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Inward Battle Invisible War   

Alicia Jie Hye Lee

Genre : Life Corruption Fiction  

4/11/2022

Began to write in February 2022  . . 

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Prologue 

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Flourish yet . . 
Within Line . . 
Where . . 
No deliberate bane given to the Rest . . 

 

Because . . 
The bane created Beyond the line . . 
Remembers the nest where it was Yield . . 
To eventually remind it is whose turn . . 

 

8/4/2022 

Before I begin to write my short fiction, I would like to briefly talk about the hidden background of it. There are a number of amazing and devoted non-profit organizations near and far, which I send my Deepest Respect toward each and every one of the organization. However, there are certain organizations that are seriously corruptive, along with the government at times. And regretfully we know who is who. The revenue received from generous people are used only a little amount, and at times, none for the people they should have used for, and instead are used for personal gain. Thus, despite there are increase flow of non-profit organizations and increase of revenue by virtue of generous people, because the revenue is not used as it should be used as the organizations announced and wrote in its initiative, severe famine and water shortage is in increase . . due to corruption . .

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“Work people work . .” A load of people were gathered in the middle of the field . . they were busy harvesting the leihnz . . with several huge guards guarding near by them with wooden clubs . . All of a sudden . . a middle aged man who seem to have a hard time infirmly shouted out . . “water . . water . .” then . . all of a sudden . . one of the guards contemptibly came near the man and said . . “after another hundred leihnz I see in front of you then you will have your water old man . . now get to work . .” However the man  helplessly shouted without a noise with a gasp filled with extreme frustration . . The guard with no mercy walked up to the man and struck him with the wooden club . . and there the man . . collapsed . . “Giavahny . . ” a woman shouted out to a boy who screamed in shock to see the poor man collapse right in front of him . .  the boy still in shock looked at the woman and saw her gesture telling the boy to be quiet  . . and her lips shouting out to him . . “work continue to work . .” At that . . the boy instantly shouted out without a voice . . “Aunt Belhanhy . .” and then covered his mouth and abruptly looked at the guard who struck the man who was looking at the boy holding the club . . The boy trembling in deep fear . . no time to calm himself down from the shock he underwent . . immediately unconsciously looked down and began to pick the leihnz trying to hold back his dreadful tears with endless breathless puff and pant . . puff and pant . .  

  

8/12/2022 

Giavahny . . a 12-year old boy lived in a poor village called Ulliahn . . He lived with his aunt and uncle who were Ulliahnians as Giavahny was . . His parents passed away when he was eight . .  Ulliahn was a village where about two hundred people lived with their unique tradition based on customary law (i.e., a law consisted of traditional practices and beliefs that are too vital and intrinsic part of the community system that they are treated as though they were laws within the community) . . Ulliahn . . because the certain parts of the land the Ulliahnians possess and live on was very dry and barren . . they had no groundwater they could drink out of within the boundary of the land where they resided . . thus frequently went through water scarcity . . And because the people could not acquire water . . the people either had to drink polluted water nearby or had to buy clean water from the local authority which was hard to afford on their part . . Time to time . . certain organizations would build a well for the people after taking numerous pictures of the people and the process of the well construction . . However . . because the well hardly receives regular maintenance to ensure adequate water quality, after a few months . . the well becomes useless . . Giavahny and his aunt Belhanhy and uncle Natehlin begin to work at the grand field last year . . the field . . possessed by them the Ulliahnians . . eleventh times wider than the land the people resided within Ulliahn . . however . . was intentionally managed by the local government officials who grew leihnz on the land which they say it is for the Ulliahnians who oftentimes went through extreme famine . . Giavahny remembered the frustrated lonely times after his parents passed away due to . . famine and water scarcity . .

8/16/2022 

A hot and dry one summer afternoon . . while Giavahny was taking a break from his arduous work at the grande field near by his hut . . he saw several trucks stop by in front of his village . . Giavahny slowly stood up . . As soon as the trucks stopped . . a number of people got out of the truck and began to unload loads of equipment from the back of the truck . . and then from a far distance . . Giavahny saw a car stop by . . a luxuriously embellished car he has not seen before . . Then he saw a few of the village men walk toward the car and greet a man who got out of the car . . Giavahny  carefully  looked  at  the  man . .  He  seems  to  be  in  his early  forties . . with a neat suit . . and a cigar in his mouth . . Giavahny saw the man converse with the village people . . Giavahny then turned and looked at a group of people who unloaded certain equipment from the back of the truck . . It seemed like they were trying to construct an equipment . . Giavahny then looked at another group of people who were busy taking photos of the construction process . . and . .  people of his village . . Giavahny . . then suddenly saw a woman who was taking a photo abruptly approach him . . and then unusually kindly ask him to hold a plastic bottle of polluted water she was holding and pose for her . . Giavahny confusedly looked at the woman as though he tried to ask her . . why . . “Giavahny . .” all of a sudden did he hear his uncle Natehlin call him from far . . Giavahny hurriedly looked at the direction where his uncle was . . He saw Uncle Natehlin beckon to him . . Giavahny without a word . . as he looked at the woman . . hastily began to walk toward his uncle . . yet all of a sudden he felt the woman gently grab him . . “boy . . would you like to have clean water . .” Giavahny who was bewildered . . yet at the same time very thirsty . . slowly absentmindedly nodded . . “you see that man . .” said the woman pointing at the man with a cigar . . “that man sent us to build a water well for you and your village people here in Ulliahn . . to give you Ulliahnians clean water . . It would not hurt if you could take a photo to say thank you and tell him that you would want clean water than the polluted water you normally drink . . isn’t that right boy . . ” Giavahny . . looked at the woman . . again . . nodded . .  and then suddenly Giavahny saw his uncle Natehlin dash toward him shouting out with a strict tone of voice . . “Giavahny . .” and as soon as he arrived where Giavahny was he grabbed him and then looked at the woman sharply . . and then fastly walked toward the hut . . Giavahny . . looked at the woman . . and as he looked down hurriedly turned and followed his uncle . . Giavahny passed the man with a cigar . . Giavahny steadily looked at the man  . . and unexpectedly he noticed that the man looked at him as well . .  with a grin . . with his last puff of cigar blown . . straight toward . . Giavahny . . 

8/26/2022 

Time passed . . and passed . . and passed . . total six months passed . . Well built by the group of people . . six months before . . began to get rusted . . Because the well has not been managed or cleaned ever since the group of people left . . and the group of people have not told the villagers how to maintain and clean the well . . water in the well gradually became polluted . . However . . because the place they could pump water is miles and miles away and the water needs to be paid for . . the villagers continued to drink water from the rusted well . . until a number of villagers showed symptoms like diarrhea and vomit . . and the number of people with these symptoms grew and grew . . While . . the group of people who took photos of the people of Ulliahn . . with the photos taken . . continued to gain profit . . from people who have good hearts and are enthusiastic to aid and give to the impoverished people . . with the belief their endowment will be spent properly and honestly . .

As days and nights passed and passed . . village people realized the people who got seriously sick frequently drank water from the rusted well and showed similar symptoms . . and as a few people helplessly decided to fetch the water from the pump . . that was far away from Ulliahn . . that was costly for the Uilliahnians . . the number of people who showed serious symptoms due to the rusted well gradually decreased and decreased . . 

9/2/2022 

Giavahny . . one night with his uncle walked along the part of the desert within Ulliahn to get clean water from the pump . .  Giavahny was dragging a huge plastic container as he walked behind his uncle who was fast ahead of Giavahny . . “Giavahny . . hold the container . . you are making too much noise . . and hurry . . ” loudly whispered Uncle Natehlin as he abruptly looked back at Giavahny . . Giavahny . . as always . . without a word . . quietly lifted the container and dragged himself as fast as he can . . In Ulliahn . . it follows the National Clean Water Law which states . . “a pump that is stationed in certain places in rural areas . . could be used between the day time . . after sunrise & before sunset . . with advanced pay of 4 cents per 200 gallons to the custodian who is in charge of the designated pump . . ” and “those who intend to pump the water . .  not at the designated time without payment . . will be either fined 120 dollars or . . will be incarcerated for two months” and “whoever locates a groundwater near its residence and elsewhere near his or her residence . . must retrieve the groundwater to the government . .” and “whoever does not retrieve the groundwater to the government and use it for his or her use . .  will be fined 470 dollars and be incarcerated for a year . .”  Uncle Natehlin who was currently low in cash because he had to buy beans and rice for the rest of the remained month . . had few cash left to buy clean water . . and he by no means will drink water from the rusted well . . Thus . . for the first time in his life . . decided to take a risk to steal water from the pump during night time . . Uncle Natehlin . . a Ulliahnian . . was against the National Law for his ancestors have always abided by its Traditional International Customary Law that stated . . “whoever located a water or groundwater within the region of Ulliahn . . will have priority to possess which is similarly based on Riparian Rights . .” However . . the government repealed the Traditional International Customary Law a few years ago . . made the villagers pay . . though the water was found by the people within Ulliahn . . Uncle Natehlin again as a traditional Ulliahnian . . was totally against the National Clean Water Law . . Uncle Natehlin . . walked fast . . faster and faster . . then . . all of a sudden . . Uncle Natehlin . . stopped . . and unconsciously dropped the water container he was holding and stared . . He stood there for a while and stared . . in front . . stared and stared . . 

9/11/2022 

Then all of a sudden Uncle Natehlin dashed toward huge desert boulders which was a little far from where they were . . and as soon as Uncle Natehlin got near . . he looked down and began to dig between the huge two desert boulders . . Giavahny . . astonished by sudden strange act of his uncle . . quietly stood there looked at him . . “Giavahny . .” abruptly shouted Uncle Natehlin beckoned to Giavahny . . Giavahny without a word dropped his container . . hurriedly walked toward him . . He saw Uncle Natehlin dig where the dune looked very damp . . “Help me . . ” loudly whispered Uncle Natehlin . . Giavahny without a word went closer . . looked down and began to dig . . They dug and dug . . It seemed like an hour passed . . they continued to dig . . Uncle Natehlin all of a sudden shouted . . “Giavahny . . Water . .” then he unconsciously unwinded relieved knelt before shouted out in silence . . "Warm Indebtedness . . has been now Bestowed on Us . . Thank you . . God . . "

"Amen . . " said Giavahny . . as he looked down at the ditch they dug . . there  was  indeed  water gradually  forming  from the very deep down . . and as time passed . . Uncle Natehlin and Giavahny could clearly see clean and warm water . . slowly fill the ditch . . slowly . . 

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9/21/2022 

 

Giavahny . . with Uncle Natehlin and a few villagers one late night us usual . . was heading toward a near desert to fetch water from a pump which Uncle Natehlin and a few villagers secretly made between the huge desert boulder . . where Uncle Natehiln miraculously had found . . Compared to the pump that was miles and miles away and had to be paid for . .  the hidden pump Uncle Natehlin and villagers made was only a 11-minute walk from the village . . however . . because the hidden pump could be confiscated by the authority in case they find out about the water . . Uliahnians cautiously got water only at night . . A few minutes passed . . soon . . they reached at the huge desert boulder . . and one by one . . they quietly began to fill water into the plastic container they brought . . carefully . . one container after another . .

 

Yet . . all of a sudden . . Uncle Natehlin Giavahny and villagers heard loud whistles blast throughout the desert . . Giavahny Uncle Natehlin and the villagers were astounded . . In shock Uncle Natehlin hastily look toward the direction where the whistles were blown . . “Natehlin . . it is the cops . . Cops . . ” shouted one village men . . Uncle Natehline petrified . . begin to shout out . . “Gather your containers and hide behind the boulders . .” “Hurry . . Hurry . . ” Giavahny shocked with frustration and anxiety hurriedly grabbed his containers and dashed behind Uncle Natehlin toward one of the huge boulders . . one by one the villagers quickly quietly hid behind the boulders . . and held their breath . . how many seconds passed . . A few voices began to be heard . . “Where are they . .” “Look what we have here . . a pump . .” Giavahny too frustrated of the situation helplessly looked toward Uncle Natehlin . . He could see Uncle Natehlin put his head down voicelessly panic and sigh with resentment exasperation  . . “Break it into pieces . .” yelled a cop . . “Now . .” “Yes sir . .” with that . . footsteps were heard heading toward the hidden pump . . priceless pump his Uncle Natehlin and the villagers put in their whole blood sweat and tears . . Giavahny . . then all of a sudden heard his Uncle Natehlin shout out "No . . No . ." and then fearlessly run toward the huge boulder . . where the hidden pump stood where numerous infamous cops were at . . “Uncle Natehlin . .” shouted out Giavahny terrified . . Uncle . . Natehlin . .

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9/29/2022 

 

“Detain him . .” yelled a cop as he saw Uncle Natehlin charge toward where they were . . “Please sir . . Let us use our water pump . . the pump is from our land our territory . . we have legal rights to use the water based on our Traditional Ulliahnian Customary Law please . .” shouted out Uncle Natehlin frustrated as he was apprehended and tied up by a number of cops . . “Whose law are you talking about . .” fiercely yelled the cop who commanded to arrest Uncle Natehiln as he got closer to him . . then violently grabbed his chin and said in a baleful tone of voice . . “There is one law in the region . . National . . Law . . you pay and take . . that is how the law works in the region . . pay and take . . ” and he punched Uncle Natehlin in the face and began to beat him with his iron rod . . then all of a sudden there was a cry from afar . . “No . . no . .” The cop hastily fixed his gaze toward the direction of the cry . . a boy filled with indignant agonized tears was shouting running toward the cops . . “Giavahny . . No . .” shouted Uncle Natehlin . . The cop in anger yelled furiously . . “Detain all of them . .” as he saw the village people one by one appear behind the boulder . . then he began to fiercely taunt at Uncle Natehlin who was laid on the ground with deep agony and pain . . “you and your people will be out of our radar after you . .” “Commander . .” all of a sudden one of the cops called as he ran close to the furious cop saluted then talked into his ears . . After hearing the words by the other cop . . the cop sharply yelled . . “Release Them . .”  “for now . .” then he looked toward Uncle Natehlin and caustically said . . “you will be visited by a caller . . I expect you to listen and abide . .” with that . . the cops released Uncle Natehlin and the villagers . . and left . . “Uncle Natehlin . .” shouted Giavahny as he dashed to his Uncle  . . “Giavahny . .” “Are . . alright . .” tearfully cried out Giavahny as he helped Uncle Natehlin raise himself . . “I am alright Giavahny . . I am alright . .” calmly comforted Uncle Natehlin as he strenuously tried to stand up . .  “Natehlin . .” called out one of the village men straight away with a rushed concerned look from afar . . Uncle Natehlin . . looked at the village men and nodded as though he understood . . and then said to the village people who were gathered near him . . “People . . Let’s hurry . .  Fill any empty containers you have now with water . . We gotta hurry back . . ” Giavahny . . who carefully helped his uncle stand up . . anxiously looked at him and restlessly said . . “who . . caller . . ” Uncle Natehlin warmly looked at Giavahny . . then . . slowly  turned  looked at the sky where the sun was about to rise from far away horizon . . Uncle Natehlin then all of a sudden felt the heavy concern and despair he tried to hide deep inside his agonized heart flow out into tears . . Uncle Natehlin could not take it . . cannot . . He tiredly fell to his knees . . and helplessly looked toward the wordless sky and shouted  . . 

