel a little proud of himself . . “Johzeln . .” Ayhilina suddenly called out . . “Your sleeves . . ripped . .” Johzeln bewildered hastily looked at his suit . . It was indeed ripped . . yet it was alright . . Johzeln looked at Ayhilina . . “No worries Ayhilina . .” “I have another suit . .” said Johzeln as he cheerfully smiled . . then . . Johzeln looked at Ayhilina . . and unconsciously abruptly said . . “You Look Beautiful Ayhilina . .” Ayhilina looked at Johzeln and gave a little smile and said . . “You Too . . ” Johzeln looked toward Ayhilina as he blushed . . his cheeks turned pink and red . . and then . . abruptly . . Johzeln shouted out . . “Ayhilina would . .” “would you walk with me a little uh visit my hideout . .” “yet we can could . .” “could walk next time . .” stuttered Johzeln . . “I like that Johzeln . .” said Ayhilina as she gave Johzeln a warmhearted smile . . then walked a little closer to Johzeln . . Johzeln . . as he slowly felt his heartbeat flutter . . carefully held her waist . . and with . . his revived heartbeat quietly suddenly felt . . his body reawakened by her scent . . his mind filled with blessed gratitude . . his heart filled with sunset kiss . . did they begin to walk together . . side by side . . toward the quiet streetlight . . toward the peaceful nature . .
12/17/2022
Johzeln . . Ayhilina . . walked and walked together . . peacefully quietly as they felt little rays of light spreaded between the pleasant warm night wind as they looked at each other with a restful smile time to time . . till . . they reached . . a hidden narrow path . . that led toward the mountain a little far away from their neighborhood . . “There Is a path . .” “I had no idea . . ” said Ayhilina with amaze . . “Yes my favorite place . .” said Johzeln with an awkward smile . . and then . . said . . “Would . . would it be alright for you Ayhilina to walk a little . .” “No . . nobody has ever been to my favorite place and I wanna . .” said Johzeln as he again begin to stutter . . “That Would Be Nice . .” said Ayhilina right away to Johzeln with a pleasantly felt smile . . and slowly began to walk toward the lone path . . and did they together . . dived into the path . . path that gradually led to a forest filled with intertwined fairytalelike forest trees . . “Beautiful . .” quietly shouted out Ayhilina . . as they slowly walked into the night forest . . the forest . . filled in with cleansed reinvigorated air filled in with enliven lively aura . . yet as they began to walk deep deep into the forest high and high toward the mountain path . . Ayhilina suddenly felt mist permeate from the distance . . “Johzeln I cannot see . .” with that . . Johzeln . . hurriedly went closer and gently held Ayhilina by her waist and said . . “There is nature light a few feet away . .” Ayhilina a little surprised by his words looked at Johzeln and said . . “Nature Light . .” Johzeln . . quietly looked at Ayhilina . . nodded with a smile . . Ayhilina . . Johzeln . . then leaned on to each other walked and walked . . and did they soon arrive in front of a beautiful heavenlike waterfall in the middle of a deep deep quiet forest . . filled with pastel lights in full glow . . “Johzeln . .” called out Ayhilina . . “It feels like right now I am in space . . Too Beautiful . .” Yes . . It was truly beautiful . . waterfall melody . . nature light . . purefelt mist . . angelic silence . . with the pastel colorful waterfall lights spread across on the reflected lunar lights . . and a mystic pastel blue gold light spread across above the limestone of the waterfall . . It was Beautiful . . “Ayhilina . .” Ayhilina in amaze looked toward Johzeln . . there Johzeln held a little glass lantern . . filled with pastel blue gold glow light . . “Johzeln . . ” “Yes . . Nature Light . . glow worms . . no harm to humans . . ” “Hidden . . yet one beauty God . . has ever created . . Led Guided my Way whenever I got lost . .” Ayhilina . . looked at . . Johzeln . . Johzeln quietly . . smiled . . and then . . said . . “Let’s . .” and with his nature light by their side . . beautiful heavenlike waterfall behind . . did they walk walk . . toward the path higher . . and higher . . “Ayhilina . .” suddenly called out Johzeln as he breathed deep from their walk on the mountain . . “Yes . . Johzeln . .” “why you learn how to fly a plane . .” Ayhilina . . with a smile and after a little breathe for breath herself said . . “I wanna be austronaut like your aunt . .” then looked at Johzeln . . “How about you Johzeln . . You said you will join my pilot lesson . .” with that . . Johzeln replied . . “Yes I am gonna . .” without hesitation without uncertainty . . because Johzeln wanted to . . because Johzeln wanted to be a real man . . without fear . . Johzeln then slowly glanced at Ayhilina . . then looked back toward the mountain path . . and then did Johzeln look at Ayhilina . . and called out again . . “Ayhilina . .” Ayhilina as she took a deep breath to feel the scent of nature looked at Johzeln . . “Yes . . Johzeln . .” “Are you alright to live alone by yourself . .” Ayhilina a little astounded by his words looked at Johzeln . . “I am very worried because of . . Filiahn . .” said Johzeln as he meant it . . Ayhilina . . with a warm smile took another deep breath . . and then looked at Johzeln and said . . “I am alright Johzeln . . Thank You . . I lived alone by myself for quite a while I am very much used to it now . . Thank You again . . ” Johzeln . . then . . abruptly said . . “Would you mind I visit time to time at your home . .” Ayhilina . . with a little astonishment and a little smile . . looked at Johzeln . . “I . . I mean to make sure you are alright . .” stuttered Johzeln again . . as he meant it . . “Johzeln I like that . .” said Ayhilina as she gave Johzeln a little nudge on his shoulder with a warm smile . . and then all of a sudden . . did they feel a chilly yet refreshed wind pass by right through them . . “Ayhilina We Are Here . .” with that . . Ayhilina found herself right at the very top of the mountain . . Ayhilina as she gradually caught her breath . . slowly walked toward the cliff filled with tall nice palm trees . . and as she reached the cliff . . Ayhilina carefully peeked between the tall palm trees . . “Johzeln . . Peallahn Beach . . how did we ever . . reach here . .” Ayhilina shouted with amaze . . Ayhilina then heard Johzeln shout out from across . . “Ayhilina . .” Ayhilina slowly turned and looked toward Johzeln . . there Ayhilina saw Johzeln right in front of a huge outworn van that was written “In 1977” . . Ayhilina . . amazed by the sudden sight of a van at the very top of the mountain . . gave a shout out . . “Goodness . . Johzeln how in the world did you . .” Johzeln with a little smile said . . “It was not me . . It is my aunt . .” “My aunt was born in 1977 . . as soon as my aunt saw the van with her born year written on it at an auction while she was at school . . she bought it . . with cash . .” “In an auction . .” said Ayhilina with amaze . . “For how much . .” Johzeln . . with a litter laugh . . said . . “48 dollars . .” “Excuse . . Me . .” said Ayhilina with a little laugh herself . . and then said as she walked closer to the van . . “Good deal . .” Johzeln . . as he put his nature lantern on top of the van said . . “Yes and No there was a well-founded logic of why the van was cheap . . My aunt used it for a year and . . ever since . . it has been here with me help me live on breathe on . .” said Johzeln with a heartfelt smile . . “Are you serious . . ” said Ayhilina as she gave a little smile too . . “However . . Johzeln . .” “you cannot drive it . . how in the world could it help you live on breath on . . ” with that . . Johzeln looked at Ayhilina and beckoned to Ayhilina . . Ayhilina looked at Johzeln and slowly walked near . . Johzeln . . as he saw Ayhilina walk toward him . . hurriedly climbed his van reached on top of it . . “Johzeln . .” shouted Ayhilina astounded by his sudden quick act as she reached in front of his van . . “Here . . Ayhilina . . ” “I will help you . .” Ayhilina as she looked at Johzeln said . . “Are you serious . .” “I am dead serious . . Ayhilina Believe me you will like it . . ” with that . . Johzeln beckoned to Ayhilina again to walk closer and . . as Ayhilina got closer within his reach . . carefully helped her climb on top of it . . and . . as soon as Ayhilina . . got on top of his van . . there Ayhilina saw a beautiful picturesque night beach . . unfolded right in front of her eyes . . “Johzeln . . it is Beautiful . ." "I feel like I am above the sky and beyond with wings . .” wholeheartedly shouted out Ayhilina deeply amazed . . “Glad you like it . .” said Johzeln with a fully relieved smile . . Ayhilina then looked at Johzeln with gratitude . . and nodded . . “Now I understand . .” said Ayhilina . . “You hike to be right here whenever you wanna be with nature . . whenever you wanna be left alone . .” “Yes you are right . . yet . . there is . . another purpose . .” said Johzeln . . Ayhilina looked at Johzeln with awe . . Johzlen however . . instead of a talk . . suddenly grabbed a huge full wire fence shaped blanket that was on top of his van . . and spread it . . and then sat on the blanket . . dropped his legs on the side of the van . . then beckoned to Ayhilina . . Ayhilina . . as she gave a little suspicious gaze at Johzeln with a little smile . . slowly walked toward the full blanket . . and then sat on the blanket next to Johzeln as she dropped her legs on the side of the van too . . then Johzeln suddenly lied down straight . . and beckoned to Ayhilina . . Ayhilina as she gave a one last suspicious look at Johzeln with a little smile . . lied down right next to Johzeln . . then . . did Johzeln call out . . “Ayhilina . .” as he gazed at the night sky . . “I hike time to time whenever my aunt is in space . . I would look through beyond night sky pray for my aunt to be alright be in peace . .” Ayhilina . . with his unexpected words . . suddenly felt . . her heart her eyes filled with warm heartfelt tears . .
Ayhilina dreamed looked at the night sky beyond for a while quietly . . then slowly sat herself looked at Johzeln and said “Johzeln . ." "Would you mind you visit time to time at my home . .” Johzeln then with a little astonishment slowly sat . . “I mean to make sure you are alright . .” said Ayhilina with a little smile . . with that Johzeln Ayhilina joyfully quietly looked at each other closer closer . . kissed right above the lighted nature lantern right below the night light as melody of sea wave went on and on . .