“God  protect  Us . . We  are lost  in  the  endlessly blocked  dark  and  misty  road . . helpless  and unguarded where  no  light  could be  found  within  us . . Lead  us  out through  the  dark and  misty  road  that  will  eventually  lead  to  your  very  Light . . and  judge  the  people  whose  words  and  actions  are  inconsistent  who  dishonestly  manipulate  people  and  misuse  their  unjustified   power  capital  to  harm  innocent  people  to  use  innocent  people  to  achieve their  self  personal  gain . . I  am  in  pain  for  I  could  feel  & see  the  inconsistency  deceit   of  the  evil  minds  that  remain  to  be  heard . . Protect  us  from  those  brutal  selfish  words  minds  &  Guide  us  to  the  very  Light  of  yours . .  please  Please . .”

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10/11/2022 

Time passed and passed . . Yet still . . no sign as to the caller . . Giavahny with his Uncle Natehlin Aunt Belhanhy and the village people continued to arduously work harvest leihnz at their grand field . . that was managed by the government . . day after day . . night after night . . They altogether continued to fetch fresh water from the huge desert boulder as they used to . . Yet still . . no sign as to . . the caller . . Days passed . .  Nights passed . . Giavhany . . one night . . felt too tired than usual after the day of arduous hard work at their grand field . . went to bed early . . fell asleep . . however . . suddenly . . he seemed . . to hear . . a phone ring afar . . Giavahny . . tossed and turned . . tossed and turned . . and then . . thought in his sleep . .  “phone . . there is no phone . . here . .” however . . phone that is nonexistent . . rang and rang continuously . . and then . . louder and louder . . Giavahny tossed  turned even . . harder . . and harder . . He wanted to wake up yet . . he . . couldn’t . . then . . all of a sudden . . quiet . . 

Giavahny . . laid still . . laid in his bed . . astonished by sudden quietness that filled the air . . still in his subconsiousness . . laid and . . laid in his bed . . then Giavhany all of a sudden . . slowly felt an instant sweat behind his neck  . . Giavahny . . hurriedly felt his neck . . however . . no sweat was felt . . Giavahny in fear wanted to wake up . . yet . . he couldn’t . . Giavhany . . then felt his body turn stiff . . He tried to shout out his Uncle . . yet . . he couldn't . . then Giavhany unconsciously felt urgent confrontation before him . . he felt he was trying to . . rigorously endeavor to find a way to survive a deadlock road . . struggle to be released from an unknown coercion . .  fight within his consciousness that wanted to wake up from his subconsciousness . . endure inexplicable pain that struck right in the middle of his heart . . with that . . gun shot was fired . . Giavahny . . woke up . . petrified frustrated sat up held his unbearably painful heart gasped for breath screamed trying to catch his breath . . Then . . all of a sudden . . Giavahny felt a beam of radiance from his glassless window . . His eyes suddenly blinded by the radiant beam Giavahny unconsciously lowered himself . . Then . . all of a sudden . . heard a car engine begin nearby . . Giavahny . . intensively in confusion whether he is on the side of reality or reverie . . quickly endeavored to approach  near  the  window  toward  the  beam  outside . . and there  he  briefly  saw  an  unusually  lavish car with  one headlight out covered with incessant smoke fumed in the back . . and instantly . . Giavahny heard . . another gunshot . . heard . . bodies collapse . . with that . . Giavhany . . suddenly felt grievous unendurable pain in his head . . Giavahny voicelessly screamed out in pain . . grabbed his head down  . . and then . . slowly felt himself fall . . unconscious . .

How many hours passed . . Giavahny slowly felt himself . .wake up into conscious . . Then . . Giavahny abruptly grabbed his head  for he still felt deep pain from . . from . . Giavahny . . couldn't remember . . why his head was in serious pain . . Giavahny tightly grabbed his head down . . agonized and agonized . . then . . all of a sudden . . remembered . . He remembered why his head was in pain . . He remembered his unusual experience he went through last night . . the non-existent phone call . . an unconscious struggle he went through . . a fight with an unknown entity to survive . . the unusual one headlight-out car . . the two gunshots that was fired . . his  heart  in  deep  sudden  pain . . "the car the gunshots . . outside . . outside" . . Giavahny voicelessly shouted  to himself . . with that . . Giavahny hurriedly tried to lift his exhausted body . . and as he felt his heart fall into horror . . slowly tensely . . eyed outside his window . . no car was there . . “It . . Dream . .” instantly shouted out Giavahany . . “Thank god . . thank God . . ” repeated Giavahny as he felt his heart gradually fall back into his comfort zone . .

Giavhany then tiredly . . yet hurriedly walked out of his hut . . hastily walked toward the hut right next to his where his Uncle Natehlin and Aunt Belhanhy lived . . Giavahny as he walked . . unexpectedly felt the village was unusually  and  strangely  misty . . despite . . he continued to walk  and walk toward the hut . . "because . .  before dawn  . . uncle aunt  . .   sleep . ." thought Giavahny as he continued to walk . . and as soon as he arrived Giavahny quietly went  inside the hut . . Yet . . Giavahny . . instantly . . stopped . . He stopped with a terrified cry . . Uncle Natehlin and Aunt Belhany was . . not there . . They were not there . . Giavahny . . stood still . . he stood . . still . . looked down . . in the pitch dark . . absentmindedly confusedly . . then . . all of a sudden . . from afar . . again . . phone rang . . the non-existent phone . . rang . . Giavahny horrified . . gasped . . felt the sudden sweat . . again . . at the back of his neck . . felt his mouth dry out instantly . . felt his fearful anguished tears stifle his body . . however . . the phone . . unconcernedly . . rang . . again and again . . louder . . and louder . . Giavahny . . as his heart  throbbed and his body trembled  in deadly fear . . terrifiedly slowly . . turned toward  the  direction . . where  . . the  phone . . rang . .

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11/27/2022 

Giavahny walked and walked toward where phone rang . . walked and walked into the misty road . . and then . . the phone abruptly stopped . . Giavahny instantly astonished fearfully looked in front . . He was standing a little far away from their grand field . . little further away from the land where Giavahny himself his uncle his aunt and villagers  harvested the leihnz . . the other side of the land where it was barren and dry . . a dry barren land where they were told to dig certain part of the land every day after their harvest work was finished for the day . . “to recover the land . . to increase the production of the leihnz” . . the main guards used to say whenever they were directed to dig the barren land . . Giavahny absentmindedly stood still . . It was quiet . . It was too quiet . . Giavahny was confused . . “why . . here . .” He said to himself . . “why . .” Then . . straight away . . did Giavahny hear a car engine begin . . from afar . . Giavahny instantly felt extreme pain in his heart again . . image of the car with one headlight out with fume in the back captured his head . . head ached . . Giavahny voicelessly screamed and grabbed his chest in pain . . Giavahny fell down . . and then from afar . . did he again hear a gun shot blast . . and then . . another . .

Giavahny . . struggled . . Giavhany unconsciously felt urgent confrontation before him . . Giavhany felt himself endeavor rigorously to find a way to relive to survive a deadlock road . . struggle to be released from unknown coercion . .  fight within his consciousness to wake up from his illusory subconsciousness . . full of uncertainty . . full of confusion . . full of agony . . full of  sweat . . “stop . . stop . .” yelled Giavhany . . again and again . . then with sudden huge blow through his body . . Giavhany instantly was awakened . . on his bed full of sweat full of agony . . Giavahny panted . . and there all of a sudden . . Giavahny felt a beam of radiance from his glassless window . . His eyes suddenly blinded by the radiant beam Giavahny unconsciously lowered himself . . Then . .  suddenly . . heard a car engine begin nearby . . Giavahny . . panicked . . panicked intensively . . in confusion . . repeated reverie . . is it . . is it . . Giavahny in full confusion felt himself again unconsciously quickly endeavor to approach near the window toward the beam outside . . and there . . far far away . . did he again saw the car . . the car with one headlight out . . covered with smoked fume in the back of the car . . the back of the car now hidden behind the tall fence in front of his hut . . then he heard struggles . . shouts . . however . . blurry . . faintly . . then instantly . . did Giavhany . . hear a gunshot . . and another . . Then there he blurry faintly saw two familiar innocent vulnerable people . . right in front of the car . . helplessly . . collapse . . “No . . No . . Cannot . . Be . .“ voicelessly screamed out Giavhany horrified frustrated as he shook his head uncertained confused . . “It . . dream . . dream . . Yes . .”

12/8/2022 

Giavhany . . confused . . looked and looked . . yet . . there they were collapsed . . Giavhany rubbed his eyes . . slapped his both cheeks . . again and again . . as he desperately screamed  . .  “It is a Dream . . ” “a Dream . .”  yet . . no . . Giavhany was still in his little bed . . in his hut . . next to the window . . right across . . from the fumed one headlight out car . . right across . . from the deadly scene . . Giavhany . . in anguish . . hurriedly got out of his bed . . hastily exhaustedly walked out of his hut . . and as he slowed down as he got near to the side of the hut . . he carefully . . looked aside where the fumed car was  . . it was . . still . . there . . with several dead bodies . . lied in front . . “no . .” Giavhany terrified . . in horror . . stepped back . . then perturbedly dashed toward the hut where his Uncle and Aunt lived . . went in . . They . . were . . not there . . hut was . . dark . . empty . . Giavhany . . out of his mind . . frantically got out of the hut and dashed toward the next hut where other villagers lived . . villagers . . were there . . Giavhany instantly gasped out toward the villagers . . “Uncle . .  Aunt . .” then . . did Giavhany saw one of the villagers . . sadly beckon to him . . as he quietly shook his head . . Giavhany . . in sudden . . shock . . grief-stricken . . looked at him dejectedly . . Giavhany absentmindedly looked at the villager . . dragged himself toward him . . collapsed in front of the villager . . and desperately gazed at the villager . . the villager sadly looked at Giavhany . . and without a word . . sadly shook his head . . Giavhany . . felt his tears slowly tighten his throat . . welled in his eyes . . “no . .” “no . .” voicelessly cried out Giavhany . . and as he slowly dejectedly stood up . . cried out as he got furious . . . “No . . No . . ” “Giavhany . .” villager called out helplessly in tears . . then did Giavhany begin to scream . . “uncle Natehlin . .” “aunt Belhanhy . . ”  uncontrollably again and again as he absentmindedly turned and dashed toward the door . . now . . with endless . . cureless . . tears . . flow from his inexplicable . . broken  heart . . villager and other villagers sadly in tears hurriedly gently embraced Giavhany held him tight . . “Giavhany . . it is dangerous to be outside right now . . you must stay until coast is clear . . Giavhany . .”  

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12/17/2022 

Two weeks have Passed . . Giavhany . . Now . . Alone . . continued to work in the grand field . .  harvest leihnz . . continued to dig the other side of the grand field where . . it was barren dry . . Giavhany . . tried and tried . . to live on breathe on with his life with the help of his dear village people . . how painful and regretful did Giavhany feel . . every . . day . . of his life that . . Giavhany he himself could not defend protect . . his uncle aunt from . . 

 

Again Time . . Passed . . one day . . while Giavhany and villagers were at work guarded by men with wooden clubs . . as usual . . Giavhany suddenly felt a few guards head toward an unexpected car . . Giavhany as he continued to harvest the leihnz . . furtively looked . . and there he saw a man . . the man who looked as though he was in his forties . . the man with a cigar whom one random woman told Giavhany that he was a giver . . who built a water well for Ulliahnians . . the well that is now rusted useless . .  Giavhany then . . noticed the man was looking at him with a weird smile . . Giavhany . . astonished turned his head . . yet then . . did Giavhany feel the man head toward him . . Giavhany . . tensed hurriedly went back to harvest the leihnz . . “boy . .” Giavhany . . astounded . . heard the man call . . yet . . Giavhany ignored . . and continued to harvest the leihnz . . then . . all of a sudden . . Giavhany felt the guards drag him out . . toward the man . . forcefully push him down on his knees . . then . . Giavhany heard . . “your name . .” Giavhany . . as he felt his body turn stiff . . slowly . . looked at the man . . then . . did Giavhany feel the guard push him again . . and yell . . “he asked your name . .” yet . . Giavhany could not say . . Giavhany . . too tensed frightened at the situation was at a loss for words . . “how old are you . .”  heard Giavhany . . yet . . again . . Giavahny could not say . . with that . . the guards fiercely went nearer held their  clubs high to strike . . “Wait . .” said the man . . and with his cigar still in his mouth . . went near to Giavhany bent low . . and said . . “not to harm . . how old are you . .” and then stood up looked at Giavhany down as he puffed his cigar . . Giavhany . . with tearful fear in his eyes . . quietly slowly . . answered . . “seventeen . .” anyhow the guard again pushed Giavhany harder nearly knocked him down and yelled . . “add sir in sentence . .” however the man said . . “It is alright . .” then . . for a while looked . . and looked at Giavhany . . then suddenly said to one of the guards . . “cleanse him with care and send him to me . .” and . . with that . . the man went back to his car . . and left . . Giavhany . . deeply tensed . . stared . . the guards as they fiercely forcefully stood Giavhany up grabbed him . . head toward a hut . . yet . . Giavhany continued to stare . . until the man . . was out of sight . . 