안녕하세요 그대 지난 몇일 동안 선한 믿음내 행복하고 편안히 잘 지냈길 바라며 마음내 축복가득 전하며 인사해요 ^-^
네 조금 바빴지만 저도 덕분에 행복하고 편안한 마음내 잘 지냈어요 언제나 감사해요 ⟡
내년부터 이어질 저의 픽션들은 이제부터 본론으로 들어갈거예요 나름대로 정성들여 혼자 만들어 가고 있기에 시간이 걸리는 거 이해해줘 감사해요 ^-^
언제나 한 해가 그랬듯 이번 해도 은혜롭고 평화로운 날들로 감사히 기억에 남을 것 같아요 기억에 남아있는 한분 한분 축복 가득하길 기도해요 ♡
안전히 잘 지내시고 있있길 보고싶어 저도 저를 한 번도 실제로 보지 않은 분들도 있을 거예요 조금은 궁금하실 것 같아요 직접 본다는거 좋아하는 마음 확신의 길 네 ^-^
한국과 미국내 이어가는 저의 평범한 삶 언제나 선한 믿음내 최선내 늘 낮은 자세로 저의 곁에 있어줄 그대가 있을거라 믿기에 흥분가득 행복가득 ⟡
욕심이 많은 보여주기 급급한 권력이 아닌 권력을 악용하여 정직하지 않은 하는 척 하는 분들 보여요 걱정되요 부디 조심하시기를 분들 위하여 우리 같이 기도해요 ^-^
그대 언제나 그랬듯 우리 밝은 미래의 길 세상에 알려져도 조용히 밝은 그림자와 같은 존재로 도움 필요하신 분들 돌아보며 살아가길 바래요 감사해요 ♡
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As always Thanks to you I am very Well & Good too again I deeply Thank You ⟡
Yes time did fly again however gotta say I am within Gratitude again Thanks for my humble art work to be partly Guided by you your people in time Appreciate you ^-^
Thank You as We said I will further Endeavor to fulfill My legal work and art alone in lighted shadow out of the public eye till time for hidden People in struggle Be Heard ♡
Next fictions which will begin next year will both gradually begin its main plot because until now it was a prologue ^-^
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1/21/2023
Johzeln . . looked at the time hung on the wall . . then he stood in front of the door looked out the window . . then looked at the time again . . then . . abruptly . . did Johzeln give a heavy sigh . . another one . . and another . . as he walked back and forth in the same place . . “Johzeln can you help me with the luggages . .” called out Aunt Yilainah . . with that . . Johzeln quickly walked toward where Aunt Yilainah was . . then carefully grabbed her luggages and brought them in front of the door . . “They are heavy right . .” said Aunt Yilainah as she dragged the rest of the luggages to the door . . “Nope . .” said Johzeln quietly . . as he carefully dropped the luggages on the floor . . Aunt Yilainah . . consciously looked at Johzeln as she dropped her luggages next to other luggages . . then called out . . “Johzeln . .” “How is your plane practice nowadays . .” Johzeln . . as he pulled the luggages nearer to the door . . reluctantly said . . “Good . .” then slowly . . looked out the window . . Aunt Yilainah after a concerned look at Johzeln . . purposely shouted out with an unusually excited tone in her voice . .“When are you gonna earn your Private Pilot License . .” Johzeln . . however with little enthusiasm . . looked at Aunt Yilainah and said . . “about in several weeks . .” “Good . .” joyfully said Aunt Yilainah . . “Heard Ayhilina finally earned her Commercial Pilot Certificate . .” with that . . Johzeln . . with a little smile on his face said . . “Yes . .” “Are you gonna earn your Certificate after you earn your License . .” asked Aunt Yilainah . . Johzeln . . then . . with another little smile on his face said . . “I Wanna yes . .” “Fantastic Johzeln . . Time I am back to Planet Earth within about 211 days . .” “My favorite boy will be a pilot . . YaY . .” shouted out Aunt Yilainah with a full smile . . Johzeln . . with an awkward look . . reluctantly . . gave a smile too . . for he himself was excited to fly a plane with a real certificate . . “Now that looks nice . .” said Aunt Yilainah relieved to see Johzeln smile . . “Johzeln . .” then called Aunt Yilainah . . as she walked closer to Johzeln tightly held on to his shoulder . . “I will be back in about 211 days . .” “Time flies . . I will be back before you even know it . .” then lightly patted him . . Johzeln quietly nodded his head as he slowly looked down and then looked at Aunt Yilainah with another yet awkward smile . . “Yet you behave well when in your practice always remember to strictly abide by the instructions . .” said Aunt Yilainah with a little strict tone of voice . . “in case your plane get sucked into space . .” added Aunt Yilainah with a little laugh as she gave Johzeln another delightful pat on the shoulder . . “For sure . .” said Johzeln with a little laugh too . . then . . Aunt Yilainah . . with a heartfelt smile . . looked at Johzeln . . “Who knows . . Probably later Ayhilina You both as astronauts we could altogether travel into the wild wild space . .” “Nobody knows . .” said Aunt Yilainah with another heartfelt smile . . “True true . . nobody knows . .” agreed Johzeln as he quietly nodded and nodded . . Aunt Yilainah . . then again for a little while looked and looked at Johzeln . . and then said . . “I am gonna miss you lots boy . . Feel sad that I cannot be with you on your Birthday . . ” Johzeln then looked at his Aunt Yilainah with a little awkward smile . . then looked down with a little sad face . . then again . . looked out the window . . “Johzeln . . “ called out Aunt Yilainah . . Johzeln . . however . . his head still faced to the window his eyes welled in tears . . could not look . . “Johzeln . .” again called Aunt Yilainah as she walked in front of Johzeln held his both shoulders tightly straightly as she wanted Johzeln to look at her . . “Johzeln . .” “Whenever you feel lonely . . look toward the sky and its far beyond . .” said Aunt Yilainah . . as Johzeln now looked at Aunt Yilainah his eyes filled with tears . . “Because I am gonna be right by your side your heart Johzeln no matter where I am above . .” then . . Aunt Yilainah quietly gave a little heartfelt kiss on his forehead . . and then gave a little ticklish light nudge on his shoulders . . Johzeln who was unusually quite a bit ticklish . . reluctantly smiled as his welled tears flew down down his cheeks . . Then . . all of a sudden . . they heard a knock on the door . . Ayhilina . . “Ayhilina . . you are early . . ” quietly shouted out Johzeln astonished as he dashed to his room . . “Hello Ms. Leah . . Is he alright there . .” said Ayhilina as she looked at Johzeln dash to his room . . “He is he is . .” said Aunt Yilainah as she joyfully greeted Ayhilina . . Ayhilina quietly nodded as she understood . . “Ms. Leah . . ” called Ayhilina as she looked at Aunt Yilainah with a little sudden sad look on her face . . “I wanted to stop by to tell you . . I am in prayers for your safe journey . .” “Why Ayhilina Thank You . .” said Aunt Yilainah . . with a full smile filled with gratitude . . and then . . quietly looked toward Ayhilina and said . . “Ayhilina . . I always wanted to tell you too . .” “Thank you for your generous heart your heartfelt help aid you truly deeply gave to Johzeln . .” “After Johzeln met you . . Johzeln changed . .” “Johzeln grew a lot for the past few weeks because of you . . Now I can fly out above in Peace Ayhilina Thank you . .” said Aunt Yilainah filled with gratitude . . “That is too good to hear Ms. Leah . . I cannot be happier . .” said Ayhilina with a full smile as tears welled in her eyes . . Johzeln . . then appeared . . “Johzlen . .” joyfully shouted out Ayhilina a little astonished as Ayhilina cleared her voice to hide her tears . . Johzlen quietly smiled . . then looked at Ayhilina gave a little nod . . Ayhilina looked at Johzeln then gave a little nod as well . . then they both looked at Aunt Yilainah . . “Aunt Yilainah . .” with that . . Johzeln took out a gold-burgundy heart necklace and two bracelets one with gold half heart the other burgundy half heart . . Ayhilina . . then gave the necklace to Aunt Yilainah as Johzeln gave the burgundy half heart to Ayhilina gold half heart to himself . . “We made these together . . Aunt Yilainah . .” “Want you to always have it on . . " "That way we believe that your heart above is gonna be within our hearts bridged together no matter where you are . .” said Johzeln as he looked at Aunt Yilainah then toward Ayhilina . . “You Guys . .” cried out Aunt Yilainah with her blissful tears welled deep in her eyes as she walked close kissed Johzeln and Ayhilina on their foreheads . .
“Yes you guys No matter Where I am . . Your Heart Within Me . . Thank You . . Thank You . .”
1/29/2023
“Johzlen . .” Ayhilina called as she closely saw Johzeln in front of his locker . . walked toward Johzeln who looked at Ayhilina . . then kissed a while leaned to her locker . . until another fellow pilot student of theirs budged in and said . . with a little laugh with a little joke . . “guys . . you guys are at the air-port . . air kiss . . no deep kiss allowed . . ” Johzeln Ayhilina astonished and a bit embarrassed by the sudden entrance . . with an awkward laugh . . said . . “duly noted Jedrahn . .” as Johzlen hurriedly walked toward his locker . . “by the way . . belated Congrats on your Commercial Pilot Certificate Johzeln . . your aunt must be very proud of you . . again Congrats . . ” said Jedrahn after he gathered a few of his pilot stuffs passed by Johzeln with a joyful pat on his shoulder . . “Thanks . . Jedrahn . . Good Luck with yours . . next week . .” said Johzeln with a shout out . . then smiled at Ayhilina . . Ayhilina . . after she saw Jedrahn exit the room . . smiled at Johzeln as well and as she took out her G-suit said . . “Johzeln it was nice yesterday to see Ms. Leah again briefly . . I was very relieved that Ms. Leah was in Good shape as usual . .” “True . . yet I am always worried whenever the call gets disconnected suddenly . .” said Johzeln with a worried look on his face as he took out his G-suit and harness . . “I guess . . antenna was out of its range of the satellite . . it happens . . once in a while . . ” said Ayhilina then added . . “Johzeln . . who was the man that briefly appeared . .” Johzeln as he slowly closed his locker . . curiously looked at Ayhilina as though he could not remember who . . “you know . . nearly before the call got disconnected . . ” said Ayhilina as she put on her harness and survival vest . . Johzeln . . as he put on his survival vest too . . abruptly said . . as he now rememebered . . “you mean the man who flew passed by . . Mr Farluene . . He is mission specialist . . I remember he used to take my aunt out for several dates before in the past . .” “Is he . . boyfriend . .” Ayhilina said as she sat to put on her pilot flight boots . . Johzeln . . as he sat to put on his pilot flight boots too said . . “not that I know of no . . I did mention it a few times . . yet . . Aunt Yilainah said he is a colleague . .” “Is he nice . .” Ayhilina said as she carefully tied a knot of her boots . . “He is decent . . I have not talked to him a lot . . yet . . seemed to be decent . .” said Johzeln as he carefully tied a knot of his boots too . . “Good . .” said Ayhilina as she put on her helmet and her gloves . . “Good to hear he is decent . .” Johzeln who finally finished his prep as well as he put on his helmet and his gloves too . . walked toward Ayhilina . . gave her a kiss then said . . “Let’s . .” “Yes . . Let’s . .” said Ayhilina . . as they walked passed the hangar door . . toward . . the beautiful grey fighter jet of Aunt Yilainah . . Johzeln and Ayhilina walked toward the center of the door to unbolt . . then . . went from the left corner to the right to release the bolt arm from each hangar door . . then as Ayhilina walked toward the grey fighter jet . . did Johzeln press the button near the right door to draw each hangar to head upward . . and there Johzeln Ayhilina saw the beautiful sunlight brightly lit in the midst of the bright daylight . . Ayhilina smiled at Johzeln as she cautiously climbed up the pilot ladder that was hung on the side of the jet . . and carefully went into the back seat of the jet and sat . . buckled her seat belt . . connected the wire of the mask and headset to the connector and cord of her seat . . Johzeln . . as he walked toward the jet smiled at Ayhilina . . attentively climbed up the pilot ladder into the front seat and got in . . then . . as soon as he buckled his seat belt connected his mask and headset . . began to activate a number of lighted switches in the cockpit that was prepared to lit . . and after every switch has been activated . . finally . . Johzeln switched on the last button . . where the canopy begin to direct low and low . . until it shut totally . . “Good job Johzeln . .” joyfully shouted out Ayhilina . . “Thanks Ayhilina . . Aunt Yilainah did teach me well . .” said Johzeln filled with deep gratitude . . “Ms. Leah sure did . .” shouted out Ayhilina . . with that . . Johzlen carefully checked the switches one last time . . “Alright Ayhlina . . can you hear me . .” “Yes . .” shouted out loud Ayhlina immediately with full excitement as soon as she clearly heard Johzeln through her headset . . “Good . .” said Johzlen . . and there the jet began to slowly head straight and straight out of its hangar home . . toward the endless airstrip . .
Johzeln as he controlled the fighter jet . . slowly entered the airstrip . . stopped . . and another minute of wait time . . then . . with the radar signal from Air traffic controller . . “Whoosh” . . the fighter jet began to accelerate its speed . . through the runway did it glide and glide . . faster . . and faster . . and in no time . . up up it went . . “YaY . .” shouted Ayhilina . . as the jet continued to fly higher toward the beautiful clear sky . . away and away from the coast . . “Johzeln . . How are you . .” said Ayhilina . . as the jet head toward the beautiful sea of endless clouds . . “Fantastic . . How are you . .” “Good Johzeln . . It is too good to be true . . yet . . a little bored . . ” said Ayhilina with a little laugh . . “Alright . . Hold on . .” shouted out Johzeln . . then did the jet dive down and down toward the land . . “YaY . .” shouted Ayhilina as the jet turned upside down and upright and away . . again and again . . “Johzeln . . Ms. Leah is gonna be proud of you . . I cannot wait her to be back soon . . and ride your ride . .” said Ayhilina as the jet now flew straight ahead through the clouds . . “Me too Ayhilina . .” “soon within a week . .” said Johzeln excitedly . . however . . suddenly . . from afar . . beyond the sky in front of them . . Johzeln saw a dark fog appear . . then they grew darker and darker . . and within seconds covered the entire sky . . then . . disappeared . . Johzeln . . astonished . . appalled . . by the sudden unusual scene that rarely happens . . “Johzeln . . ” anxiously shouted out Ayhilina . . “Ayhilina . .”
2/11/2023
Johzeln Ayhilina . . all of a sudden . . received very high frequency radio call from the Air Traffic Control [ ATC ] . . Johzeln hurriedly tuned into the frequency as he flew a bit down to avoid the mountains that could disrupt the frequency . . then from the call . . he heard words . . a bit unclear “ . . we . . information from . . Space Center . . Ms. Yilainah . . passed away due to . . accident . .”
Johzeln . . Johzeln doubted . . his ears . . felt his eyes stiff . . his face tilted . . he doubted . . again . . and again . . “JAHL 4PWT standby . .” repeatedly called out ATC . . “JAHL 4PWT . . could . . could . . you . . re . . repeat . . message . ." faltered Johzeln as he hastily flew to a clear sight without structures that could disrupt the frequency . . “JAHL 4PWT I say again we have information from the Space Center that Ms. Yilainah Leah passed away due to accident . .” repeated ATC . . Johzeln . . felt . . his ears turn deaf . . his body turn numb . . sight turn . . dark . . darker darker . . his mind . . blank . . blanker blanker . . Ayhilina . . lost with words . . shocked . . absentmindedly . . stared front . . “JAHL 4PWT . . JAHL 4PWT . .” repeatedly called out ATC . . “Roger . . that . . stand . . standby . .” said Johzeln . . reluctantly . . abstractedly . . “JAHL 4PWT Current time noon for safety we recommend you to land . .” called out ATC . . however . . Johzlen . . felt his mind numb . . could not hear feel . . forgot where he was . . where he was at . . where he was . . “JAHL 4PWT I say again JAHL 4PWT Current time noon for safety we recommend you to land . .” called out ATC . . Johzeln . . wanted to say . . wanted to respond . . yet he could not . . for Johzeln felt . . a huge lump in his throat . . a tight crestfallen lump . . deep in his throat . . “Johzeln . .” Ayhilina . . grief-stricken heart-broken . . feebly called out . . Johzeln . . reluctantly arduously . . deeply shaken . . tried to respond . . “that it . . it not un understandable . . be . . because . . ” Johzeln could not finish his sentence . . Johzeln . . could not . . he could not . . because . . it is not real . . he is in a bad dream . . yes . . that is it . . that . . it . . “Johzeln . . Please . . wake up . . wake up . .” shouted Johzeln to himself . . again . . and again . . yet . . No . . it was not . . No . . “JAHL 4PWT cannot copy cannot copy . .” repeatedly called out ATC . . then . . did Johzeln hear Ayhilina call him . . through his headset . . "Johzeln . . " as Ayhilina now grievously . . endlessly . . wept and wept . . Johzlen . . with that . . heart . . stopped . . No . . it cannot be . . No . . it . . cannot . . be . . "Aunt Yilainah . . No . ." “No . . No . .” Johzeln . . frantically begin to yell . . “No . . No . . No . . No . . ” Then . . did Johzlen suddenly blast his jet . . in an outrageous speed . . upward . . toward the sky . . higher . . higher . . toward beyond . . “Johzeln . . No . . ” terrifiedly screamed Ayhilina . . “JAHL 4PWT ask you to descend Immediately . . before your radar service gets terminated . . Immediately . .” urgently called out ATC . . yet . . Johzlen . . did not . . could not . . he could . . not . . and as his jet continued to head outrageously toward the sky . . did Johzeln feel . . his body gradually . . tensed . . unnerved . . weakened . . shaken . . as his tears . . poured . . poured . . down down . . “Johzlen . . Please No . .” terrifiedly cried Ayhilina as she helplessly broke down . . “JAHL 4PWT . . " abruptly called out ATC . . "additional . . information . . about . . Ms. Yilainah Leah . . now arr . . ived how . . ever . . your . . land is necess . . ary . . because . .” then abruptly . . radar service got . . terminated . . Johzeln . . dreadfully appalled by the sudden notice termination of the radar service . . desperately cried out . . as he instantly swerved the jet at breakneck speed down down . . down and down . . “Johzeln . .”
Deeply Pray For People In Türkiye Syria & Every Rescuer
2/24/2023
Hello Before I begin . . Would Like to tell briefly that the space phenomenon below is a plot that I myself have created with a little knowledge I have in the very field of space science and astronomy . . My Fiction is merely a fiction which dealt with My Deep Interest in Space and Its Further Beyond . . Please Enjoy them whenever your time permits Within Peace of Mind I deeply again Thank You . .
Johzeln Ayhilina . . currently at the AIHE Space Center . . four weeks after the unprecedented tragic incident . . a week after arrival by four survived crew . . A Space Expert and . . Mr. Farluene survived mission specialist and commander of the space crew . . gave a brief . .
Space Expert = Hello Good Afternoon my name is Cyberzn . . I am currently a senior level executive of the Space Force Research Academy . . Unfortunately the day of the tragic incident . . a unique space object called “2023 AP” roughly 12 km across was detected less than 1,800 kilometers from the surface of Earth which headed toward us in an unusually fast speed of 38 kilometers per second which we presume is due to a sudden gigantic gravitational force which is assumed to be created by an unidentified collision between several massive objects in a very far away galaxy . . the collision assumed to have created . . a split second yet large-enough amplitude gravitational wave as well . . Further “2023 AP” happen to be in front of the Sun for not even a second which entirely eclipsed the Sun in a short period of time . . A very unusual incident . . which was why the sky of half the Earth suddenly grew dark in the middle of the day within seconds on the day of the tragic incident . . In addition . . due to the unusually fast speed of “ 2023 AP” . . though it itself did not pose a direct risk to Earth at the time . . because it was an unusual incident which did not happen ever before in history of space . . and again . . because of the unprecedented unusual speed toward Earth . . a number of spacecrafts that were sent to space in advance for “planetary defense” purpose was controlled to head toward the direction of “2023 AP” . . [“planetary defense” purpose is to crash the spacecrafts into a space object that has a potential to collide with Earth to change the direction of the space object and prevent it from collision] . . however due to the aforementioned sudden creation of a split second yet large-enough amplitude gravitational wave . . spacecrafts instantly uncontrollably began to collide with other large number of satellites and numerous space debris near Earth which was the cause of the tragic incident that day . .
Mr. Farluene = In sadness as to the tragic incident . . yet without any further delay will begin my brief as to the incident . . It was nearly noon at that time . . on the day of the incident . . a number of unidentified gigantic space debris suddenly crashed into our International Spaceship . . and as it did . . broke two major cameras and lenses directly outside our spaceship and indirectly inside of our spaceship . . videos from the spaceship External High Definition Camera has been interrupted as well due to loss of signal between the spaceship and the communication network caused by the unidentified number of collided space debris . . which from then on . . our spaceship lost control and begin to float uncontrollably for about two hours which is presumed that the aforementioned gravitational wave would be the cause . . In addition . . due to the same clashed space debris . . the antenna that was pointed at the Deep Space Network one in California changed its direction which caused the signal from our spaceship to be lost . . and that is why the AIHE Space Center lost contact with our spaceship despite a lot of efforts made on its part until our crew got rescued by the Space Police . . However . . after two hours of uncontrollable distressful float in space . . our spaceship slowly halted at an unidentified location considerably far way from Earth . . then after . . approximately an hour later . . as we confirmed that the close was clear . . we had four astronauts head outside to fix the broken antenna and other problematic issues that had to be fixed by the tools we had at that time . . While the astronauts slowly headed out one after another with their safety tether on . . another gigantic space debris crashed into our spaceship again . . and unfortunately . . due to the impact . . the male astronaut who was last in line and about to head out . . suddenly got harshly thrown outside toward space . . consequently . . the tether failed and his capsule depressurized . . regretfully . . he . . passed away . . yet fortunately . . the male astronaut did not drift away for his tether was connected to the tether of the other astronaut who was already outside . . the other nonsurvivor Ms. Yilainah Leah . . who was inside at the time of the collision . . was about to have her space helmet on to head out . . however unfortunately got thrown on the wall due to the space debris crash . . Ms. Leah hit her head on the wall . . severely injured . . regretfully . . regretfully . . passed . . away . . the deceased body of the male astronaut was safely brought to our spaceship afterwards . . however . . because we did not know when we could be rescued due to the lost signal and contact . . and because the bodies of two astronauts began to give physical and psychological damage to the survivors inside the spaceship . . a week after the tragic incident . . we made a decision to use . . Promession system for both of our space crew who passed away . . [promession system is where a corpse that is placed inside the airtight casket to be placed outside attached to the spaceship . . then for a period of time the corpse will freeze due to the cold temperature of space . . afterwards the corpse will vibrate into fine powder by the robots attached to the system . . then the remains will be dehydrated . . the left frozen powder in the airtight will be enclosed in an airtight container . . attached on the outside part of the spaceship . . until it could be safely returned to Earth] . . Promession process as to the corpse of the male astronaut was executed in an adequate manner . . yet . . after the first execution . . promession system unfortunately did not function properly . . thus . . though we knew it was illegal to place corpse of a human out in space . . for physical and psychological safety of our survivors . . we had no choice . . we cautiously tied Ms. Leah outside tightly with the tether right beside the airtight container . . yet . . unfortunately . . regretfully . . a few days later . . we found the tether broke loose . . Ms. Leah . . was not in sight . . disappeared . .