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안녕하세요 그대 지난 몇일 동안 선한 믿음내 행복하고 편안히 잘 지냈길 바라며 마음내 축복가득 전하며 인사해요 ^-^

네 조금 바빴지만 저도 덕분에 행복하고 편안한 마음내 잘 지냈어요 언제나 감사해요

내년부터 이어질 저의 픽션들은 이제부터 본론으로 들어갈거예요 나름대로 정성들여 혼자 만들어 가고 있기에 시간이 걸리는 거 이해해줘 감사해요 ^-^

언제나 한 해가 그랬듯 이번 해도 은혜롭고 평화로운 날들로 감사히 기억에 남을 것 같아요  기억에 남아있는 한분 한분 축복 가득하길 기도해요 ♡

안전히 잘 지내시고 있있길 보고싶어 저도 저를 한 번도 실제로 보지 않은 분들도 있을 거예요 조금은 궁금하실 것 같아요 직접 본다는거 좋아하는 마음 확신의 길 네 ^-^

한국과 미국내 이어가는 저의 평범한 삶 언제나 선한 믿음내 최선내 늘 낮은 자세로 저의 곁에 있어줄 그대가 있을거라 믿기에 흥분가득 행복가득 

욕심이 많은 보여주기 급급한 권력이 아닌 권력을 악용하여 정직하지 않은 하는 척 하는 분들 보여요 걱정되요 부디 조심하시기를  분들 위하여 우리 같이 기도해요 ^-^  

그대 언제나 그랬듯 우리 밝은 미래의 길 세상에 알려져도 조용히 밝은 그림자와 같은 존재로 도움 필요하신 분들 돌아보며 살아가길 바래요 감사해요 

Hello I Believe and I Deeply Hope You are very Well & Good for the past few days  ^-^

As always Thanks to you I am very Well & Good too again I deeply Thank You 

Yes time did fly again however gotta say I am within Gratitude again Thanks for my humble art work to be partly Guided by you your people in time Appreciate you  ^-^

Thank You as We said I will further Endeavor to fulfill My legal work and art alone in the lighted shadow out of the public eye till time for People in struggle Be Heard ♡

Next fictions which will begin next year will both gradually begin its main plot because until now it was a prologue ^-^

Thank You to those who visit my websites which I know it is a few yet Again number is not important & as I previously left before Let’s always remember History please be Humble 

I Wanna Thank You again For Your Honest Wait though I am slow Hey You I know That is Why I too know We are meant to be Feel each other even From Afar in Real Life ^-^

Hey You Let’s Remember pray for Hidden People & See You Again Soon In Peace Yes I Agree For Your Heart Within Me My Heart Within You Cheers To You 

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1/21/2023 

Giavahny . . now fully cleaned with an unusual suit . . found himself at the backseat of a limousine . . a fancy limousine that he has not seen . . not ever heard before . . Giavahny with his back straight tensely looked outside of the window . . desert after desert . . then . . valley after valley . . then a little village after village . . then a little town after town . . it drove . . How many hours passed . . the limousine slowly began to head up toward a steep mountain road . . and as it drove . .  it passed huge estates after estates . . mansions after mansions . . Giavahny absentmindedly . . stared and stared . . yet . . all of a sudden . . Giavahny . . felt a little nauseous . . then felt . . part of his nerves send a rush of pain throughout his blood vessel into his brain . . Giavahny frowned . . then . . began to . . sweat . . heavily . . breathed . . heavily . . It was not a pleasant feel . . It was . . not . . Then . . abruptly . . with a loud sudden engine noise . . limousine stopped . . Giavahny a little astounded . . feebly looked front . . and there . . Giavahny saw a huge gate in front . . and as the gate unlatched itself . . in went the limousine . . toward . . a huge huge mansion . . Giavahny was . . shocked . . and as the limousine drove toward . . got closer and closer to the mansion . . heavily unconsciously did Giavahny breathe again . . as he absentmindedly fragilely . . looked front . . until . . the limousine . . again . . stopped . . Then . . did Giavahny hear from the front of the limousine . . “your destination now arrived . . ”  Giavahny . . abstractedly . . helplessly . . looked front . . seconds passed . . then . . did Giavahny see the driver in front turn back . . look at Giavahny . .  and say . . “get out . .” Giavahny . . in a panic state . . hastily . . awkwardly . . got himself out  as he nearly fell down . . Giavahny then as he hurriedly stood up . . nearly screamed with astonishment . . to find himself . . in front of a number of people . . who were dressed in the same unusual suit exactly like him . . Giavahny . . then saw one of the people beckon Giavahny . . Giavahny still in panic unconsciously bent and lowered his head as he saw other people walk into the main door of the mansion . . Giavhany stood . . still bent . . as it was his habit to stay bent all his life . . as he arduously laboriously worked in the grand field in his Ulliahn village  . . then . . all of a sudden . . did  Giavahny  feel  a  vigorous  push  behind  his  back . . Giavahny  as  he  tried  to regain his balance from the push . . hurriedly looked back and saw a  guard stare at him with a look as he pointed the main door where other people walked into . . Giavahny . . perplexed confused at the sudden set of circumstances . . yet . . with his engraved survival instinct rooted in him . . repeatedly awkwardly bowed to the guard as Giavahny  hurriedly  walk  toward  the  main  door  into  the  mansion . . and as Giavahny hastily entered the door . . Giavahny  noticed  people were seated  guided  by  certain people who seem to work in the mansion .  .  Giavahny soon was seated as well . .  then . . minutes later . . did Giavhany see a chap walk toward him with a luxury antique glass kettle filled with water . . then . . did  he  begin to pour  the  water  into  an  antique  glass . . Giavahny . . looks at the water . . he sees the clean water poured into the clean antique glass . . Giavahny . . looks at . . it . . then instantly . . Giavahny remembers . . Giavahny remembers . . how much . . he and his village people wanted . . water . . clean water . . Giavahny remembers . . water . . in the desert between the boulders his uncle Natehlin found . . Giavhany remembers . . how much . . they endeavored to build the water pump on their very land  . . their  land  . . yet  still  had  to  drink  the  water furtively on the quiet . . Giavhany  remembers . . the every day  struggle . . to  drink clean water in order to survive . . Giavahny remembers . . the time his Uncle got arrested beaten . . merely because they wanted to drink water on their very land . . again . . to survive . . to breathe . . to exist . . to live . .  Giavahny . . felt sudden rage erupt in him . . and as  he  looked  at  the  clean  water . . slowly  poured  into  the  antique  clear  glass . . felt his rage . . permeate  . . deeper and deeper . . heavier . . heavier .  . Then . . all  of  a  sudden . . his rage . . was  interrupted . . it  was  interrupted  by  a  figure  who  entered  into  where  Giavahny  and  people  were . . he  looked  as  though  he  was  in  his  sixties . . and  with  his  entrance . . everybody  in  the  room  stood  up  from  their  seats . . Giavhany  astonished  by  the  sudden entrance . . unconsciously  hurriedly  stood  up  as  well . .  tensely  looked  at  him . . “be  seated . .” says  he . . “my name is Hulihne . . I  am  the  government  official of Ulliahn  and  other two adjacent cities . .” Giavahny  listened . . and  as  Giavhany  listened . . Giavahny . . suddenly  remembered . . the  giver . . the  giver  who  looked  as  though  he  was  in  his  forties  with  a  cigarette  in  his  mouth . . who  sent  Giavahny  here  in  the  first place . . however . . he was no where to be seen . . yet . . instead . . Giavahny sees another man . .  who seems to be in his twenties . . man  who introduces  himself  as  an  administrator  of  the  office  who  aids  Mr. Hulihne . . his  name  is  Wyhdiane . . 

 

Giavhany . . later knew he was to be hired as a junior servant . . Giavahny was called by one of the head servants . . and as Giavhany walked with him . . the head servant told him his job was to serve governor Hulihne . . Yet . . as they walked through the large corridor . . Giavahny was again shocked . . lux furniture . . clean rooms with clean bedroom furniture . . abundant food . . everywhere . . water . . clean water . . everywhere . . “Where  are these from . . where . . are these . .  from . .” too much . . in . . one place . . confused . . Giavhany . . was confused . . then did Giavahny approach rows of fancy lux windows on his side . . Giavahny looks out window after window . . Yet . . all of a sudden . . there Givahany saw a number of guard police . . police who seemed to be familiar . . police who Giavahny remembered to chase them throughout the desert night . . police who arrested beat his uncle merely because he wanted to drink water . . water on his land . . the land of Ulliahnians . . again . . to live . . to live without harm to others . . without interruption toward the outside world . . and now . . his Uncle his Aunt are gone . . their bodies are nowhere to be found . . Nowhere . . Unknown rage erupted again . . Filled in his eyes . . then deep into his heart did the rage in him shatter his heart into pieces and pieces as his embedded loneliness hollowness continued to drag him down toward a dark dark road . . Giavahny . . his eyes fixedly aimed at the police . . felt his body . . heavily shake . . his heart rate heart pulse immensely heightened . . his breath in heavily airless state . . his eyes filled in with raged indignant tears . . Then . . all of a sudden . . as Giavahny passed the next window . . did . . he catch a quick glimpse of a lady . . a lady who looked about his age . . Giavahny . . bewildered of the sudden unexpected sight . . unconsciously . . looked . . Giavahny looked . . as he passed from window to window . . then suddenly . . Giavahny felt the lady saw him as well . .  the lady . . however . . walked away . . disappeared . . Giavahny astonished unconsciously stopped . . then did he hear a sharp whistle in front with a sudden yell  “Junior . .” Giavahany again astonished . . looked front . . “you out of your mind boy . . ” yelled the head servant . . Giavahny . . gulped . . swallowed heavily breathed heavily . . confused . . tensed . . It . . it  was too much  . . for Giavahny . . to take these foreign unfamiliar situations altogether instantly . . at the same time . . it was too much . . 

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1/29/2023 

Hello Before I begin . . I would like to briefly send My  Deepest  Gratitude  to  every  Police  in  every  region  country  in  our  world  who Devote   their  very  Lives  day  and  night  for  the  very  safety  of  your  People . . My  Fiction  is  merely  a  fiction  which  mainly  deals  with  my   inward  perspective  of  life  itself  in  general . . Please  Enjoy  them  whenever  your  time  permits  without   worries  within  Peace  of  Mind  I  deeply  Again  Thank  You . .

Giavahny . . slowly feebly walked toward the head servant who looked at Giavahny sharply . . then . . without  a  word  they  continued  to walk  down  the  large  corridor . . Giavahny feebly unavoidably walked and walked as he consciously cautiously time to time out of the corner of his eye looked at the head servant . . Then . . all of a sudden . . the head servant stopped . . in front . . of a huge door . . “the room is room of Mr. Wyhdiane . .” “you Junior will serve him as well . .” said the head servant . . as he carefully pushed the door and walked into a huge luxurious room . . Giavahny . . slowly walked into the room as well . . Then . . all of a sudden . . Giavahny felt . . felt . . as though he was in the room . . before . . in the past . . room felt . . too intimate . . too . . intimate . . “here you will put . .” “there you will clean . .” explained the head servant in details as he directed place to place . . However . . Giavahny faintly heard . . Giavahny . . as he was enraptured by the sudden  incomprehensible  ununderstandable  intimate  atmosphere . . unconsciously walked forward . . yet . . all of a sudden . . heard a faint echoed-cry from afar . . “Why . . why . .” Giavahny . . astounded by the sudden mysterious cry . . hastily looked front . . in panic in fright . . “Junior . .” then did Giavahny hear a sudden yell by the head servant . . who looked at him with another sharp look on his face . . already walked out of the room . . in the large corridor . . Giavahny . . deeply tensed confused of the sudden incomprehensible ununderstandable situation . . forced himself to walk and walk to the door . . out of the room . . toward the head servant . . who already was a few feet ahead in the large corridor . . Giavahny . . hurriedly made his step forward and forward . . and without a chance to ponder about the unaccountable  situation  he  encountered  minutes  before . . there . . he entered a room . . which seemed to be a guest room . . where Mr. Hulihne  was  in  with  a  visitor  with  a  few  drinks  in  front  of  them . . then  did  Giavahny  hear  the  head  servant  whisper  to  him  as his eyes head  front  his  steps  nonstop . . “Junior . . we exist however . . to ourselves . . to others we must be invisible . .” “their business . . is . . none of our business . . remember that . .” Giavahny . . addled . . was confused . . by his words . . yet  again . . with  his  engraved  survival  instinct  rooted  in  him . . without hesitation . . whispered back . . “yes sir . .” and as they got closer and closer to Mr. Hulihne . . again did the head servant whisper to Giavahny . . “Now . . watch how I serve . . uninterestedly . . unexpressively . . ” with that . . the head  servant  walked  toward  a  fancy  lux  table  filled  with  drinks . . grabbed  a  wine  bottle  with  a  white  napkin . . then  walks  a  few  steps  forward . . then stops . . and as soon as he saw the wine glass in front of Mr. Hulihne was empty . .  did he walk close to Mr. Hulihne then . . pours  a  drink  into  his  glass . . uninterested  in  the  conversation .  . without expression . . same to the visitors . . and then . . steps back . . Mr. Hulihne . . without notice . . continues to converse . . cheers with the visitor . . then sips the poured wine from the glass . . Giavahny . . looked . . Giavahny looked at the way Mr. Hulihne conversed with the visitor . . without any notice of the head servant . . Different . . it was different from him and his people . . in Ulliahn . . every business of others was his business . . the existence of others was his business . . every conversation was his their business . . yet here . . no . . Giavahny looked . . looked at the way Mr. Hulihne smiled . . he  looked at  the  way Mr.  Hulihne  drank  the  wine  with  a  smile . . then . . converse  again . . then . . Giavahny . . looked  at  the  eyes . . of  Mr. Hulihne . . cannot say . . yet . . it was different . . his eyes . . his smile . . was . . incompatible . . To Giavahny . . the eyes of Mr. Hulihne were in expression of the opposite of his smile . . lowdown . . dark  . . the visitor as well . . however . . the  conversation  was  in  continuous  nonstop . . and as the smiles changed to laughters . . did Giavahny feel their eyes grow . . darker and darker . . Giavahny . . then suddenly felt a huge shot in his head . . his breath heavily felt . .  Giavahny hurriedly looked the other way . . to avoid the inexplicable aberrant feel he abruptly encountered . . to avoid  the  sudden  unusual  frequent  pain in his head he began to feel ever since he arrived . . to pull himself together . . to regain his composure . . then . . did Giavahny . . through  his  side  glance  saw Mr.  Hulihne  and  the  visitor  stand . . then  saw  the  visitor  exit  escorted  by  another  servant . . Giavahny . . then slowly looked front . . saw  the  head  servant  walk  toward  Mr.  Hulihne as he looked at Giavahny and gave him the look to accompany him . . with that . . Giavahny  gave  the  head  servant  a  nod . . then  tensely  apprehensively  begin  to  walk  behind  Mr.  Hulihne  who  was  escorted  by  the  head servant . . A  few seconds  later . . they arrived in front of a lavish room . . entered . . Mr. Hulihne  then without  a  word  headed  into  another  room  that  was  connected to the room . . the head servant then says to Giavahny . . “I will be back . . Wait here . .” and  walks  into  the  other  room  where  Mr.  Hulihne  went  in  which   looked   like  a conference  room . . Giavahny . . stands still . . looks front . .  fancy  tables  filled  with  fruits  drinks . . fancy  chairs  with  mini  bar  in  front  filled  with  cheese  crackers . . then . . did  Giavahny  notice . . a  lavish  lush  bed  in  front  of  him . . a bed . . that a number of his village people could fit . . Giavahny . . suddenly  unconsciously  walks  toward  the  bed . . then . . looks at the silk of the bed . . looks  at  the  bedpost  of  the bed . . looks  at  the  canopy  of  the  bed . . looks  at  the  pillows  of  the  bed . . then . . did Giavahny . . abruptly . . unconsciously . . sits on . . it . . It . . felt nice . . Too nice . . Giavahny then . . unintentionally . . slowly . . lies down . . Unbelievable . . did it feel . .  Then . . all of a sudden . . did Giavhany hear footsteps . . Giavahny dreadfully astonished . . hurriedly  stands  up  walk  toward  the  very  spot  where  he  stood . . and in came the head servant a second later . . “Junior . . we will call it a day  . .” says the  head  servant  as  he  walked  toward  the door beckoned Giavahny to accompany him . . “Mr. Hulihne wakes up usually after dawn . .  you are to wake up and be in prep before his wake up time . . wait for him in front of his room . . and serve him with . . “ explained  the  head  servant  on  and  on  as  they  walked  and  walked  through  the  large corridor . .