3/8/2023
A week has passed . .
Johzeln . . at home of Ayhilina in her room . . Together . . in the midst . . of the tragic . . accident . . laid on her bed . . as they breathed in pastelish felt wind pass by through her room window . . Johzeln leaned his head on her shoulder as they quietly laid on her bed waited waited to listen to the radio . . Report of how the country is in process to cope with the tragic incident how the incident could be at least adequately resolved . . as Ayhlina laid further back on her pillow right beside Johzeln quietly kissed his forehead then put her leg on top of his leg . . Johzeln then as he leaned on the pillow too looked at her kissed her on her lips quietly grabbed her bracelet . . Ayhilina then sadly quietly grabbed his bracelet then voicelessly said "Necklace In My Heart . ." then several minutes later through the radio . . a reporter who observed the conference . . began his brief report . .
“I am currently at the city conference hall . . International Community is said to initiate a conference as to discuss [Compensation Claim of Accidents Related to Space Debris] in a few weeks . . the conference is to deal with the situation as to the tragic incident in space that happened several weeks before which is accountable for the death of two astronauts . . Because majority of space debris occurs mainly due to the launch of advanced spacecrafts and satellites from Earth which remains in space until it re-enters the atmosphere . . which is currently said to be automatically in increase though none of these are launched in the future . . it is expected that another tragic incidents due to space debris could happen in the near future . . Therefore . . conference will mainly deal with issues how the victim states could claim compensation against any damage of its spacecrafts satellites and casualties by space objects and space debris . . Yet the international community is concerned as to the legal procedure of the compensation claim for conflict is expected in the process . . For instance in the case of the tragic incident a few weeks before . . provided that the victim state begins a litigation . . generally the victim state will target a designated country who is assumed to be the cause of the space debris that damaged International Spaceship . . because the relevant space debris that crashed into International Spaceship is assumed to be made by the number of spacecrafts for “planetary defense” that are under control of the designated country . . However . . the designated country will refute to participate as a party in the litigation for there is no proof and no mechanical device to hold their spacecrafts are the main cause that damaged the International Spaceship . . further . . without a rightful proof of clear evidence . . the designated country in no way will pay a large amount of compensation for the victims where there is no real proof the country is accountable for the damage . . and further because the current compensation claim is based on space law that lacks effective legal procedures to resolve international disputes within space [i.e., currently space law is established in a way where a country could be punished and pay restitution even though the states are not at fault without clear evidence which is seriously incompatible with recognized basic principles of both state responsibility and customary international law] . . Therefore certain countries and a number of international lawyers in the field of space law . . to aid the damages and casualties caused by collisions with unidentified space debris which again as mentioned above is made due to launch of advanced spacecrafts and satellites . . are in consideration to avail two compensation devices which are Space Insurance and Liability Instrument . . further . . under the consult with certain relevant countries and corporations . . International Lawyers in the field of space law are in Legal Prep for these compensation devices to be included as one of the provisions within the International Space Law Convention to make the devices practically and universally available . . Legal Prep is based on a Legal Research by one of the victims Yilainah Leah who tried to take real action based on her legal research paper relevant to space debris . . prior to her death . . which is written . . “Inclusion of the space insurance and liability instrument devices as one of the provisions of International Space Law Convention will aid the countries that are not at fault to be compensated as to the incidents related in the space regime in case of another unfortunate mishap happens in the near future . . No doubt advance in technology is helpful and necessary for mankind however consequently there is called an aftermath that follows nearly every advanced technology development which could put our planet into further risk . . risk that no advanced technology could ever fix . . especially toward those who are hidden vulnerable weak helpless . .” “Prevention In Advance . . must be looked into before it is too late . . because now . . we already are late . .”
Later on Johzeln received a number of mails from several government attorneys written [Government Compensation Plan For Ms. Yilainah Leah] . . Yet because there was no incident that a body has floated beyond ever before in the history of space currently there exists no law or international convention written as to the type of compensation in the case of Ms. Leah . . However the Space Administration and the Government decided to give Johzeln a decent amount of compensation based on the contribution Ms. Leah has made for the space community . . yet to Johzlen . . no matter how much amount of compensation Johzeln received . . could not amend his heart from deep pain . . pain his memories with his aunt is now in the past . . pain that no future memories with his aunt could ever be built . . insufferable pain his aunt . . is . . in deep space . . now . . far . . away . . lifeless . . left alone . .
3/24/2023
안녕하세요 그대 지난 한 주 좋은 깊은 믿음내 언제나 그러셨듯 선하고 편안한 마음으로 행복하고 안전히 잘 보내셨길 ^-^
저도 덕분에 논문들과 조만간 있을 국제법연구센터 국내회의 관련 강의 준비들과 버클리로스쿨 줌회의 토론자로 참석하며 조금 바쁘긴 했지만요 현실내 ⟡
편안한 마음으로 감사히 안전히 잘 지냈어요 그대도 그러셨길 ^-^
그대 마음깊이 알고 있어요 다시 한 번 언제나 그림자와 같은 저 그대 기다려줘 표현해줘 감사해요 네 ♡
간절히 전해요 싸이트내 제가 쓰는 숫자 단어 문구들의 의미 배열순 본인의 기준하에 마음대로 판단하지 마시길 부탁하며 바래요 ^-^
저는 저이기에 한 분 한 분 유닉하고 아름답듯 그 누구도 저에대해 단정을 짓거나 정의 내리거나 저를 대신하지 않아요 제 자신도 믿음내 이와같이 한 분 한 분 존중하기 위해 마음깊이 노력하고 있어요 ⟡
지금까지 제 싸이트들 글 음악 포토를 본 분들은 제가 좋아하는 것들 알거예요 지금도 저는 그것들을 좋아해요 저는 마음내 조금 일정한 면 있어 잘 변하지 않아요 저를 아시는 분은 알거예요 ^-^
저도 그렇기에 그대만 좋아해요 다른분들 없어요 그대와 저 같이할 좋은 의미있는 미래 한 곳만 보여요 마음깊이 행복해요 우리 곧 선한 믿음으로 마음껏 즐길 우리만의 현삶 가득 그리며 조만간 곧 봐요 네 ♡
Hello You I Believe and I Deeply Hope You are very Well & Good within at least a little bit of rest Thanks to You again I am very Well & Good Too I Always Deeply Thank You ^-^
Hey You I Would like to appreciate You again For Your Honest Wait though I am shadowy slow I was a little busy in prep for ILRC National Conference lectures Soon ⟡
Thankfully Joined an Intl Discussion Panel at Berkeley Law School via Zoom & got a little stuck with AI Environment Human Rights Paper still in process Gotta say it is Tough as I expected ^-^
Blessed to Have submitted a project proposal to work with US Embassy to aid our agonized Hidden People in our world which I will tell later soon Deeply Thankful For You For Your Light ♡
I Would like to say again to certain people Please Look into Real contents of my word picture music that I wanna truly share No number counts ponder of my word for it is a waste of time ^-^
Wanna tell that each every word picture music of my websites are about You I Alone nobody else For as many writers I too write from our flow of Past Time Bridged Till Now Yes Unforgettable ⟡
I Believe It is not right for a human to try to define another replace another with oneself in which I believe the act needs to heal please remember like you Every Human is Unique Beautiful ^-^
Yes Hey You I am sure gonna Fly in July Yet Let’s Always Remember Pray For hidden people in pain See You Again Soon I Agree Peace For Your Heart Within Me My Heart Within You Cheers ♡
Johzeln . . in his room tries to live on . . yet an arduous life . . Johzeln . . after the tragic incident . . neither contacted nor communicated with any other people . . except Ayhilina . . Ayhilina . . however . . gradually . . tried to live on endeavored to make herself busy . . began her college life as she majored in several fields . . air law . . computer science . . technology and mathematics . . worked as an Air Traffic Controller assistant . . additionally entered into a nationally well recognized test pilot school program . . further proceeded her pilot-in-command time in her jet aircraft to gain thousand hours . . which is a requirement . . to be an Astronaut . . Ayhilina . . Friday night . . after . . her busy week flew by like a wind like an arrow . . texted Johzeln to join her colleagues for a drink near his home . . yet . . no response . . Ayhilina texted Johzeln again . . yet . . again . . no response which was not like him . . Ayhilina worried . . abruptly excused herself from the group . . dashed outside . . hurriedly began to walk toward his home . . walked and walked . . till Ayhilina arrived . . however to her astonishment . . saw every light of his home turned off . . which was unusual . . Ayhilina . . appalled . . dashed toward the frontdoor . . unlocked it as Ayhilina immediately shouted out . . “Johzeln . .” however . . no answer . . “Johzeln . .” shouted Ayhilina again . . as she hastily walked toward his room . . where Ayhilina . . to her astonishment . . found Johzeln laid on the floor . . with alcohol everywhere . . a pack of cigarette with several lighters scattered on the floor . . Johzeln did not smoke . . not once . . Ayhilina . . turned on room light . . Then . . looked at his room . . his windows were closed . . his room was left uncleaned filled with unwashed clothes everywhere . . his bed untidied . . Ayhilina . . Ayhilina . . felt uncomfortable . . then gradually . . got tensed worried . . then . . then . . got irated . . furious . . enraged . . felt sudden helpless tears burst within her . . Ayhilina . . could not take it . . could . . not . . with that . . Ayhilina . . from the very bottom of her heart . . yelled “Johzeln . .” with that . . Johzeln . . appalled . . alarmed by a sudden loud intense yell . . frantically woke up . . weakly got himself up . . as he feebly . . unstably . . looked at Ayhilina . . who was in tears . . who was in a deep state of inexplicable sadness helplessness inquietude disheartenment . . “Ayhilina . . ” called out Johzeln fragilely with a weak smile . . astonished by the sudden unexpected situation . . Ayhilina . . Ayhilina . . looked at Johzeln . . looked at him . . without a word . . without . . a word . . Wanted to yell . . wanted to cry out . . “How are you gonna live your life Johzeln . . how . . ” “Look at you Johzeln . . look at yourself . .” However . . could not . . yell . . could . . not . . desperately . . wanted to . . Yet . . could . . not . . Because . . Because Ayhilina knew . . knew how desperately heartbroken wretched Johzeln was . . how much . . he did not wanna accept his reality . . his situation . . his existence . . his life . . “Johzeln . .” quietly called out Ayhilina . . as Ayhilina looked and looked at Johzeln whose eyes were swollen because of deep inward sadness . . whose lips were dry as a desert because of his severely depressive state . . whose mind was vulnerable uncontrollable because of a sudden unexpected tragic trauma . . whose heart was broken into pieces to pieces as a shattered land because of a sudden loss of his dear aunt . . Ayhilina heavily felt her regretful heartened tears within her crestfallen eyes . . slowly walked toward Johzeln . . held him tightly his weakly dropped shoulder . . held his weak delicate frail vulnerable heart . . “Johzeln I Believe Ms. Leah Is In Peace . . Let’s Pray Ms. Leah . . Deeply Pray For Her To Be Found Soon . . Lead Her Way Home . . ” then . . Ayhilina helped Johzeln stand . . helped him slowly lie on his bed . . laid his head carefully on his pillow . . then Ayhilina walked out of his room . . then . . brought a full glass of clear water . . “Johzeln . .” Johzeln weakly turned . . then looked toward her . . then with a smile . . slowly got himself up . . carefully took the glass . . sipped . . then . . slowly slowly drank the glass of water . . “Ayhilina . .” called out Johzeln . . soon after he slowly finished his water . . “Yes . .” said Ayhilina . . “Remember You brought Me a glass of Water at the grand room . . When I was alone in the corner . . Before our Unforgettable Dance . . Before we had each other our Dreamlike Kiss . . ” Ayhilina . . suddenly . . bursted into tears . . tears of heartfelt unforgettable endless blissful memory . . memory which now . . seemed too far away . . “Yes Johzeln I remember . . I remember it well . .” Ayhilina said . . with that . . Ayhilina kissed his forehead . . kissed his lips . . as her heart grieved . . with tears of . . beautiful reminiscence beautiful fate . . that Ayhilina wanna deeply hold on to . . that Ayhilina wanna look forward to endlessly . . Ayhilina . . as she tried to hide her tears . . said . . “Now Johzeln . . have a good rest . . ” with that . . Ayhilina heartily covered Johzeln with his blanket . . quietly walked out . . looked at Johzeln for a little while then closed the door . .
Johzeln . . then . . after a little while of toss and turn . . slowly began to drowse . . then . . slowly . . fell asleep . . However . . suddenly did he feel . . instantly feel . . chilly radiance near him . . Johzeln . . abruptly astonished . . turned toward where he felt the unsual . . Then . . to his horror . . Johzeln . . from afar . . in the darkness . . beyond . . saw his aunt float . . in a lifeless state . . however . . roughly panted for breath . . then . . ghastly shouted out . . “Johzeln . .”
4/11/2023
Johzeln . . appalled . . full of agonized sweat . . awaken . . screamed . . screamed out loud . . Ayhilina who was next to his room . . room of Ms. Leah . . alarmed by his scream . . dashed toward his room . . saw him gasp pant on his bed full of troubled sweat . . Ayhilina cried . . “Johzeln are you alright . .” yet . . no . . Johzeln was not alright . . Ayhilina . . worried . . of his vulnerable state his uncontrollably helpless state . . slowly walked . . toward Johzeln sat beside then put her head slowly on his shoulder then tightly held on to his other weak shoulder . . then for a while . . silence . . filled his room . . without a noise . . Johzeln gradually felt himself in tranquility in peace . . then . . Ayhilina . . abruptly walked out . . then within a minute brought a glass of water again walked toward him . . he . . feebly looked at Ayhilina . . carefully took her glass . . then Johzeln slowly drank . . “Are you alright now . .” yes Johzeln felt relieved a little bit rest . . looked at her nodded gave a weak smile . . "good good . ." said Ayhilina to herself . . nodded smiled as well felt relieved restful . . Ayhilina . . however suddenly . . with a concerned look . . anxiously looked at Johzeln . . her eyes now filled with troubled anxious look . . Ayhilina . . wanted to say . . however . . could . . not . . say . . Johzeln astonished by her sudden unusual different behavior . . looked at . . Ayhilina . . Then . . her silhouette . . lighted by a golden dusk with palm tree far away suddenly brightly caught his very eyes . . Johzelhn . . walked toward her . . “Ayhilina Are you alright . .” said Johzeln . . gently grabbed her wrists . . kissed her worried forehead . . then slowly lightly went down grabbed her palm . . Ayhilina grabbed as well . . then Johzeln gently went down grabbed her waist . . looked at her affectionately . . then . . deeply kissed her lips . . for a while . . then . . slowly unzipped her zipper front pastely short sleeve . . Ayhilina however suddenly . . abruptly walked further away . . Johzeln . . again astonished by her sudden unusual different behavior . . seriously looked at Ayhilina . . then worriedly called “Ayhilina . .” "Johzeln . ." then . . with sudden heavy tears in her eyes . . took out a piece . . Johzeln . . seriously . . worriedly . . looked at . . it . . with that . . Johzeln . . was shocked . . was . . shocked to his heart . . There he saw a broken piece of a golden half heart necklace of his Aunt Yilainah . . “located it . . right now while I was in her room . . tried to clear . . her stuffs from spaceship . .” said Ayhilina now with her heavy heart deeply saddened disheartened lost . . Johzeln . . appalled . . could not believe . . his eyes . . "no . ." could not . . believe . . it . . “no . . no . . cannot be . . it makes no sense . .” frantically cried out Johzeln . . “Aunt Yilainah Always had her necklace on always . . Mr. Farluene said . . Aunt Yilainah crashed into the wall when Aunt Yilainah was in her spacesuit when other crews were about to head out . . no way her necklace could have cut in half there is no way . .” with that Johzeln dashed out toward her room . . then began to distraughtly search for her heart necklace in her room . . “Johzeln . .” sadly shouted Ayhilina . . “There has to be parts of her necklace . . there has to be . .” insanely shouted out Johzeln as he absentmindedly searched and searched for . . her necklace . . that has to be . . must be right here . . it has to be . . right . . here . . cried out Johzeln . . again and again . . “Johzeln . .” shouted out Ayhilina . . yet did Johzeln choose not to respond as his mind was now in distraught chaos to desperately find remained parts of her heart necklace . . because he had to . . because it must be . . it must be . . here . . Ayhilina . . looked at Johzeln . . then again . . her heart . . her . . heart . . could not take it . . could not . . take . . it . . with that . . Ayhilina cried out . . “Johzeln . .” as her distressed helpless state forced her now . . to break into tears . . Johzeln . . with his vulnerable hurtful defenseless endless tears deeply engraved . . slowly stopped . . inevitably . . stopped . . then helplessly looked at . . Ayhilina . . saw shake her head . . Johzeln . . he too shook his head in denial in distress as he desperately looked at Ayhilina . . then . . with a choked voice . . wretchedly weakly shouted out . . “Where is it then . . Where are other parts of her heart necklace . .” “Is it with her . . Right now . . Cannot understand . . How could it be . . ”
4/21/2023
Johzeln . . Ayhilina . . now in his room . . Ayhilina on his lap . . in front of PC . . on his desk . . Johzeln Ayhilina together . . waited . . for . . then . . did they hear . . “Johzeln . . Ayhilina . .” It was Mr. Farluene . . “How are you guys . .” “We are . . alright . .” An hour later . . Johzeln disappointedly said . . “they did not even realize her necklace lost . .” “I know . . that is not understandable . .” said Ayhilina as well . . “yet Johzeln . . as Mr. Farluene said . . because it was a hectic dark situation probably . . sadly her broken necklace could have had . .” Johzeln then abruptly stood walked toward his window . . Ayhilina . . a little astonished . . stood still . . for a while . . then slowly walked toward . . then looked at Johzlen . . saw his side face . . Ayhilina . . then saw his tear . . welled in his eyes . . Ayhilina . . suddenly heartbroken with regret . . wanted to call out . . yet . . felt a sudden lump in her throat . . Ayhilina bursted into tears . . Johzlen . . astonished by her cry . . hurriedly walked toward Ayhilina then held her tight . . “I . .” weakly said Ayhilina . . “No Ayhilina . . It is alright Ayhilina . . no please . .” Then Held her tighter . . with that . . Ayhilina . . Held Johzlen as well . . for a while . . they stood with their broken hearts bridged together . . then . . looked at each other . . felt in peace tranquility . . then together they . . walked toward his bed . . then again . . looked at each other . . within darkness . . palm tree dusk felt . . Johzeln as he lightly gently grabbed her shoulder . . kissed . . her forehead . . as he went down grabbed her waist palm . . then . . kissed . . her lips . . kissed . . for a while . . then . . slowly unzipped her zipper . . tenderly kissed her pleasure . . as Ayhilina . . in sudden lust . . slowly unzipped his below . . sat on his bed . . looked at Johzlen . . then as Jozeln . . turned on low light . . smiled covered her body with his laid pillow . . Johzeln then gently smiled . . walked toward Ayhilina . . snatched his laid pillow . . then wildly laid beside . . while Ayhilina on top . . of her little world . . felt her wet blow . . his zealous inhale exhale . . felt our ecstatic arrival . . our dare . . beyond . . journey . .