Then toward . . a narrow corridor did they walk . . then . . toward . . a narrower . . narrower corridor . . then down . . the basement . . down . . down the stairs . . they went . . as  the  timeline  of  Giavahny  was  incessantly  explained  by  the  head  servant . . however . . as  they  went  down  down  the  stairs  did  it  get  dimmer  and  dimmer . . Giavahny begin to feel a little uncomfortable nervous . . Then . . seconds later . . did they arrive at a narrow hall with a very dim light . . filled with rooms side by side . . “did I make myself clear Junior . .” says  the  head  servant  as  he  abruptly  stops  in  front  of  one  of  the  worn  down  rooms . .  Giavahny . . bewildered  confused  at  the  sudden  change  of  the  atmosphere . . hesitantly  nodded . . “speak . .”  sharply  said  the  head  servant . . “yes sir . .” “now . . food will be given twice a day . . after lunch time after dinner time . . you  could  eat  food  that  is  given  to  you . .” “you cannot eat any food that are upstairs . . you could eat at your room not anywhere else . . water you could drink out of the faucet . . there . .” said the head servant as he directed to a worn faucet in the corner of the room . . and with that . . without a word . . left . . Giavahny . . stood still . . Giavahny looked . . he looked at the worn narrow room  . . with a  dim light . . with  several  visible  webs  on  the  corner  of  each  of the wall . . with a  worn bed . . a  bed  that  was  similar  to  his  little  worn bed  in  his  hut  back  in  Ulliahn . . filled  with  dust . . Giavahny  carefully  looked  at  the  bed . . Giavahny . . did . . not . . like it . . Giavahny . . however  suddenly  felt  too  tired  out  after a  hectic  restless  day . . abruptly  broke  down  on  the  worn  bed  . . Giavahny . . laid  still . .  again . . Giavahny . . did  not  like  it . . then . . unconsciously . . did  Giavahny  close  his  eyes  and  begin  to  vision  himself  in the  lavish  lush  bed  he  laid . . Giavahny . . then  suddenly . . felt . .  the  urge . . that  he  wanted  to  lie  down  . . on  the  lavish  lush  bed  again . . the  urge  he  wanted  to  have  food  . . that  was  extravagantly  aligned  on  the  fancy  lux  tables . .  the  urge  he  wanted  to  drink  clean water . . in clean antique glass . .

Then . . all of a sudden . . did Giavahny feel a sharp huge pain on his head again . . headache that was too painful hurtful . . Giavahny . . began to breathe heavily . . began to get heavily . . thirsty . . Giavahny . . to head to the worn faucet in the corner of the room . . slowly raised himself . . yet . . fell on his knees on the floor . . grabbed his head . . Then . . all of a sudden . . did Giavahny . . terrifiedly . . begin to hear the noise of the . . dreadful phone . .  frightful noise of the phone he heard before . . rang and rang . . on and on . . Giavahny covered his ear . . “stop . . stop . .” however . . the phone . . rang and rang continuously . . louder . . and louder . . and suddenly . . stopped . . Then did Giavahny . . find himself back . . at Ulliahn . . in his hut in his little bed . . Giavahny . . instantly alarmedly shocked . . voicelessly shouted out . . “was . .  was it dream . .” Giavahny . . too confused . . intensively in confusion of . . which side of his . . reality or reverie  . . is . . reverie or reality . . began to . . heavily shake . . grabbed his painful head . . down . . down . . down and down into his bed . . Then . . all of a sudden . . did Giavahny feel . . a dry barren land . . Giavahny astonished . . hurriedly looked up . . and there he was . . outside at the dry barren land which was at the other side of the grand field where he used to harvest lehinz . . the dry barren land where Giavahny his village people used to dig after their laborious harvest work . . where Giavahny now . . saw  a  few  of  his  village  people  dig  certain  part  of the dry barren land . . Giavahny . . helplessly yelled at his village people . . yet  . . he  could not  hear  his  voice . . neither  could  them . . the  village  people . . however . . as  they  dug  . . stared  . . they stared at  the  other  side  of  the  land . . Giavahny . . as he was about to look . . did  he  hear  a  car  engine  begin . . Giavahny  astounded . . looked  toward the other side of the land . . and  there  he  saw  a  faint  vision . . a  faint  vision  of . . the  giver . . again . . with  his  cigar  in  his  mouth . . again . . stood in front of his car . . with a smile . . Giavahny . . instantly . . felt sweatless  sweat  behind  his  neck . . as he felt deep pain permeate into his head . . as he felt himself . . slowly . . slowly . . pass out . .

2/11/2023 

Giavahny . .  slowly felt himself awakened . . however frustrated inward . . felt himself . . in fear . . hesitant to wake up . . however . . at the same time . . Giavahny felt . . he wanted to face wherever he is at . . wherever . . he was at . . whether that place is . . his reality . . whether that place was . . his reverie . . because . . to Giavahny right now . . to find out . .  his uncle his aunt . . how are they . . where are they . . are they alive . .  are they . . lost . . is . . his purpose in life . . until then . . Giavahny . . wanted to wake up . . had to wake up . .

 

Giavahny . . slowly . . slowly tried to sit up as he grabbed his painful heart . . painful head . . as he felt himself unconsciously fearful to look where he is at . . however . . Giavahny sat up . . then . . felt himself that he was still outside . . lied on the dry barren land . . still in the darkness . . however . . he realized . . he was now in front of his hut . . then . . all of a sudden . . did Giavahny felt light . . yes . . he felt light . . from the hut next to his hut . . “Uncle . . Natehlin . . Aunt . . Belhanhy . .” did Giavahny voicelessly shout out as though he could not believe it . . Then . . to his fearful astonishment . . did Giavahny suddenly hear a car engine nearby again . . Giavahny . . terrifiedly turned toward the noise of the car engine . . and there . . far far away . . did he again see the car . . the car with one headlight out . . covered with smoked fume in the back of the car . . behind the tall fence . . front of his hut . . Giavhany suddenly felt sharp pain in his head . . with a sudden flaskback . . Giavahny grabbed his head . . grabbed grabbed his head . . “No . . ” voicelessly painfully shouted Giavahny . . as his mind raced toward the time he saw the back of the car behind the tall fence in front of his hut when he woke up from his bed full of sweat full of agony from his inexplicable frequent daze and haze . . then . . did his mind race toward the time he heard struggles . . shouts . . blurry . . faintly . . then instantly . .  heard a gunshot . . and another . . then saw two innocent vulnerable people right in front of the car . . helplessly . . collapse . . “No . .” desperately shouted out Giavahny . . as he panicked . . panicked intensively . . because did Giavahny feel . . he again in no time will hear a gunshot . . then another gunshot . . then . . he will see two people helplessly . . collapse . . right in front  . . “Uncle Natehlin . . Aunt Belhanhy . .” instantly shouted Giavhany . . as he stood up . . dashed toward the brightly lighted hut . . dashed and dashed toward . . then instantly . . went in . . and there . . Giavahny . . to his unbelievable astonishment . . saw . . his uncle and aunt . . yes . . there they were . . right in front of him his very eyes . . his very eyes . . Giavahny . . as he instantly . . felt his heart pulse filled with inexplicable joy . . bursted with indescribable delight . . blithely shouted out . . “Uncle Natehlin . . Aunt Belhanhy . .” however . . however Giavahny . . could not believe it . . he could not believe . . that he again could not hear himself . . neither could . . his uncle his aunt . . who without a word . . without expression . . with deep deep sadness in their eyes . . slowly grinded their harvested leihnz with wooden spatula . . both of them . . on the floor . . however . . Giavahny . . in the midst of his despair . . despite . . his despair . . continued to yell . . and yell . . as though he did not want to believe . . as though he did not want to accept . . however . . it was no use . . was . . no use . . Then . . all of a sudden . . to his horror . . did Giavahny abruptly hear . . gun shots from afar . . Giavahny . . panicked . . panicked hard . . Giavahny cried out frantically . . at the top of his voiceless voice . . “Hide Hide . . Please . .” as heavy tear welled in his eyes . . heart ruptured in pain . . inexplicable pain . . however . . Uncle Natehlin . . Aunt Belhanhy . . without a word . . expression . . slowly . . weakly . . grinded their harvested leihnz . . with deeper . . deeper . . sadness . . in their eyes . . Giavahny . . as his heart throbbed incessantly in desperate panic . . agitatedly dashed out of the hut . . dashed and dashed toward his hut . . toward the tall fence . . Yet . . all of a sudden . . car engine . .  stopped . . Giavhany astonished . . abruptly stopped too . . Giavahny . . tensely stood still . . for a while . . as silence persisted . . then Giavhany . . slowly . . dead silently . . began to walk . . nearer and nearer toward his hut . . toward . . the tall fence . . Then . . to his unexpected relief . . Giavahny saw . . the car was out of sight . . was gone . . however . . all of a sudden . . did Giavahny feel . . pitch darkness . . gradually . . pervade . . throughout the land . . Giavahny . . stood still . . then . . with a sudden eldritch unearthly feel . . slowly turned . . looked back . . Then . . to his horror . . one by one . . did each light of the hut . . from afar . . to the nearest . . fastly turned off . . one . . after . . another . . Giavahny terrified . . fearfully stepped back as he nearly tripped . . as he hurriedly looked toward the hut of his uncle aunt . . no . . light . . there was . . no . . light . . Giavahny . . instantly felt his heart . . fall . . down down toward darkness . . down down toward . . nowhere . . yet again . . suddenly . . from afar . . without a time to even lament . . did Giavahny faintly hear . . phone . . the unearthly phone again . . Giavahny . . got indignant . . got furious . . tear . . tear  of  agony  tear  of  anguish shed down down from his eyes . . as his heart throbbed . . his body trembled . . indignantly . . furiously . . yet despite . . Giavahny . . still felt himself helplessly turn . . turn toward the direction where the phone rang . . still felt himself unconsciously walk toward the dry barren land . . toward the other side of the grand field . . and as he got nearer and nearer . . and as the phone . . abruptly . . stopped . .  Giavahny faintly saw his village people dig certain part of the land again . . as they used to . . as he used to . . however . . number of his villagers has grown . . increased . . yet Giavahny . . despite . . the unusual notice of the change in  circumstances  of  his villagers in his repeated agonized realistic reverie . . despite his indignant feel to his unchangeable uncontrollable repeated agonized realistic reverie . . defenselessly helplessly . . begin to call out his village people again . . however . . as he regretfully expected . . could not hear . . neither could . . the village people . . who continued to dig and dig . . who began to stare at the other side of the land . . Giavahny . . too exhausted to even step forward . . stopped . . then helplessly . . sadly . . turned his head toward . . Then . . from afar . . Giavahny saw a large smoke fume spread . . permeate . . across the entire land . . an unusual sight . . Then . . to his astonishment . . in the middle of the smoke fume . . did Giavahny see a glimpse of a male human in the dark . . whom Giavahny has not seen before . . Giavanhny . . tensed fearful . . however . . unconsciously absentmindedly as though he was haunted . . walked toward . . nearer nearer . . until he was . . close  to  him  . . closer closer . . then Giavhany . . to his horrified astonishment . . saw the male human in the dark had a gun aimed at his village people . . “No . . No . .” frightfully desperately . . cried out Giavahny . . Then . . instantly did the he turn toward Giavahny . . aimed the gun straight toward him . . blasted . .