Hello You I Believe and I Deeply Hope you are very Well & Good For our past few days ^-^
Thanks To You I am as Always Well & Good Too again I Deeply Thank You ⟡
Because I am gonna be a little bit busy due to a couple of ILRC conference paper & business trip for next two weeks on my weekdays Posted a little early ^-^
Time did fly as it always had Thanks to a few of those who view my fictions photos music post which is about You & I nobody else Though I am slow always deeply Thank You for Your Honest Wait You ♡
Again pray for you these days Pray For you to be Happy in Peace because You deserve It However despite your effort to be Happy you oftentimes feel down Please look toward the bright Way Give a little change to yourself your lifestyle ^-^
Head toward Real Life head toward Nature where you could Reflect yourself Embrace your situation Refresh your mind Be invigorated enliven & Have yourself a Peace of Mind hope for the very Peace of Mind of other people who truly care about You ⟡
Life is full of many choices as you know no guarantees Yet there are choices Please Use them Discreetly you will hesitate at first however one step at a time Walk toward change you will be Positively surprised to look Above Beyond your nest ^-^
Those of you who are currently Happy I am relieved from the bottom of my heart I Deeply Pray for your Happiness be blissfully Within You throughout Your Journey of Life ♡
Hey You again I was in Nature For past few days There are countless Beautiful Nature we could Fill our eyes yet at that very Time Place where breeze of wind wave of sea was quietly Felt You were within My Heart yes Beautiful it was ^-^
Lifetime of Dreamtime in our undisturbed Nature We together will be For no matter how much the unknown calculated flow of life full of disguised unstable noises try to break us apart ⟡
We are again eye to eye Feel each other for our Destiny still lies in us Like our heart that Deeply yearn no matter where we are for our true feel though not shown in public we know it felt Within Between Us Gratitude ^-^
Right Now Feel Peaceful too in Your Heart because here your Peace is felt near within My Heart as well Yes ♡
Hey You I Wanna again appreciate you For Your honest true heart though I am a little bit slow which is why I wanna wander our shadowy Wild Dreamy Aromatic Light ^-^
Yes Insane Watery Flow is our Real Life from our Past to our Lighted Future for as Time Flies I Remember felt as well that We are Heavenly Meant to be that It will be I cannot ever deny ⟡
Would Be very Gratified for my Near Future to be Like Present Because My present is fully Lighted with Peaceful Joy For You passed on our Light Given to you to People that are hidden desperate for aid which means a Lot ^-^
Let’s Always Remember to deeply truly Pray Together for hidden desperate People & See You Again Soon I Agree we are in True Peace For Your Heart Within Me My Heart Within You Cheers to You ♡
안녕하세요 그대 지난 주부터 몇 일간 선하신 믿음내 안전히 행복히 편안한 마음내 잘 보내셨길 간절히 바래요 ^-^
언제나 그랬듯 저도 덕분에 안전히 행복히 자연내 현실내 편안한 마음으로 잘 지냈어요 다시 한 번 감사해요 그대 ⟡
제가 이번 주부터 지금 두 주간 주중에 학회와 논문으로 잠시 출장 일정이 잡혀있어 조금은 일찍 포스트 남겨요 ^-^
그대와 저만을 느끼며 바라보며 쓴 그린 저의 픽션들을 내용자체 있는 그대로를 보시고 있는 분들 언제나 감사해요 제가 늦어져도 변함없이 한결같이 기다려줘 이해해줘 그대 감사해요 ♡
지금 현 시간 저의 이 글을 바라보는 분들 행복한 마음으로 편안히 잘 지내고 있길 간절히 바래요 그런데 혹시 마음내 편안히 잘 지내고 있지 않은 분들 현재 걸어가는 삶의 방향을 부디 천천히 점검해보시길 바래요 ^-^
정신적인 회복이 아직 필요해 보이는 안타까운 분들 보여요 저도 저의 작은 정신분석학적 지식을 토대로 여러 번 관련글을 썼지만 많은 분들이 알고 있으시듯 정신 건강이 위험해 보이는 분들은 도움이 필요해요 ⟡
비생산적인 단어숫자 글배열순 대한 집착과 온라인에 갇힌 허구적인 반복적인 삶은 위험한 삶이예요 걱정스러워요 앞으로의 자신이 마음깊이 바라는 몇년 뒤 미래를 꿈꾸며 그리며 현실적인 삶을 살아가길 간절히 바래요 행운을 빌어요 ^-^
하지만 지금까지 자신의 삶 편안히 잘 지내신 분들 마음깊이 감사한 일이며 다행이며 앞으로 미래의 삶도 지금과 같이만 잘 살아가길 간절히 바래요 역시 행운을 빌어요 ♡
그대 저도 그대가 제곁 가까이 마음으로 와 있어 마음깊이 행복하며 감사해요 알아요 몇몇 이기적인 장벽들로 인하여 우리가 가까워지는데 시간이 걸리고 있다는 거 하지만 인생은 인과응보 우리같이 분들을 위해 기도해요 ^-^
저도 잘 알아요 우리가 지금 바라보는 그 하늘 역시 이 시간 우리둘을 바라보고 있다는 거 네 깊은 믿음과 바른 길을 걷기 위해 많은 것을 포기하며 절제하며 노력하기 위해 노력하며 살아가는 ⟡
그림자와 같은 삶의 저 다행히 언제나 최선의 마음으로 역시 끊임없이 노력하며 살아가며 제 곁에 같이있을 그대 있어 그런 우리를 위해 지금과 같이 천천히 가까이 이어줄 하늘있어 마음깊이 감사해요 행복해요 ^-^
우리가 직접 보며 반할 그 날 우리 둘 만의 인생 축복가득 평화가득 은은한 그 빛으로 축복해 줄거예요 저도 좋아해요 그대 좋아해요 ♡
저 그대 아시나요 지금 현실내 안주하며 미래를 직시하며 의젓하고 정직하고 차분한 마음으로 저를 변함없이 기다려 주는 그대가 있어 저 마음깊이 행복하고 감사하고 있다는 거 ^-^
가정보단 남을 더 의식하는 사람들이 늘어나고 있는 그리고 이런 행위를 아닌 척 감추며 부정직과 보여주기가 만연이 되고 있는 바르지 않는 안타까운 세계 우리는 그러지 않는 사람들과 같이 믿음내 있어 감사해요 마음깊이 ⟡
그대와 저 마음깊이 인연닿을 앞으로의 미래내 우리만의 가정생활 충실하며 도움이 필요하신 주위분들 도와가며 지금과 같이 할일하며 그대 있는 곳 제가 있는 곳 왔다갔다하며 ^-^
느끼며 이해하며 우리만의 삶을 언제나 믿음내 마음껏 즐기며 안주하며 살아가길 저도 바래요 행복해요 저도 제 곁내 건실한 그대가 곁에 있어 행복해요 그대 우리같이 편안한 마음으로 현실내 보내요 그대 곧 봐요 네 ♡
5/21/2023
Johzeln In bed . . yet . . felt himself awake . . ceaselessly had his mind set on his aunt . . on and on . . tossed and turned . . Johzlen then slowly changed posture of his body . . turned looked at Ayhilina lied near her body lightly pleasurably hidden by her pillow . . Then . . suddenly . . Johzeln heard a far away low faint noise . . astonished . . Johzeln hurriedly raised himself . . yet then again . . silence filled in . . tensed . . Johzeln his mind in trouble went near Ayhilina then his palm slowly lightly felt her face her neck then her shoulder . . then . . suddenly . . Johzeln again got astonished by another faint noise . . from outside . . Johzeln now felt chill down to his heart . . yet . . at the same time . . got inquisitive . . Johzeln gradually raised himself again then he cautiously . . turned to the other side of his bed to head toward his door . . slowly did he turn not to wake Ayhilina . . yet Johzeln soon after he was on the other side of his bed . . Appalled Alarmed . . gasped in panic . . to his very heart . . "Aunt Yilainah . ." voicelessly cried out Johzeln . . yes . . it was his aunt . . outside his window . . again in lifeless state . . in barren state . . now near enough to clearly see his aunt . . Johzeln . . heartbroken in sadness . . tried to walk toward . . yet instantly . . Johzeln . . to his astonishment . . saw her aunt . . saw her aunt . . bruised . . relentlessly bruised . . wordless absentminded by a sudden painful unacceptable encounter . . Johzeln felt his body turn stiff in pain . . “Aunt Yilainah . .” Then suddenly . . abruptly . . Aunt Yilainah again panted heavily for her breath . . “Aunt Yilainah . .” desperately shouted out Johzeln . . “Aunt Yilainah . .” dashed toward his window . . yet . . even before Johzeln got near to his window . . to his shock . . her body instantly . . got sucked into space . . her regretful eyes appreciatevely helplessly attached to Johzeln . . “Aunt Yilainah . .” insanely cried out Johzeln . . “Aunt Yilainah . .” “Johzeln . . are you alright . .” “Johzeln are you . .” Johzeln then . . with a heavy gasp . . with a heavy sweat . . instantly awakened . . “Johzeln . .” Johzeln . . still in heavy pant . . in a heavy state . . lost in his mind frustratedly looked at Ayhilina . . “Ayhilina . .” Johzeln now in tears . . weakly looked at her . . Ayhilina . . with that . . hurriedly went near Johzeln . . “Johzeln . . “ held him . . carefully felt his neck . . to feel his flow of pulse heart rate . . laid his weary head gently on her shoulder . . then kissed his forehead . . kissed his lips . . a kiss deeply felt to give hopeful life . . then as they always had put her leg . . top of his leg . . then felt heartfully his . . halfhearted bracelet . . then . . looked out his window . . beautiful wind that felt . . no place like home . . angelic sky that felt . . no place like home . . Johzeln then . . yes . . in a weak state . . did he grab Ayhilina . . gazed toward golden dusk with few palm trees far away within its shadow . . Ayhlina . . instantly felt heartfelt tears welled in her eyes . . because felt his weak vulnerable state of mind . . because his unstable mindful heart must be cured . . "our beach Johzeln look . . our beautiful sunrise gonna arrive very soon now . . Because no matter where . . sun is always gonna rise for You I nobody else like our fictions . .” “Ayhilina I wanna tell . .” “Johzeln Please not now . . I know your dream . . yet now let’s feel . . life be thankful that . .” Ayhilina then tightly held on to Johzeln then looked at him within goodness his honest humble eyes . . “we are here together . . for our good purpose . . to walk your way . . fulfill our reallife altruism . .” then Ayhilina tapped Johzeln gently on his nose with her little nose with a little smile Ayhilina then looked at Johzeln . . “yet after you find . . peace for you yourself . . for our hidden people . . let’s pray together always . . ” Johzeln . . a little astonished . . looked at Ayhilina . . Ayhilina looked at Johzeln as well in peace . . with a smile . . for a while . . Then . . did Ayhilina look at his halfhearted golden bracelet . . then looked at broken piece of halfhearted necklace . . on his wooden table laid in restfully peacefully . . “remember our bucket list . . journey toward beyond because . . part of your world . . see you again cheers . .”
Hello You I Believe and I Deeply Hope you are Well & Good For past few days Thanks To You I am as Always Well & Good Too I Deeply Thank You again ⟡
Pray for you always pray for You to be happy in Peace because you deserve it Yet despite you oftentimes feel down yet Please look toward your bright Future because I truly Believe your future is gonna be Good & Blessful it Is ♡
We know Life is full of choices Let’s use them discreetly as you are now one step at a time Walk toward Yourself slowly toward Your beautiful heart Because You are filled With Potentiality Let’s not deny that ⟡
Those of You who are currently Happy I am relieved from the bottom of my Heart I deeply cheers pray Your very happiness blissfully be with you throughout Your Journey of Life ♡
Hey You I Wanna again appreciate You for your Honest Wait though I was a little bit slow even though You were busy Yes Lifetime of Dreamtime in our Nature Here we are Together within happiness though far away Thank you again ⟡
Yes Insane Watery Flow is our Reallife World from our Past to our Bridged Future for I Remember felt as well that though Time flies within goodness we are Heavenly Meant to be that It will be am not gonna deny ♡
Right Now Feel Peaceful too in Your Heart because here Your Peace is near with My Heart as well please be in peace Thank You to pass on your Light to People that are hidden desperate for aid which means a Lot ⟡
Let’s Remember Always to deeply truly Pray Together for hidden desperate People & See You Again Soon I Agree we are in True Peace For Your Heart Within Me My Heart Within You Cheers ♡
안녕하세요 그대 지난 주부터 몇일 간 선하신 믿음내 안전히 행복히 편안한 마음내 잘 보내셨길 간절히 바래요 ⟡
저도 덕분에 자연내 현실내 행복히 편안히 그대위해 기도하며 잘 지내며 있었어요 ♡
혹시 저로인해 마음내 아프신 아팠던적 있는 분들 저의 걱정스런 마음있어 전해요 편안하신 마음내 있으시길 제가 여러가지 확인도 이해도 많이 느려 그래요 이해해 주길 바래요 감사해요 ⟡
현 시간 제 글을 바라보며 있는 한 분 한 분 전해요 걱정은 덜 하시구 편안한 마음내 자신이 행하시는 주요일들 마음깊이 바라시는 교제들 이루시길 저 지혜 마음깊이 간절히 기도해요 잘 이루실 거예요 ♡
알아요 저도 우리가 조금은 자주 바라보는 하늘 우리를 지금도 바라보고 있다는거 그림자와 같은 저의 삶내 그대 제 마음내 있어 우리를 위해 천천히 이어줄 하늘있어 언제나 마음깊이 감사해요 ⟡
그대 마음내 걱정하지 마시구 앞으로의 할일들 우리같이 미래를 직시하며 노력하며 현실내 마음내 한 걸음 한 걸음 걸어가며 이루시길 바래요 네 ♡
작은행성 지구내 우리 도움이 절실하신 분들 축복가득 기도해요 앞으로의 삶들 우리만의 믿음내 하는 일 최선을 다하며 조언도 해주며 그대와 저의 곳 아름다운 지구내도 여행하며 마음껏 둘만의 쾌락도 즐기며요 ⟡
우리만의 같이사는 그생활내 충실하며 어려우신 이웃분들 기억하며 도와가며 살길 저도 바래요 다시 한 번 행복한 편안가득 마음으로 현실내 보내요 같이 마음내 반할 그 어느 날 그리며 그대 곧 봐요 네 ♡
5/29/2023
Johzeln Ayhilina . . Now . . At a university little far away from home . . Future Research Tech University . . in front of an . . administrator office . . University where a large number of accepted students pass to be space astronauts like his Aunt Yilainah . . now to be astronauts entered in Johzeln Ayhilina to fulfill their dreams one step at a time . . There were a group of crowds . . in front of an administrator office . . they were students accepted similar to Johzeln Ayhilina . . It was a university concentrated on major courses mainly in science technology mathematics which are required courses to be an astronaut . . soon after they accepted documents procedures explained to be astronauts which were four years of university masters four years of experience mainly in pilot program space institute . . Johzeln Ayhilina gathered stuffs . . dashed out . . from the heavy crowd . . then Johzeln shouted "hey Ayhilina . ." looked beckoned to Ayhilina together dashed passed line of palm tree toward an undisturbed beach naturally filled in with beautiful wind golden dusk light . . a minute passed . . another minute passed . . nearer and nearer . . did they dash toward and toward pleasant beach where it felt like nobody else existed where it felt like even beautiful nature itself stopped to feel its tranquility within . . then . . did Johzeln shout . . “deserted lifeguard tower Ayhilina . .” then excitedly dashed toward . . yet door was locked . . Johzlen then . . abruptly . . threw his paper folder top of its roof . . then slowly climbed toward . . “excuse me sir not ever meant to intrude . .” “briefly stopped to rest would that be alright . .” Johzeln cautiously whispered . . with sweat flow down incessantly from . . his face his neck . . his shoulder . . then soon after Johzeln reached top Johzeln looked at Ayhilina who looked at him with amaze . . then to Johzeln . . "hey . ." abruptly shouted out . . “here . .” then threw her folder straight out toward Johzeln . . then lightly climbed toward . . then soon after Ayhilina reached top near Johzeln . . threw herself at Johzeln . . then instantly they laid with full joy happiness . . without anybody else . . yet beautiful nature within . . Then . . they held each other had their little intimacy . . for a while . . then after . . gradually again they felt . . golden sun angelic sky spread in beautiful horizon . . to head on for another unbroken timeless journey . . while it . . gradually . . faded away away . .“Johzeln Are You Truly prepared to study work for years to rocket beyond journey for Ms Leah toward our way beyond . .” said Ayhilina . . with that Johzeln . . looked at Ayhilina . . “Yes Truly . .” then . . went nearer to Ayhilina . . held tighter . . then felt her wrist . . her palm then said . . "Are You Prepared Truly . .” Ayhilina then wiped his sweat off . . his face his neck . . his shoulder . .“Yes Cheers To Us . .” then . . did they . . Prayed peacefully restfully for . . each other . . swear they gonna Root throughout their unpredictable road . . embark on their mission here on Earth before . . Johzeln Ayhilina . . to find Aunt Yilainah . . head Beyond . . far far away . . into space . . incessantly potentially stretched out toward its galaxy where . . no human would ever negate its hidden beauty . .
6/11/2023
Johzeln Ayhilina . . Four years have passed . . Both achieved college masters degree in computer science . . Afterwards joined pilot flight drill academy space program at which it educated about aeromedical knowledge flight duties principles of flight rules . . then . . a week after . . Johzeln Ayhilin a little early on a beautiful day . . both now professional aviators . . made a visit . . briefly . . to main space office center where Aunt Yilainah usually worked at . . a number of students work in center to . . learn experience basic skills . . before they prepare for apply to be astronauts . . Mr Farluene . . colleague of Aunt Yilainah work here currently nearby . . Johzeln Ayhilina . . heavily downhearted went toward his office . . where he greeted them happily after they arrived . . they sent regards talked about their current life for a while . . Johzeln Ayhilina then slowly brought out his aunt into their talk took out her half golden heart that was a part of her necklace then painfully placed front of his table . . Mr Farluene looked . .“Mr Farluene . . have have you not . .” “I mean have you not had any idea . . where is half heart other part of necklace . . ” stuttered Johzeln in an unbalanced sudden unstable state . . “Johzeln . .” abruptly interrupted Mr Farluene with heavy sigh wordless for a while . . then with another heavy sigh said . . “Johzeln told you before . . was chaotic . . life death state lost two of my mission control crew members . . ” then a minute of reticence wordlessly passed its way . . “it saddens me . . ” abruptly said Mr Farluene in a dejected tone . . “cared for Ms Leah it was tough for . .” then another minute of speechless reticence by Mr Farluene . . until he said . . “your aunt is gonna be in our heart safe in our space Johzlen yet for now it is crucial to concentrate on your mission that is in front of you than dwell on your past . . after your studies . . several years later head to space with me with my crew then to . . Ms Leah . .” with that Johzeln . . another instant heart break felt tears within him then nodded hesitantly . . nodded . . with reluctance with doubt . . because because he . . could not . . could not forget about . . his dream no no . .
6/29/2023
Johzeln Ayhilina . . Four years have passed . . Johzeln Ayhilina at times failed exam tests yet . . surrender was not their choice it was not . . after years of work . . years of practice . . Johzeln Ayhilina achieved their pilot in command time then eventually got assigned to . . Alibnehn Space International Corp to check further skills relevant to astronaut mental physical stability teamwork ability . . then . . later . . Johzeln Ayhilina prudently applied to be astronauts which was competitive yet thankfully got invited for interview . . then a few weeks . . passed passed . . night right before result of their astronaut interview . . Johzeln . . a little nervous . . tossed and turned . . then Johzeln felt himself slowly doze away away . . until . . he felt sudden severe pain on his head . . unusual unnatural feel permeate his sense core body . . then to his shock . . Johzeln felt light blood . . on his forehead . . drip drip . . right on his bed . ."no . . no . ." shocked . . Johzeln turned to hurriedly dash out . . Then instantly . . to his astonishment saw . . saw . . necklace . . Aunt Yilainah necklace . . slowly slowly crash into . . his wall . . scattered into pieces pieces . . Johzeln Again astonished . . then horrified . . tortuously screamed in disbelief . . in despair . . grabbed his head in sudden gradual immense pain . . then . . did Johzeln feel himself crash on his floor from his bed . . his head bump into a nightstand then instantly . . did Johzeln feel piece . . fall on his head . . Johzeln astonished by an . . instant drop . . came to his senses . . hurriedly sat himself . . looked at a piece . . It was . . it . . was . . none other than . . half part golden heart of his Aunt Yilainah . . Johzeln . . panted and panted . . then again . . panted . . Johzlen . . then . . arduously tried and tried to pull himself together . . then . . slowly reached out grabbed . . half heart golden necklace of his Aunt Yilainah . . where Johzeln instantly felt . . lump in his throat . . then . . tears in his eyes . . that he could not . . resist . . could not . . understand . . Johzeln . . then . . anxiously looked . . above . . above its night sky . . far away . . toward its far beyond . . “Aunt Yilainah . .”
7/7/2023
Johzeln Ayhilina . . thankfully now that both are selected . . to be astronaut candidates . . for about two years . . they are to study practice learn work at . . Alibnehn Space International Corp . . Johzeln Ayhilina gonna learn to be astronaut trainees . . about skills to spacewalk operate international space station fly light jet plane control AI robotic space devices . . then a year later . . with the help of Mr. Farluene . . Johzeln Ayhilina were thankfully chosen to be astronauts to fly beyond within 21 weeks . . they are both thrilled . . very excited . . Then one sunny day . . Johzeln Ayhilina walked toward a wide pleasant pastoral . . a wide pastoral which brought Johzeln heartfelt memories . . where Johzeln used to try catch his boomerang whenever his aunt threw for him ever since he was a little boy . . Johzeln Ayhilina walked walked . . without a word . . then . . Ayhilina abruptly shouted out . . “Johzeln catch . .” Johzeln astonish by her sudden shout out . . turned . . then instantly saw boomerang fly right toward him . .“Johzeln gotta be peaceful whenever a boomerang flies fast head toward you . . take a deep breath . . be prepared of which way you are gonna head to grab it in advance . . am not gonna be by your side lifetime . . ” Johzeln suddenly remembered yes . . Remembered words . . Aunt Yilainah said before . . with that . . Johzeln . . sudden heartfelt tears felt heavily in his heart . . instantly felt his unstoppable sadness permeate within him . . yet Johzeln . . instantly tried to pull himself together . . took a deep breath . . straightly looked at it . . prepared which way he was to grab it . . “Johzeln you caught it . . ” joyfully shouted out Ayhilina . . with that Johzeln . . slowly . . looked at . . Yes yes . . he did grab it . . Johzeln grabbed his boomerang . . suddenly Johzeln felt Good . . Johzeln felt . . Blessed . . a blessed feel Johzeln has not felt before . . Johzeln then Blissfully Heartfully called out to Ayhilina . .“Ayhilina catch Me . .” then abruptly dashed toward rays of light ahead . .“Wait . .” shouted Ayhilina joyfully . . to Johzeln . . then did they together dash toward . . toward their hidden narrow path mountain where they went on their very day of prom night . . Johzeln Ayhilina dashed dashed . . passed purely felt mist . . passed fairytalelike forest trees . . passed heavenlike pastelic waterfall . . passed nature light glowworms . . then did they arrive at its cliff filled with tall palm trees like before . . at very top of its mountain where they felt beautiful refresh seaside wind pass right through them . . Johzeln Ayhilina . . while they gradually caught their breath . . walked . . walked slowly toward van . . van of Aunt Yilainah . . which was still there at its very place . . Johzeln Ayhilina . . without a word slowly walked toward . . then did they together slowly climb on top . . saw his blanket at its very place yes . . Johzeln like he did on their beautiful night of their prom . . spread his shaped blanket . . then together did they sat slowly lied down . . on their very place . . then they saw . . beautiful sunset sky light captured their wanted eyes . . within their very eyes . . then for a while . . without a word they looked at golden sunlight . . slowly slowly fade . . away . . until beautiful night sky full of heavenly light spread across beyond . .“Johzeln . .” called Ayhilina . . “I remember you tell me whenever Aunt Yilainah was in space . . you would look through beyond its night sky pray for Aunt Yilainah be alright in peace . .” with that Johzeln . . for a while did not say . . then without a word . . nodded . . then . . Johzeln slowly sat himself then looked at Ayhilina . .“You remembered . .” Ayhilina . . then . . without a word . . nodded looked at Johzeln . . truly within honest belief . . with that Johzeln Ayhilina looked at each other . . truly within honest belief . . got nearer and nearer . . blissfully kissed . . again . . at their very place . . right above their land . . right below its beyond . . where they gonna head . . very soon . .