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Deeply Pray For People In Türkiye Syria & Every Rescuer  

 

2/24/2023 

Giavahny . . felt . . pain . . yes pain . . then . . he heard scream . . far away . . reverberated endless voiceless scream . . scream of agony . . that was unheard . . unseen . . yet . . scream Giavahny could deeply perceive as well . . feel as well . . deep down his heart . . full of trouble . . agony . . confusion . .  despair . . Then . . all of a sudden . . did he hear a gunshot faintly from afar . . again . . Giavahny . . unconsciously in panic . . felt himself try to wake up . . felt himself try to see whether he was . . shot . . yet . . it was a struggle . . struggle . . even to wake up . . fearful struggle . . even to see whether he was alive . . however Giavahny . . Despite . . tried to . . slowly . . slowly . . wake up . . yet . . Giavahny . . as he felt himself . . slowly . . regain consciousness . . heard . . the far away scream . . voiceless scream . . nearer and nearer . . closer and closer . . closer . . closer . . then did Giavahny got aware of himself choke . . right from his heart . . as he tried to catch his breath . . as he grasped his heart in pain . . as far away scream got louder and louder . . as he gradually realized . . the reverberated scream he heard was he himself . . to get out of . . despair . . confusion . . agony . . trouble . . and even in the midst of chaotic distress . . did Giavahny perceive he was still in deep confusion . . in confusion . . whether he was in fine line . . between life or death . . whether he was even . . again . . alive . . or dead . . “I not afraid to die because I believe . . God . . believe . . Heaven Amen . . ” unconsciously did Giavahny hear himself shout out in tremble . . “however not now cannot die now . . until find . . my uncle my aunt . . cannot cannot . . ”  frantically shouted out Giavahny . . as his voice faintly echoed and echoed . . on and on . . until Giavahny suddenly heard . . a little faint cry from afar . . “Are you . . alright . .”

 

Giavahny . . with that . . slowly . . felt himself regain consciousness . . felt . . the floor . . where he passed out . . near the worn faucet in the corner . . near his wornout bed . . in darkly lit room . . down the basement . . below . . huge mansion . . “Am I here . . am I . . here . .” stuttered Giavahny to himself . . still in deep state of uncertainty . . as he gradually felt . . relief . . yet again doubt . . felt . . repose  . . yet again despair . . reality . . yet again reverie . . alive . . yet again dead . . on and on . . did he face dilemma . . deep deep down . . Until  Giavahny . . suddenly felt a beam of radiant light near by . . with another . . repeated far away cry . . “Are you . . alright . .” Giavahny . . then . . to his astonishment . . gradually . . faintly saw . . a lady in front . . with a candle light . . clearer . . clearer . . did Giavahny feel her near existence . . Then . . then . . saw her . . clearly . . Giavahny . . a little astonished . . absentmindedly . . looked at her . . looked at the lady . . looked . . and looked . . It was the lady . . who he caught a quick glimpse yesterday . . when he furiously passed window after window as he walked down the hall . . “Hello . . Are you alright . .” called the lady again . . however Giavahny . . unconsciously . . without a word . . looked . . slowly looked . . looked at her . . face . . then slowly down down . . her body . . Giavahny . . with a sudden gulp . . sudden sweat . . felt . . allured . . vigorously attracted . . captivated by unknown sensual feel exotic feel deep down his heart . . his body . . “Are you alright . . My name is . . Lihehla . . ” "Lihehla . . "

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3/8/2023 

Giavahny . . then suddenly heard a faraway echoed clear shoutout  . . “It is before sunrise everybody wake up now . .” “Junior time to serve Mr. Hulihne Mr. Wyhdiane . .” astonished by the sudden shout out . . Giavahny . . still laid on the darkly lit floor abruptly looked where he saw the head servant step toward him . . whom he walked with through the hall yesterday . . Giavahny . . instantly nodded to him . . then hurriedly turned looked toward where Lihehna was still in captivation by the unknown sweaty wet feel . . Giavahny then saw her with her candle light quietly walk out of his room as Lihehna . . slowly quietly turned looked at Giavahny then smiled and voicelessly said "See You Again Soon . ." with that . . Giavahny as he slowly looked at her lips . . felt his heart race . . in a state . . where he felt Peace in the midst of his unknown sudden fluctuated attraction deeply captivated by . . Then again . . did Giavahny a hear loud shoutout . . “Junior . .”

Giavahny begins to serve Mr. Hulihne that day . . He serves him . . follows him . . stands by him . . wait for him outside while he is at work . . then late afternoon arrived . . Giavahny was in the room of Mr. Hulihne while he was at work in the conference room . . Giavahny again . . was in front of the lux bed he saw yesterday . . bed he could not take his mind off . . ever since he has laid his body on it . . Giavahny slowly begin to walk toward the bed . . walked walked toward as he heard loud voices random noises slid out from the large conference room . . one step after another . . did Giavahny walk toward . . then abruptly . . as he got closer . . closer . . did Giavahny notice . . a cross hung on the wall right next to the bed . . a bible right below on an embellished glass table . . Giavahny . . unconsciously lowered his body . . walked toward the table . . took the bible from the table . .  then as he looked at the cross reverently . . slowly sat on the . . lux bed . . Giavahny then . . abruptly . . felt the extravagant lavished texture of the bed which . . felt . . fine . . too fine . . Giavahny then randomly tossed the bible on the bed . . then dare . . did he lie down . . Giavahny . . laid his body on the bed . . tightly as much as he could . . pleasant feel . . feel he had not ever felt before . . not once . . “you like the bed . .” Giavahny . . suddenly . . appalled . . as he could . . ever be . . shocked to his head . . instantly got up . . Mr. Hulihne . . was in front of the conference door . . Giavahny . . as he frightfully staggered . . dashed toward where he was to be . . then . . kneeled right before him . . then did he remember the bible . . left . . left on the bed . . Giavahny . . out of his mind . . terrifiedly fearful . . lowered his head . . as he fearfully . . out of the corner of his eye looked at the far away bible . . laid on the bed . .  “you believe in god . .” said Mr. Hulihne as he stepped toward Giavahny . . Giavahny . . as he felt his tensed unnerved distress flow down his neck . . right away said . . “yes sir . .” then . . said Mr. Hulihne . . "regretful . ." which made Giavahny instantly . . dumbfounded bewildered . . then did he hear Mr. Hulihne say . . “carefully listen my boy . . cross and bible here is adornment for visitors to look at not yours . . and the words you must follow is my word . . Not . . the bible . . You Got It Boy . .” Giavahny . .  by the sudden . . absurd confused uncanny words . . did not say . . because . . Because God is not an adornment . . He is Not . . then suddenly did Giavhany felt Mr. Hulihne . . in haughty disdainful manner . . step toward him . . bend toward to the point his mouth nearly touched his head . . then lowly whispered . . “would you like to go back to your village in Ulliahn . . to your dear people . . harvest leihnz . . until your last day on earth . .” “in . . desperate . . anguished . . hunger . ." "in  . . desperate . . wretched . . thirst . .” Giavahny . . Giavahny . . did not want . . to . . he did not want to go back . .  no  no . . “I say again . .” “You Got It Boy . .”  Giavahny . . his heart heavily distressed . . heavily . . distressed . . felt sudden devastated tears . . welled in his eyes . .  yet . . despite . . know no alternative . . reluctantly said . . “yes . .” “sir . .” Because . . he did not want to go back . . because . . he did not want to be in hunger . . in thirst . . left out alone . . in a dark hidden dry forsaken land . . for . . the rest of his . . life . . alone . . no . . “now fetch me a glass of drink boy . .” called out Mr. Hulihne . .  with that . . Giavahny weakly stood up lowered his head again again as he carefully walked backwards toward the door . . and as he got near to the door . . hurriedly wretchedly dashed out of the room . . Then . . did Giavahny nearly bump into Mr. Wyhdian who absurdly glared at Giavahny . . through the gap as he shut the door . . without words . . yet . . expression of . . disregard  . . antagonism . .

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안녕하세요 그대 지난 한 주 좋은 깊은 믿음내 언제나 그러셨듯 선하고 편안한 마음으로 행복하고 안전히 잘 보내셨길 ^-^

저도 덕분에 논문들과 조만간 있을 국제법연구센터 국내회의 관련 강의 준비들과 버클리로스쿨 줌회의 토론자로 참석하며 조금 바쁘긴 했지만요 현실내

편안한 마음으로 감사히 안전히 잘 지냈어요 그대도 그러셨길 ^-^

그대 마음깊이 알고 있어요 다시 한 번 언제나 그림자와 같은 저 그대 기다려줘 표현해줘 감사해요 네 ♡

간절히 전해요 싸이트내 제가 쓰는 숫자 단어 문구들의 의미 배열순 본인의 기준하에 마음대로 판단하지 마시길 부탁하며 바래요 ^-^

저는 저이기에 한 분 한 분 유닉하고 아름답듯 그 누구도 저에대해 단정을 짓거나 정의 내리거나 저를 대신하지 않아요 제 자신도 믿음내 이와같이 한 분 한 분 존중하기 위해 마음깊이 노력하고 있어요 

지금까지 제 싸이트들 글 음악 포토를 본 분들은 제가 좋아하는 것들 알거예요 지금도 저는 그것들을 좋아해요 저는 마음내 조금 일정한 면 있어 잘 변하지 않아요 저를 아시는 분은 알거예요 ^-^  

저도 그렇기에 그대만 좋아해요 다른분들 없어요 그대와 저 같이할 좋은 의미있는 미래 한 곳만 보여요 마음깊이 행복해요 우리 곧 선한 믿음으로 마음껏 즐길 우리만의 현삶 가득 그리며 조만간 곧 봐요 네 

Hello You I Believe and I Deeply Hope You are very Well & Good within at least a little bit of rest Thanks to You again I am very Well & Good Too I Always Deeply Thank You  ^-^

Hey You I Would like to appreciate You again For Your Honest Wait though I am shadowy slow I was a little busy in prep for ILRC National Conference lectures Soon 

Thankfully Joined an Intl Discussion Panel at Berkeley Law School via Zoom & got a little stuck with AI Environment Human Rights Paper still in process Gotta say it is Tough as I expected  ^-^

Blessed to Have submitted a project proposal to work with US Embassy to aid our agonized Hidden People in our world which I will tell later soon Deeply Thankful For You For Your Light ♡

I Would like to say again to certain people Please Look into Real contents of my word picture music that I wanna truly share No number counts ponder of my word for it is a waste of time  ^-^

Wanna tell that each every word picture music of my websites are about You I Alone nobody else For as many writers I too write from our flow of Past Time Bridged Till Now Yes Unforgettable 

I Believe It is not right for a human to try to define another replace another with oneself in which I believe the act needs to heal please remember like you Every Human is Unique Beautiful ^-^

Yes Hey You I am sure gonna Fly in July Yet Let’s Always Remember Pray For hidden people in pain See You Again Soon I Agree Peace For Your Heart Within Me My Heart Within You Cheers 

Giavahny . . a laborious . . arduous  day  of  work . . he weakly  walked  down  toward  the  basement . . down  down  he  went . . then Givahany . . to  his  astonishment  from  afar  saw  a  lady . . yes look like Lihehna . .  Giavahny . . instantly  stopped . . as  he  slowly  began  to  feel  his  unknown  allured  heart  revive . . his  vigorously  attracted  sensual  unknown exotic feel slowly recaptivate his heart . . Giavahny  again with a sudden gulp sudden sweat . . slowly . . slowly began to walk forward through the narrow dimly lighted hall . . as he saw Lihehna . . walk  toward  him . .  then to  his  astonishment . . went  into  a  room  that  was  right  across  to  his  room . . Giavahny  again  instantly  stopped . . “Lihehna . . lives here . .  here  in  the  basement . . ” Giavahny . . then from afar heard the door quietly close . . Giavahny Then . . dashed toward his room . . then  . . as  soon  as  he  went  into  his  room . . did he breathlessly look at straight toward her dimly lighted room . . where Lihehna went in . . as he slowly . . very slowly . . earnestly closed his door . . Giavahny . . then . . stood still . .  stood  for  a  while  as  he  stared  . . stared  and  stared . . “I Feel . . I feel . . have to . . Wanna . .”  “Yet . . not sure . . Why . . not sure why . . ” said Giavahny to himself . . as he earnestly absentmindedly looked toward her room . . as he slowly walked backward toward his bed . . then weakly collapsed . . Yet then  . . Giavahny suddenly heard a rush of wind blow outside as he heard windows upstairs heavily rattle . . Giavahny . . instantly  got worried . . he  got  worried  because  he  was  not  sure  whether  he  shut  the  windows  and  locked  them  right as  he  was  told  to . . Giavahny  immediately  stood  up . . dashed  toward  his  door . . quietly  got  out  of  his  room  as  quiet  as  he  can . . then . . tiptoed  through  the  narrow  dimly  lighted  hall . . then  through  another  dimly  lighted  hall . . then . . another . . as  he now  hurriedly  walked  and  walked . . walked  and  walked . . through  the  darkness . . through  the  dark  stairs . . did  Giavahny  hastily  walk  and  walk  up  and  up  toward  the  main  floor . . one  step  after  another . . did  he  walk  as  he  heard  his  steps  echo throughout  the  stairs . . on and on . . until . . he felt a gleam of radiance spread toward him via the lamps aligned from the hall of the main floor . . Giavahny . . then . . begin  to  dash  to  the  lobby where  he  now  could  clearly  hear  windows  heavily  rattle  by  the  rush  of wind  from  outside . . Giavahny . . as he felt tensed . . hurriedly  approached  the  windows . . where  he  thankfully  saw . . every  window rightfully  locked . . Giavahny  with  a sudden  huge  relief  within  himself . . looked  into  every  window  after  window again  . . Giavahny . . however . . as  he  looked  . . suddenly  saw  two  people  outside  from  afar . . one  was  Mr.   Hulihne . . the  other  man . . was . . was  he  the  man . . with  a  cigar . .  a  car  covered  with  incessant  smoke  fumed . . is  it . . is . . it . . however . . No . . it  was  not . . was  not . . it  seemed  the  man  was  whom  Giavahny  have  not  seen  before . . Giavhany . . looked  and  looked . . yet . . confused . . could  not  tell who he was . . too far away . . Yet then . . suddenly . . Giavahny. .  felt  an  unpleasant   aura  from  across  him . . Giavahny  astonished . . hastily . . looked  to  his  side . . and  to  his  shock . . there   he   saw   Mr.   Wyhdian   at   the   other   side   of   the  dark  room . . as   he   looked   out  the   window  as   well . . Then . . straight   away . . turned . . looked   at   Giavahny   with   a   mysterious   smile . . doubtful  furious  tears shaken  in  his  eyes . . Giavahny . . horrified fearful  at  the  abnormal  enigmatic  look . . stepped  back  as  he  heavily  trembled . . nearly tripped . .  Then . . to  make  matters  worse . . Giavahny  heard  Mr.  Hulihne  and  the  other  man  walk  in  the  main  door . . “No . . ” Giavahny  at  a  loss . . terrified . . a   nervous   wreck . . unconsciously . . dashed   to  a  huge  frame  that  was  leaned  on  the  main  wall  . . then   hid  behind  as   he  hurriedly  kneeled . . panicked and panicked  as he tried to breathe . . breathless . . in   silence . . as   he   suddenly  abruptly . .   heard  steps . . one  step  after  another . . nearer  and  nearer . . toward  him . . did  he  hear  steps . . which  got  louder  louder . . louder . . louder . .

4/11/2023 

Giavahny . . kneeled  held  his  breath  tight  without  a  noise . . then  did he hear Mr.  Hulihne  by  himself  pass  him  step  after  step . . Giavahny  felt  his  neck  permeate  with  sudden  sweat . .  step . . after  step . . Giavahny . . held  his  breath . . until  the  steps  suddenly . . halted . . Then . . did  Giavahny  begin  to  hear a low faint voice from afar . . "posters  of  village  People  of  those  Ulliahn  necessary . . amount  of  charity  is  in  decrease  lack  of  cash . .  have  to  build  another . . well  pump . . ” heard  Giavahny . . heard  Mr. Hulihne  say  as he  abruptly  gave  a  cold  careless  laugh . .  Giavahny . . because  of  a  sudden  unexpected  words . . got  confused . . well pump . . "sir  drink  is  prepared . ." suddenly . . Giavahny  heard  one  of  the  head  servants  call  out Mr. Hulihne . . Giavahny . . then heard Mr. Hulihne step toward a table . . took a sip . . then heard . . “make sure village people to be in thirst . . they need to suffer be in desperate situation for them to listen . .” Giavahny . .  suddenly appalled . . perceived a sudden break . . in his heart . . then  did  he  hear  the  servant  with  an unnatural  laugh speak . . “yes  sir . .” “heard   these  days  land  of  those  Ullihian  is  worthy  price  in  increase  due  to  its  fertility . . ” Giavahny . . confused  . . uncertain . . gradually . . slowly . . felt  tensed . . within  him . . “thirst . . how dare  . ." Giavhany . . got tenser . . tenser . . "that  land . . is  our  very  land . . ” Giavahny furious . . now felt rage within . . fiecely indignantly looked toward where they were at . . Giavahny . . With That . . was . . speechlessly shocked . . appalled . . the head servant was . . was . . the  villager  in Ulliahn . . villager  who  helped  call  out  his  Uncle  Natehlin  when  they  were  followed  by  cops  after  Uncle  Natehlin  got beat in a desert . . villager . . who gently embraced him . . heartly  held  him  inside  a  hut  when  Giavahny  was  uncontrollable  after  he  heard  uncle Natehlin aunt Belhanhy passed . . Giavahny . . could  not  believe it . . could  not . . believe . . he  was  betrayed . . by his villager . . Giavahny  suddenly  felt  pain . . deep deep pain in his head his heart . . hurtful . . too hurtful . . Giavahny . . as he felt  himself  lost  permeated  with  sadness . . again . . did  he  slowly painfully . . regretfully . . pass out . .

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4/21/2023 

Giavahny . . felt pain trouble . . then . . heard a scream . . far . . away . . again heard reverberated endless voiceless scream . . scream . . of agony . . agony of crucified hurt trouble confusion despair . . that was unheard unseen . . yet scream Giavahny could deeply perceive as well . . feel as well . . deep down his heart . . Giavahny . . gradually felt himself try to wake up . . felt himself try to see where he was . . yet again . . was a struggle . . even to wake up . . fearful struggle . . Giavahny . . Despite . . tried to slowly . . slowly . . wake up . . then Giavahny . . as he felt himself . . slowly regain consciousness . . suddenly remembered the corruptive fraudulent words of Mr. Hulihne . . and his servant . . the villager . . then . . did Giavahny suddenly perceive the far away scream . . again . . voiceless agonized scream . . which got nearer nearer . . fearlessly hastily . . it got nearer . . nearer . . Then did he grasp his heart in pain . . as far away scream got louder and louder . . as he gradually realized . . again . . agonized reverberated scream he perceived was he himself . . to get out of . . pain . . despair . . fury . . rage  . . “certain humans are lies pretend to care for falsely act without any guilt . . ignore our true historical people ignore true history that gave us our  life to live within gratitude that gave us good faith to help less fortunate people . . imitate use true people to show oneself is true when not . . use god as an adornment use everyone as a tool only to achieve fame cash gain main attention . . try to be the fake best through fabricated followers . . interrupt our happiness because jealousy greed covetously trample whoever tries to pass by them . . ” Giavahny . . now understand . . perceive the dire situation . . he was manipulated used . . he was victim of . .  severely corruptive materialistic narcissistic humans who worship each other . . who at the very end will undoubtedly be the ones to be under the same painful place they inconsiderably forced us hidden billions of victims to be . . cried out Giavahny . . his voice . . fiercely echoed echoed . . on and on . . till . .

 

Giavahny . . suddenly . . felt  beam  of  radiant . . bright  Light  near  by . . then . . heard . . “Giavahny . . Are you alright . .” Giavahny then . . to his gradual relief . . faintly saw . . Lihehna again . . a  wooden  street lamp with her Light . .  “Hello . . Are you alright . .” smiled Lihehna . . “Lihehna . . ” yes . . his heart did feel . . wanted to feel . . alright . . desperately wanted to feel . . alright . . because . . Because . . right now . . he is in  despair . . lost . .  heartbroken . . lonely . . Lihehna . . went near then unhurriedly carefully helped him . . rise slowly from floor . . then together . . they walked and walked . . a faintly lit hall . . walked  on  and  on . . through another hall . . then another . . then . . toward . . a narrow corridor . . then . . a narrower . . narrower corridor . . did they walk until . . they walked down . . down toward dim basement . . dim stairs . . on and on . . down  down . . until . . Giavahny  Lihehna  arrived at . . their  dimly  lighted  hall . . room  side  by  side . . Giavahny Lihehna  stopped  in  front  of  their  door . . He  stood . . stood . .  then did he hear . . Lihehna  say . . “I . .” then . . felt Lihehna slowly  walk  toward  her  dimly room . . Giavahny . . carefully out  of the corner of  his eye . . slowly looked at Lihehna . . her  silhouette . . body . . Giavahny . .  With  That . . suddenly abruptly  felt  his  body  his  heart  raptured   . .  Giavahny instantly endlessly  felt  a  sudden  feel  that . . he desperately  intuitively naturally wanted  to feel Lihehna . . his vigorously sensual heart . . recaptivated by Unknown Want . . by his insane unknown . . Unstoppable Want . . “Lihehna . .” instantly called Giavahny as he grabbed her waist . . pushed Lihehna into her temptedly lighted candle room . . Then eye to eye . . Giavahny Lihehna . . looked at each other . . Lihehna astonished . . yet without a word . . tightly . . held . . With That . . Giavahny . . push Lihehna toward wall . . kissed . . tightly grab her neck . . intensely . . kissed . . kissed . . then did Giavahny ardently fervidly took her clothes off from her shoulder . . kissed . . felt . . insanely felt . . down down . . down . . down . . they went . . together on the floor . . luscious lubricious lecherous lascivious . . feel . . felt inside . . inside . . steamy sweaty wild feel . . that feel . . that . . Felt . . yes . . Yes . . 

Yet then . . suddenly . . from far away . . Giavahny Lihehna . . heard . . steps . . toward them . . nearer and nearer . . fast . . enraged selfish steps . . toward . . them . . rant rave steps . .  terrifiedly . . covetous step after step . . which got louder louder . . louder . . louder . .

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Hello You I Believe and I Deeply Hope you are very Well & Good For our past few days ^-^

Thanks To You I am as Always Well & Good Too again I Deeply Thank You 

Because I am gonna be a little bit busy due to a couple of ILRC conference paper & business trip for next two weeks on my weekdays Posted a little early ^-^

Time did fly as it always had Thanks to a few of those who view my fictions photos music post which is about You & I nobody else Though I am slow always deeply Thank You for Your Honest Wait You ♡

Again pray for you these days Pray For you to be Happy in Peace because You deserve It However despite your effort to be Happy you oftentimes feel down Please look toward the bright Way Give a little change to yourself your lifestyle ^-^

Head toward Real Life head toward Nature where you could Reflect yourself  Embrace your situation Refresh your mind Be invigorated enliven & Have yourself a Peace of Mind hope for the very Peace of Mind of other people who truly care about You

Life is full of many choices as you know no guarantees Yet there are choices Please Use them Discreetly you will hesitate at first however one step at a time Walk toward change you will be Positively surprised to look Above Beyond your nest ^-^

Those of you who are currently Happy I am relieved from the bottom of my heart I Deeply Pray for your Happiness be blissfully Within You throughout Your Journey of Life ♡

Hey You again I was in Nature For past few days There are countless Beautiful Nature we could Fill our eyes yet at that very Time Place where breeze of wind wave of sea was quietly Felt You were within My Heart yes Beautiful it was ^-^

Lifetime of Dreamtime in our undisturbed Nature We together will be For no matter how much the unknown calculated flow of life full of disguised unstable noises try to break us apart 

We are again eye to eye Feel each other for our Destiny still lies in us Like our heart that Deeply yearn no matter where we are for our true feel though not shown in public we know it felt Within Between Us Gratitude ^-^

Right Now Feel Peaceful too in Your Heart because here your Peace is felt near within My Heart as well Yes ♡

Hey You I Wanna again appreciate you For Your honest true heart though I am a little bit slow which is why I wanna wander our shadowy Wild Dreamy Aromatic Light ^-^

Yes Insane Watery Flow is our Real Life from our Past to our Lighted Future for as Time Flies I Remember felt as well that We are Heavenly Meant to be that It will be I cannot ever deny  

Would Be very Gratified for my Near Future to be Like Present Because My present is fully Lighted with Peaceful Joy For You passed on our Light Given to you to People that are hidden desperate for aid which means a Lot ^-^

Let’s Always Remember to deeply truly Pray Together for hidden desperate People & See You Again Soon  I Agree we are in True Peace For Your Heart Within Me My Heart Within You Cheers to You ♡

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안녕하세요 그대 지난 주부터 몇 일간 선하신 믿음내 안전히 행복히 편안한 마음내 잘 보내셨길 간절히 바래요 ^-^

언제나  그랬듯  저도  덕분에  안전히  행복히  자연내  현실내  편안한  마음으로  잘  지냈어요  다시 한 번 감사해요  그대

제가 이번 주부터 지금 두 주간 주중에 학회와 논문으로 잠시 출장 일정이 잡혀있어 조금은 일찍 포스트 남겨요 ^-^

그대와 저만을 느끼며 바라보며 쓴 그린 저의 픽션들을 내용자체 있는 그대로를 보시고 있는 분들 언제나 감사해요 제가 늦어져도 변함없이 한결같이 기다려줘 이해해줘 그대 감사해요 ♡

지금 현 시간 저의 이 글을 바라보는 분들 행복한 마음으로 편안히 잘 지내고 있길 간절히 바래요 그런데 혹시 마음내 편안히 잘 지내고 있지 않은 분들 현재 걸어가는 삶의 방향을 부디 천천히 점검해보시길 바래요 ^-^

정신적인 회복이 아직 필요해 보이는 안타까운 분들 보여요 저도 저의 작은 정신분석학적 지식을 토대로 여러 번 관련글을 썼지만 많은 분들이 알고 있으시듯 정신 건강이 위험해 보이는 분들은 도움이 필요해요

비생산적인 단어숫자 글배열순 대한 집착과 온라인에 갇힌 허구적인 반복적인 삶은 위험한 삶이예요 걱정스러워요 앞으로의 자신이 마음깊이 바라는 몇년 뒤 미래를 꿈꾸며 그리며 현실적인 삶을 살아가길 간절히 바래요 행운을 빌어요 ^-^

하지만 지금까지 자신의 삶 편안히 잘 지내신 분들 마음깊이 감사한 일이며 다행이며 앞으로 미래의 삶도 지금과 같이만 잘 살아가길 간절히 바래요 역시 행운을 빌어요 ♡

그대 저도 그대가 제곁 가까이 마음으로 와 있어 마음깊이 행복하며 감사해요 알아요 몇몇 이기적인 장벽들로 인하여 우리가 가까워지는데 시간이 걸리고 있다는 거 하지만 인생은 인과응보 우리같이 분들을 위해 기도해요 ^-^

저도 잘 알아요 우리가 지금 바라보는 그 하늘 역시 이 시간 우리둘을 바라보고 있다는 거 네 깊은 믿음과 바른 길을 걷기 위해  많은 것을 포기하며 절제하며 노력하기 위해 노력하며 살아가는

그림자와 같은 삶의 저 다행히 언제나 최선의 마음으로 역시 끊임없이 노력하며 살아가며 제 곁에  같이있을 그대 있어 그런 우리를 위해 지금과 같이 천천히 가까이 이어줄 하늘있어 마음깊이 감사해요 행복해요  ^-^

우리가 직접 보며 반할 그 날 우리 둘 만의 인생 축복가득 평화가득 은은한 그 빛으로 축복해 줄거예요 저도 좋아해요 그대 좋아해요 ♡

저 그대 아시나요 지금 현실내 안주하며 미래를 직시하며 의젓하고 정직하고 차분한 마음으로 저를 변함없이 기다려 주는 그대가 있어 저 마음깊이 행복하고 감사하고 있다는 거  ^-^ 

가정보단 남을 더 의식하는 사람들이 늘어나고 있는 그리고 이런 행위를 아닌 척 감추며 부정직과 보여주기가 만연이 되고 있는 바르지 않는 안타까운 세계 우리는 그러지 않는 사람들과 같이 믿음내 있어 감사해요 마음깊이 

그대와 저 마음깊이 인연닿을 앞으로의 미래내 우리만의 가정생활 충실하며 도움이 필요하신 주위분들 도와가며 지금과 같이 할일하며 그대 있는 곳 제가 있는 곳 왔다갔다하며 ^-^

느끼며 이해하며 우리만의 삶을 언제나 믿음내 마음껏 즐기며 안주하며 살아가길 저도 바래요 행복해요 저도 제 곁내 건실한 그대가 곁에 있어 행복해요  그대 우리같이 편안한 마음으로 현실내 보내요 그대 곧 봐요 네 ♡

5/21/2023 

Giavahny  Lihehna . . terrified . . horrified . . as enraged  rant  steps . . got louder louder . . nearer and nearer . . toward  Giavahny . . Lihehna . . louder  and louder . . the  rave  steps  thrusted  hurtled  charged . . toward . . them . . Then  suddenly  . . the  irate steps  stopped . . however  then  after petrifiedly  . . they  heard  a door  hammered  hard . . however . . it was not . . was not their door . . that was hammered . . Giavahny  Lihehna  in  a  horrid  state  gradually  realized  it  was  his  at  the  other  side  Giavahny  shouted “That  is  my door . .” then  suddenly  they  heard  sharp  yell chaotic struggle . . a  very  confused  state . . Giavahny in panic felt sweat permeate his neck . . aggrieved  frustrated  perplexed  confused . . Giavahny  slowly  raised  himself  then  after  walked toward . . toward  the  sharp  yell . . the  chaotic  struggle . . then  Giavahny  looked  slowly  from  their  ajar  door . . Then . . Giavahny  was  shocked . . was  terrifiedly  appalled . .