7/16/2023
Johzeln Ayhilina . . Now on their spaceship with others . . Mr Farluene . . include with AI Pilot . . payload commander . . other four mission specialists . . Johzeln Ayhilina . . after nearly in eight years of Aunt Yilainah pass in space . . after their arduous work . . of trainees . . Johzeln Ayhilina . . now soon gonna fly . . pray for safe flight . . Johzlen Ayhilina . . with gold with red bracelet on . . his aunt golden half heart necklace . . with them . . toward space its beyond to fulfill their mission . . beyond . . further to find out . . find out . .
8/26/2023
Johzeln Ayhilina . . safely lands on International Space Lab Center with Mr Farluene other crew members . . Johzeln . . then on head to a little faraway room which was always used to be his aunts . . like he remembered . . in a space center map before he boarded . . Johzeln while he slowly flew toward . . Johzeln suddenly felt unnaturalness . . he then began to feel his heartbeat race . . then a severe headache . . then suddenly . . Johzeln felt an uncomfortable existence behind him . . Johzeln terrified held his breath then turned . . it was the commander . . Mr Farluene . . Johzeln . . instantly felt relieved . . “Where are you headed . .” said Mr Farluene . . then beckoned to Johzeln . . then did they fly toward a glass window looked outer space . . then . . slowly . . did Ayhilina fly toward . . “Beautiful . .” cried Johzeln truly speechless . . for Johzeln remembered that . . oftentimes . . his aunt used to tell Johzeln how Beautiful space looked from its space center . . “it is beautiful truly . . Ms. Yilainah . .” said Ayhilina . . with tear suddenly deeply welled in her eyes . . with that . . Mr Farluene nodded sadly . . Johzeln sadly yet happily . . smiled yes felt touched truly within his heart . . then . . suddenly . . out of nowhere . . did Johzeln feel pain . . got nauseous . . then did Johzeln hear . . Ayhilina . . Mr Farluene shout . . “Johzeln . .” then Johzeln faintly felt Mr Farluene take him to his room . . Johzeln then passed out . .
8/31/2023
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Hello You I Believe without count deeply I no doubt Hope you were Well & Good within my beautiful summer Journey thanks to You yes I am always Well & Good again I ^-^ deeply heartfully thank you
Because my fall semester began heavy workload ^-^ due to schoolwork business trip prep of my phd paper about Future AI & Environmental Human Rights ⟡ yes I am gonna have to post my fictions in autumn
Those Whose Life Purpose is merely to pursue popularity fame attention money through pretentious arrogant act Humanize because there no Good at very end of your life your way I Pray deeply for near future within your mind
Gratified for my future to be like now without conflict Hey You view my post above 4/21/2023 could not Thank You enough for true you Always by my side Let’s Pray for our Hidden people yes see you soon again I Agree Your Heart Within Us Cheers ♡
안녕하세요 더위가 심해졌던 여름 아무런 방해없이 안전히 잘 불편함 멀리하며 지내셨길 바래요 저도 덕분에 마음편히 ^-^ 지냈어요
가을학기 시작으로 밀려드는 ^-^ 학교일과 출장들로 AI관련 환경인권 대한 박사논문 작업으로 조금 바빠질거예요 그리하여 남은 픽션들은 ⟡ 가을내 조만간 작성하려 해요
한 사람의 인생내의 목적추구 인기명예 관심돈이며 선한인생 이아닌 척하는 분들 다시 한 번 멀리하길 강조하며 간절히 부탁해요 안좋은 기운들이 느껴져요 기도해요 보다밝은 미래들을 그리며
그대 저 알아요 네 험난해져가는 세상에 그대와저 같이늘 이기적인분 멀리하며 어려우신 이웃들 도와가며 걸어가길 낮은자세 잊지않구 우리들의 현실이 마음깊이 지금같길 4/21/2023 있는 제가쓴 글 다시한번 그대 읽어봐요 그대있어 감사해요 봐요곧네 ♡
Johzeln gradually felt awakened . . Johzeln then out of nowhere perceives a laughter from afar . . faint laughter . . Johzeln unknown to himself slowly felt lifted . . then felt a headache . . felt his body weary . . Johzeln yet unconsciously perceived his instinct force himself . . fly toward direction of the laughter . . laughter that grew louder and louder . . from a room . . room . . across his aunt . . nearer nearer Johzeln flew . . at length did he slowly reach . . then . . did Johzeln slowly . . slowly . . look . . with that . . Johzeln was terrified . . shocked . .
11/14/2023
Johzeln . . was . . terrified . . shocked . . he saw was Mr Farluene . . laugh by himself talk to himself . . Johzeln was intensely petrified . . felt sudden goosebumps permeate . . Mr Farluene while sat by himself looked at several screen constantly after then on repeat snickered by himself eerie abnormal . . then suddenly whispered to himself . . Johzeln was shocked . . yet . . even shocker was . . beside Mr Farluene . . Johzeln saw was . . was . .
11/26/2023
Johzeln appalled saw a . . burgundy half heart necklace . . it was his aunts . . instant tear wordlessly flew outrageous confused heart torn . . it was on his desk . . Mr Farluene . . Johzeln could not understand intensely confused . . then . . abruptly . . Johzeln heard footsteps . . it was crew astronauts . . Johzeln suddenly remembered it was day for spacewalk . . Johzeln astonished . . hurriedly wiped his tear flew toward his room . . tried to pacify himself from sudden torn scene Johzeln witnessed . . Johzeln then heard Mr Farluene call Ayhilina him . . Yet Johzeln in shock was terrified by sudden call . . Johzeln tried to pull himself together . . yet . . with no time to rest his heart Johzeln heard him repeatedly yell to assemble . . Johzeln intensely frustrated . . for sudden gnarled scene he faced is now engraved in his unhinged broken heart . . then to his relief . . did Johzeln see Ayhilina . . with peaceful smile Ayhilina beckoned him slowly . . with that Johzeln reposed managed to force himself fly toward where they usually assemble . . in front of Mr Farluene . . Purpose of spacewalk . . is to learn about space affects test equipment repair space satellites spacecraft . . Astronauts which included Mr Farluene will head out to space for a spacewalk . . Mr Farluene . . unbalanced behavior . . however . . less abnormal conduct . . after conveyance of strict rules toward his crew astronauts . . head out to space . . Johzeln Ayhilina were not included because spacewalk requires further space skills which they are in process to learn achieve it . . Johzeln was seriously disturbed . . confused about behavior of Mr Farluene . . Johzeln . . after made sure its spacecraft door was totally locked hurriedly instantly beckoned Ayhilina . . while he flew toward a cubicle where Johzeln witnessed his abnormal unstable behavior a few minutes before . . a little astonished Ayhilina flew toward Johzeln slowly . . then stopped in front of cubicle of Mr Farluene where Johzeln was at . . “we are prohibited . . Johzeln . .” “you believe me Ayhilina . . ” a little astonished Ayhilina looked at Johzeln . . slowly nodded . . with that Johzeln head into cubicle . . rummaged his desk . . after . . looked at Ayhilina . . pointed . . there . . Ayhilina saw a burgundy half heart necklace . . Ms Leah . . voicelessly shouted out Ayhilina . . then . . suddenly . . Ayhilina hears a signal afar from her room . . Ayhilina intensely confused anxiously looked at Johzeln . . tear in her eyes . . Johzeln nodded . . Ayhilina then after a look at Johzeln . . hurriedly concernedly flew across . . Johzeln left by himself . . carefully anxiously went inside . . then instantly did he . . try to reach out his aunt heart necklace . . my aunt . . cried Johzeln in tear . . yet . . while he reached necklace did Johzeln mistakenly push a button between screens . . where several screen instantly got turned on . . unnerved by sudden sight . . absentmindedly stepped away . . stared at lighted screen . . Johzeln . . then . . suddenly got appalled by . . a particular lighted screen that caught his eyes . . Johzeln . . intensed . . slowly approached near toward . . Johzeln . . then after was shocked . . inside a screen did Johzeln see Ayhilina zoomed in on camera . . Johzeln in fearful doubt . . looked . . looked again and again . . yes it was Ayhilina . . screen full . . Ayhilina . . Johzelen alarmed shocked instantly called out Ayhilina . . with that . . Ayhilina in a little rush flew toward Johzeln . . Johzeln instantly beckoned Ayhilina then pointed its screen . . Ayhilina looked . . then . . astonished wordless . . Ayhilina saw her room within its screen . . "why . ." yet suddenly . . did they hear a few footsteps far away . . Johzeln Ayhilina severely astonished appalled by a sudden noise from afar tried to push button to turn it off . . yet regrettably instead pushed another button . . where other remained screens got turned on . . Johzeln Ayhilina shocked by urgent state tried to find its button to turn them off . . yet then suddenly . . both . . heard a struggle . . Johzeln Ayhilina astonished halted . . hurriedly looked toward struggle noise which was from another screen . . then abruptly . . absentmindedly did Ayhilina utter . . “that is my room” . . Johzeln fretful . . nodded . . yet suddenly within its screen . . half body that was in struggle appeared . . Johzeln Ayhilina deadly appalled . . it was . . it . . was . . Ms Leah . . yet then suddenly . . body disappeared . . pulled by an unkknown entity . . then instantly . . heard a huge crash . . then . . saw his aunt . . crash into a wall . . Johzeln Ayhilina terrified could not believe their eyes . . then a few minutes . . later . . blood permeated its floor . . with that . . in an instant . . straight away . . an entity appeared in camera . . and said . . “should have listened . .” then . . there appeared . . Mr Farluene . . it was . . Mr Farlue