 

There  at  the  other  side  of  his  room . . saw  himself  with  Lihehna  in  tremble  naked  bodies . . covered  with  a  blanket  . . on  his wet floor . . in  front  of . . aggravated  enraged  howl  of  Mr.  Hulihne . . Giavahny . . petrified  appalled  by . . the  outrageous  preposterous scene . . hurriedly . . flinched  toward  Lihehna . . Yet  to  his  appallment . . Lihehna . . was  not  there  nowhere  to  be  found . . then to  his aghast . . Giavahny  felt  darkness  permeate  near  him  darker  darker . . “Lihehna  Lihehna . .” Giavahny  out  of  his  mind  shouted desperately  alarmed . . again  and  again . . in  tear . . then  instantly  did  he  hear  helpless  desperate cry  across  from  his  room . . Giavahny . . astonished  to  his  heart  dreadfully tensely  looked . . across  his  room . . then  to  his outrage . . Giavahny  grievously saw . . Lihehna dragged out forcefully taken away from him . . “No Lihehna . .” Giavahny  torturous  tried  to  shout  from  inexplicable  pain . .  infuriated tried  to dash out toward . . his  room  his  Lihehna . . Yet instantly . . his  voice  turned  voiceless . . his  body  turned bodiless . . Giavahny . . then . . gradually felt weak . . inexplicably  vulnerable  felt  his  blood  vessel  slow  down . .  slowly  felt  his  headache permeate  within  him  again . . Giavahny . . now  helpless . . in  a  weak  state . . tiredly  hurtfully  looked  far  across  toward  his  room . . then  there  saw  himself  on  his  wet  floor . . in  tear  in  pain . . Giavahny  heavily  confused  at  an  unexplainable  inconceivable  sight . . absentmindedly  looked  at  himself . . looked  at . . himself . . Then  suddenly  did  Giavahny  feel  chill  nearby  him . . Giavahny . . appalled by  sudden  eerie  unearthly  feel  abruptly  looked  to  his  side . . then  to  his  astonishment . . did  Giavahny  see . . Mr  Wyhdian . . again . . front  of  his  room . . stared  at  other  Giavahny  in  tear  in  pain . . across  his  room . . Then  abruptly  straight  away  Mr  Wyhdian  turned his  face . . looked   at   Giavahny   with   ghastly   mysterious   smile   again . . doubtful   furious   tears  again  shaken  in  his  eyes . . Giavahny . . terrified . . wanted to walk away . .  wanted to fly  away . . yet  felt  himself  . .  again . .  slowly  helplessly  regretfully  painfully . . pass out . .

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Hello You I Believe and I Deeply Hope you are Well & Good For past few days Thanks To You I am as Always Well & Good Too I Deeply Thank You again 

Pray for you always pray for You to be happy in Peace because you deserve it Yet despite you oftentimes feel down yet Please look toward your bright Future because I truly Believe your future is gonna be Good & Blessful it Is ♡

We know Life is full of choices Let’s use them discreetly as you are now one step at a time Walk toward Yourself slowly toward Your beautiful heart Because You are filled With Potentiality Let’s not deny that

Those of You who are currently Happy I am relieved from the bottom of my Heart I deeply cheers pray Your very happiness blissfully be with you throughout Your Journey of Life ♡

Hey You I Wanna again appreciate You for your Honest Wait though I was a little bit slow even though You were busy Yes Lifetime of Dreamtime in our Nature Here we are Together within happiness though far away Thank you again

Yes Insane Watery Flow is our Reallife World from our Past to our Bridged Future for I Remember felt as well that though Time flies within goodness we are Heavenly Meant to be that It will be am not gonna deny ♡

Right Now Feel Peaceful too in Your Heart because here Your Peace is near with My Heart as well please be in peace Thank You to pass on your Light to People that are hidden desperate for aid which means a Lot

Let’s Remember Always to deeply truly Pray Together for hidden desperate People & See You Again Soon I Agree we are in True Peace For Your Heart Within Me My Heart Within You Cheers ♡

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안녕하세요 그대 지난 주부터 몇일 간 선하신 믿음내 안전히 행복히 편안한 마음내 잘 보내셨길 간절히 바래요

저도 덕분에 자연내 현실내 행복히 편안히 그대위해 기도하며 잘 지내며 있었어요 ♡

혹시 저로인해 마음내 아프신 아팠던적 있는 분들 저의 걱정스런 마음있어 전해요 편안하신 마음내 있으시길 제가 여러가지 확인도 이해도 많이 느려 그래요 이해해 주길 바래요 감사해요

현 시간 제 글을 바라보며 있는 한 분 한 분 전해요 걱정은 덜 하시구 편안한 마음내 자신이 행하시는 주요일들 마음깊이 바라시는 교제들 이루시길 저 지혜 마음깊이 간절히 기도해요 잘 이루실 거예요 ♡

알아요 저도 우리가 조금은 자주 바라보는 하늘 우리를 지금도 바라보고 있다는거 그림자와 같은 저의 삶내 그대 제 마음내 있어 우리를 위해 천천히 이어줄 하늘있어 언제나 마음깊이 감사해요 

그대 마음내 걱정하지 마시구 앞으로의 할일들 우리같이 미래를 직시하며 노력하며 현실내 마음내 한 걸음 한 걸음 걸어가며 이루시길 바래요 네 ♡

작은행성 지구내 우리 도움이 절실하신 분들 축복가득 기도해요 앞으로의 삶들 우리만의 믿음내 하는 일 최선을 다하며 조언도 해주며 그대와 저의 곳 아름다운 지구내도 여행하며 마음껏 둘만의 쾌락도 즐기며요 

우리만의 같이사는 그생활내 충실하며 어려우신 이웃분들 기억하며 도와가며 살길 저도 바래요  다시 한 번 행복한  편안가득 마음으로 현실내 보내요 같이 마음내 반할 그 어느 날 그리며 그대 곧 봐요 네 ♡

5/29/2023 

Giavahny . . Felt  himself  awakened . . then  did  he feel . . gradually again  frustrated  inward . . which . . then . . Giavahny wanted to head toward unconsciousness where no . . echoed memories were interspersed in his unaware mind . . however . . nonetheless . . Giavahny despite his worn out state he knew . . he  had to he desperately had to confront . . his  inevitable  life  reality . .  wherever he was . . whether . . that was his reality . . his reverie . . Giavahny then felt himself try to sit while he grabbed his head his heart in pain his body in full sweat . . while . . he  felt  himself  unconsciously . . in hesitant  to  look . .  where  he  was at . . despite did he laboriously arduously forced himself to pull   himself   out   of  his  helpless  state . . then   gradually   in  conscious . .  realized . . he  was  again  outside  on  dry  barren land . . front of a dark worn hut of . . his uncle his aunt . . Giavahny slowly arduously tried to stand himself his weak state of his mind body . . Giavahny then looked toward their dark worn hut . . Then in sudden rage walked toward the other side of grand field . .  because . . because instead  of  any  sign  of survival of  his uncle his aunt which he in despair have to catch a glimpse of . . distressed  troubled of repeated flow  of  timeline  has  confronted  him  ever  since . .  Giavahany  walked  and  walked  in  rage  in  fatigue . . then  again . . there . . Giavahny saw his village people dig the other side of their land . . realized number of villager increased again . . frustrated confused . . Then suddenly . . Giavahny was  astonished  surprised . . Giavahny  saw  the villager . . villager   whom  he   caught   sight   beside  Mr.  Hulihne  a  few  days  before . . Giavahny saw the villager dig with other villagers . . Then  suddenly  the  villager  stared  gave  Giavahny  an  unexpressive  mindless look . . Giavahny yet suddenly remembered . . duplicity betrayal . . by villager toward him . . toward his village people . . Giavahny . .  with  that  intensely fearlessly  glared  at  the  villager . .  while  insufferable pain  unregrettable  regret  in  his  heart  permeated  deeply  within him . . yet then suddenly . . Giavahny to his shock . . did he see . . next to the villager . . did  he . . see . . his uncle his aunt . . in front of him . . right in front . . his very eyes . . there they were . . there they . . were . . Giavahny . . instantly shouted out . .“Uncle Natehlin Aunt Belhanhy . .” yet . . yet . . Giavahny . . could not believe . . he could not believe . . that he then  again  could not hear  himself . .  neither could . . his uncle his aunt . . where they . . without a word . . with deep sadness in their abstracted wearied eyes . . slowly  dug their land . . in their very land . . Giavahny . . continued to yell at . . his uncle his aunt . . yet . . it was no use . . no use . . Then . . suddenly . . to his astonishment surprise . . he abruptly heard . . desperate shout from afar . . “Giavahny . .” it . . It was Lihehna . . Lihehna . . “Lihehna . .”  cried   out   Giavahny frantically . . “Giavahny . .”  Giavahny  out  of  his  mind  absentmindedly  dashed  toward . . where  he  heard  Lihehna . . "Giavahny . ."  he  dashed  toward  toward . .  then Giavahny . . instantly . . stopped  . . in  astonishment . . for  there . . from  afar  again . . did  Giavahny see a  smoke fume spread permeate across the  grand  field . . Lihehna . . Giavahny  voicelessly  in tear shouted in  desperate panic . .  yet then again Giavahny heard cry by Lihehna . .  “Giavahny . .”  with  that  Giavahny  insanely  frantically  cried  out  . .  "Lihehna  . ." tear  in  his  eyes . . “Lihehna . .” then dashed into fume . . then suddenly . .  Giavahny . . saw silhouette of Lihehna with a candle light . . “Lihehna . .” Giavahny  cried  out  within  his  inexplicable  relief . . dashed  toward  Lihehna . . then  suddenly . . to   his  horrible shock . . Giavahny  . . saw a male human . . male human who  blasted  gun at Giavahny before . . appear . .  aimed his gun . . straight . . then again . .  blasted . .

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Giavahny . . frustrated gradually  perceived  pain  on  his  heavy  forehead . . a  headache  that  was . . again  in  agony  weariness . . which . . made . . Giavahny  desperately  to  dash  away  escape  from  his  nameless  unknown  borderline  between  his . . reality  reverie  called nowhere . . however  to  make  matters . . worse  instantly . . Giavahny felt frustrated suddenly out of his breath . . heavily  breathed . . then  suddenly  got  thirsty . . heavily  felt  thirst  within . . desperately . . wanted  to awake  yes . . Giavahny  felt  himself  writhe  to  be  in  reality . . yet . . again . . did  Giavahny  feel  sharp  misery  on  his  forehead . . distressed  grabbed  his  head . . in  pain . . then  did  Giavahny hastily unconsciously  endeavor to try to strenuously  raise  himself . .  while . . Giavahny slowly gradually realized . . he  was . . laid on floor in a dimly lit hall near main door of its vast rigid mansion . . yet then . . abruptly . . out of nowhere . . did Giavahny feel an instant drop of water on his sweated face . . that . . to Giavahny . . felt  like flow of enormous drop of waterbomb . . Giavahny astonished to . . a sudden illusional bomb . . abruptly awaken . . then did he hear a low faint conversation . . from afar . . same place where Mr. Hulihne and the villager had their conversation before . . Giavahny . . hurriedly stood dashed again toward huge frame within . .  place Giavahny hid before . . then carefully watchfully  Giavahny in between slowly kneeled . . held his breath tight . . attended their words . . “leihnz  nowadays  are slow in growth . . mereley several weeks left to purge grand field . . have to gain profits till then . . got to make leihnz ripe faster . . inject further artificial ripener ethylene double times . . than now . . ” said Mr Hulihne without any hesitation . . Mr Wyhdian appalled by his words instantly looked at him then reluctantly said . . “Mr Hulihne eth . . ethylene . . is contained of . . acetylene gas which cou . . could be . . fatal . . to us . . humans when used in excessive amount . .” “heart arrhythmias . . severe low blood pressure . . loss of blood . . shortness of breath . . ” Giavahny from . . afar . .  astonished surprised by his unexpected word . . voicelessly shouted . . “Mr Wyhdian . . ” confused . . Giavahny . . yes confused . . “You . . you . . worry care about us . . our people . .” “yet why . . why . . ” then instantly Giavahny heard Mr Hulihne speak in his enraged voice . . “Mr Wyhdian . . every human experience agony number of times in a life time . . for me . .  been through forceful chokes . . been through bullets that ripped my core senses . . been through deceitful fall . . been through arrows that penetrated me one part to another scattered my faith . . my belief . . that I desperately wanted to hold on to . . yet no that did not happen . . however . . alive . . wealthy powerful . .” he boldly cried out . . with sudden harsh laugh which became fiercer fiercer . . “people who could not endure one bite of a reworked  leihnz  which could  be  cured  by pills . . have  no  base  to  live in  the  first place  for  they  are weak . . no  pity  sympathy  will be expected  given on my part for them . . Mr Wyhdian . .” cried Mr Hulihne . . then abruptly . . with chill psychotic change of his  facial attitude said Mr Hulihne as he arrogantly glared at Mr Wyhdian . . “by the way you survived though you ingested . . your harvested leihnz with your Ulliahnian people Mr Wyhdian . . no use to be hostile to my word or have you already forgotten my considerate deed to you . . Have you . . ” Giavahny  from . .  afar . . was  again . .  shocked . . “Mr  Wyhdian  were  You . . were  you . . one  of our our . . people . ."   

6/29/2023 

Giavahny . . then  heard  Mr  Hulihne shout to Mr Wyhdian infrigidly bitterly to get out of his chamber . . Giavahny  few  seconds  later faintly  saw  Mr  Wyhdian . . walk out . . dejected . . from  Mr  Hulihne Chamber . . Giavahny . . hurriedly hid leaned then . . held his breath . . then . . Giavahny heard Mr Wyhdian . . walk nearer nearer . . step after step . . Giavahny Leaned tighter . . while . . Giavahny . . out of his breath . . felt his sweat slowly permeate his face neck . . felt steps louder louder . . then instantly . . halt . . right next to Giavahny . .

 

then . . suddenly . . did  Giavahny  feel  a  . . ghastly  chill  . .  Giavahny   appalled   to   such   an   eerie  restless  feel . .  turned toward slowly slowly . . then Giavahny . . to his horrible shock . . saw not . . not . . Mr Wyhidan . . yet . . saw the male human . .  male human who blasted guns  to  him a number of times before . . stand  in  front . . right in front him . . with an exasperated guise  . . then instantly filled with agony  screamed  at  Giavahny  “you  stop  appear  in front of me . . ”  "stop . . " then again . . blasted . .

7/7/2023 

Giavahny . . felt   himself   weakly . .   awaken . .  into  faint  unconscious  conscious . .  then . .  abruptly . .  Giavahny   grabbed   his   head for  suddenly  felt  pain . .  deep  deep  pain . .  from . .  from . .  yet   Giavahny . .  could   not   remember . .  could   not   remember  why . . his  head  was  in  serious  pain . . why . . Giavahny   grabbed  his   head . .  gravely   frustrated . . then  suddenly . . Giavahny  felt  a presence . . Giavahny   looked   in   front   of  him  then . .  there   he   saw   Lihehna  in   her   little   room . .  "Lihehna . ." Giavahny   astonished . .  threw away his pain abruptly stood . . in  front  of  a  . . lightly  lit  room . . then slowly . . walked near toward Lihehna while he gradually  felt    uncertain    unfavorable  aura . .  then  to   his  grave   astonishment   there   he    unexpectedly   gradually    perceived   saw . .  Lihehna in bed very tightly covered her body . . with her light pillow . . Lihehna looked . . nervous . . her body in sweat . . half . . naked . . Giavahny  shocked  then  saw . .  her  eyes  . .  tremble . .  “Lihehna . .”  Giavahny   appalled   instantly   tracked . .  her  eyes  her  gaze . . Then to his horror . . Giavahny saw . . saw Mr  Wyhdian right in front of Lihehna . . absentmindedly looked at Lihehna  . . Givahany instantly enraged intensely cried his heart out . . Then did Mr Wyhdian . . sharply turn his head . . then dejectedly . . glared  at Giavahny . . in  anger . . in . . rage . . fiercely . . till Giavahny . . instantly felt sweatless sweat agonized pain permeate into his head . . out of his breath . .“Lihehna . .”  voicelessly   painfully   cried   out . .  Giavahny   then   did   he   gradually   feel   himself    collapse  . .  frustratedly  struggled   looked  toward . . Lihehna . .  where Lihehna helplessly lied . . down down down down . . in her lone bed . . full of grief regret . .“Lihehna . .” insanely cried Giavahny . . infuriated frustrated defenseless voiceless . . while slowly . . felt . . himself . .  lamentedly . .  pass out . .

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7/16/2023 

Giavahny . . felt  himself  awakened . . then  did  he  feel . . gradually  again  frustrated  inward . . which . . then . . Giavahny  wanted  to  head toward unconsciousness where no . . echoed  memories  were  interspersed  in  his  anxious  mind . . however . . nonetheless . . Giavahny despite his worn out state he knew . . he  again  had  to  desperately  had  to  face . . his  inevitable  reality  wherever  he  was . . whether . . that  was  his  reality . . his  reverie . . Giavahny . . then . . slowly . . slowly  gradually  in  conscious . . felt  himself  try  to  sit  while  he arduously  grabbed  his  head  his  heart  again  in  pain  his  body  in  full  sweat . . unconsciously  try  to  look . .  where  he  was  at . . pull himself  out  of  his  helpless  worthless  want . . push  himself  toward  reality . . where  he  gradually  realized . . he  was  lied  in  faintly  lit hall  near  main  door  of  its  mansion . . then  suddenly . . did  Giavahny  abruptly  hear  faint  whisper  from  afar . . none  other  than chamber  of  Mr  Wyhdian . . Giavahny  instantly  nervous  again . . halted . . for  a  minute . . then . . did  Giavahny . . slowly . . slowly  walked forward . . forward . . forward  forward . . Then  to  his  chills . . did  Giavahny  hear  Mr  Wyhdian  lowly  speak . . “walk  toward . . fast . .” with  that  Giavahny . . halted . . with  sudden  panic  feel  permeate  instantly  inside . . Giavahny . . felt  himself  breathe  heavily . . sweat heavily . . yet  had  no  choice . . no  other  choice  than  to  walk  toward . . fast . . walked  walked  toward . . until  Giavahany  reached chamber . . walked  in . . which  he  then  saw . . Mr  Wyhdian  stand  in  front  of  his  mirror . . Giavahny . . then . . abruptly stopped . . Mr Wyhdian . . without a word . . quietly  looked  at  Giavahny  through   his   mirror . . Giavahny  then  instantly  shocked . . for  instead  of  Mr Wyhdian  inside  its  mirror . . saw . . giver . . saw  giver  with  his   fumed   puff   of   cigar   in   his   mouth . . whom  Giavahny  remembered  to  have   built   a   water   well   for   him   his   village   people   near   while   he  was   in   Ulliahn . . whom   Giavahny  remembered  to  have  sent  him here  its  mansion  in  the  first  place . . Giavahny . . shocked  to  his  core . . abruptly  screamed . . Then . . instantly  did  he  see  Mr Wyhdian turn . . look  straightly  at  him . . it . . was . . Mr  Wyhdian . . was  . . Mr  Wyhdian . . Giavahny . . heavily  confused  hurriedly  looked  at its  mirror  again . . there . .  he  saw Mr  Wyhdian . . giver . . was . . nowhere  to  be  seen . . nowhere . . Giavahny  again  in  shock . . still  heavily confused  to  his  core . . in  tremble  slowly . . looked  at  Mr  Wyhdian . . whom   then   stepped   toward . . Giavahny . . gave  an  eerie  smile . . suddenly  snatched  one   leihnz   from   his  fruit   basket  on  his  table . . then . . to  his  astonishment . . Giavahny  saw  Mr   Wyhdian  abruptly  charge  straight  toward . . Giavahny . . gravely  shocked  by  his  unexpected  psychotic  behavior . . horrified  turned   dashed  dashed   toward   its   door . .  into   its   narrow   hall . .   did   Giavahny   insanely   dash   dash   into . . until  he . .  instantly  stopped  nearly tripped . . again . . terrified  to  his  core . . for  far  away . .  at  the  other  side  of  its  dead  end  lit  narrow  hall . . did  Giavahny  see . . the male   human   with   his   blast   gun   furiously   charge   toward   him . . Giavahny . . suddenly . . out  of his  breath . . could  not . . breathe . . Giavahny . .  in a  deadlock . . confusedly petrified . . felt  severely  anxious sweat agonized pain again . .   permeate into  his  head  . . powerless  resistless  defenseless  helpless . .  why . .  why  is  it . . how . . am  . .  I  gonna . . 

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8/26/2023 

Giavahny . . felt himself weakly . . awaken . . into faint conscious . . then gradually . . frustrated . . inward again . . remembered his sweatless sweat gravely agonized pain permeate into his head . . then suddenly from afar . . faintly  heard  a  gunshot . . Giavahny very  feeble within even to be astonished . . tried to regain consciousness . . gradually felt himself forcibly awaken by his conscience . . then slowly realized . . he was again at the other side of its grand field . . its dry barren land . . however . . not laid . . yet now he himself leaned on a tree . .  Giavahny . . uneasy  unnerved . . hesitantly  slowly  looked  front . . then  to  his  astonishment . . saw  the other side of  its  grand field . . now filled with his village people dig and dig its dry barren land without any vacant space . . Giavahny anxious fretful in desperate confusion . . looked at his people who bizarrely looked straightly at him while they  dug  dug . . their eyes pitch dark . . their faces weak pale . . their skin withered dry . . their bodies feeble rawboned . . Giavahny then . . to his terrified astonishment . . saw . . his uncle his aunt . . far away . . Giavahny shocked . . felt himself again begin to shout . . his uncle his aunt . . however . . Giavahny began to feel his inward severely desperately struggle for they . . did not react . . merely looked at Giavahny . . with  a  dreadful  heartbroken  look  on  their  face . . while they  dreadfully continued to dig dig . . Giavahny  again  shouted  louder  and  louder . . yet  to  his  horror . . he saw . . his uncle his aunt with other village people . . dig and dig faster faster while their darkened eyes fixed to Giavahny . . Giavahny was horrified to an eerie scene . . yet . . suddenly felt pain sadly permeate into his heart . . felt himself  absentmindedly walk . . nearer nearer toward them . . yet nearer he got . . faster they dug . . Giavahny abruptly . . stopped . . trembled wretchedly felt weak at his knees . . then suddenly Giavahny realized he himself . . felt heavy . . Giavahny realized he himself . . felt weighty down down . . Giavahny . . because of his continued unusually despaired feel . . slowly slowly looked down . . Then . . to his horror . . did  Giavahny  see  himself . . with  a  blast  gun . . blast  gun  of  the male human . . gun directly targeted straight toward his village people . . his uncle his aunt . .

8/31/2023 

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Hello You I Believe without count deeply I no doubt Hope you were Well & Good within my beautiful summer Journey thanks to You yes I am always Well & Good again I ^-^ deeply heartfully thank you 

Because my fall semester began heavy workload ^-^ due to schoolwork business trip prep of my phd paper about Future AI & Environmental Human Rights   yes I am gonna have to post my fictions in autumn 

Those Whose Life Purpose is merely to pursue popularity fame attention money through pretentious arrogant act Humanize because there no Good at very end of your life your way I Pray deeply for near future within your mind

GrGratified for my future to be like now without conflict Hey You view my post above 4/21/2023 could not Thank You enough for true you Always by my side Let’s Pray for our Hidden people yes see you soon again I Agree Your Heart Within Us Cheers ♡

안녕하세요 더위가 심해졌던 여름 아무런 방해없이 안전히 잘 불편함 멀리하며 지내셨길 바래요 저도 덕분에 마음편히 ^-^ 지냈어요  

가을학기 시작으로 밀려드는 ^-^ 학교일과 출장들로 AI관련 환경인권 대한 박사논문 작업으로 조금 바빠질거예요 그리하여 남은 픽션들은 을내 조만간 작성하려 해요

한 사람의 인생내의 목적추구 인기명예 관심돈이며 선한인생 이아닌 척하는 분들 다시 한 번 멀리하길 강조하며 간절히 부탁해요 안좋은 기운들이 느껴져요 기도해요 보다밝은 미래들을 그리며 

그대 저 알아요 네 험난해져가는 세상에 그대와저 같이늘 이기적인분 멀리하며 어려우신 이웃들 도와가며 걸어가길 낮은자세 잊지않구 우리들의 현실이 마음깊이 지금같길 4/21/2023 있는 제가쓴 글 다시한번 그대 읽어봐요 그대있어 감사해요 봐요곧네 ♡

Giavahny terrified . . dashed dashed toward unknown yet nearby . . he . . continued  to  dash dash . . till he absentmindedly arrived at its huge mansion . . yet Giavahny continued to dash and dash . . to get away from agonized unaccountable reality yet into his wanna be reverie . . yet . . then . . Givahany suddenly caught himself in one of its huge aligned windows . . Giavahny . . his heart in intensified unnerved fretful state . . quickly turn . . then . . did Giavahny breathlessly . . stop . . because to his shock . . in its huge window . . did he look . . look . .

11/14/2023 

Giavahny . . instead . . of  himself . . did he see in a huge window . . Mr Wyhdian . . filled with rapacity . . Giavahny aghasted nearly tripped dashed in intensed confusion toward side where he perceived another huge window . . then did he see in astonishment . . man with blasted gun directly aimed his gun . . straightly toward him . . Giavahny aghasted again nearly collapsed dashed toward . . another huge window where he saw himself . . yes . . little Giavhany . . Giavhany was confused . . Giavahny halted then slowly toward another huge window . . walked exhaustedly wearily toward another huge window while  looked at little Giavahny that gazed at him . . regrettably . . Giavahny astonished unnerved by a sudden unusual blameful gaze by little Giavahny now straight toward him . . hurriedly took his eyes elsewhere toward his side to avoid his gaze where another huge window existed in which shocked Giavahny . . because Giavahny saw . . Lihehna . . Giavahny saw . . Lihehna  look  toward  him . . yet  in  grave fear . . “Lihehna . .”  Giavahny  suddenly  hurt  by  unusual  look  by  Lihehna . . in  tremble  slowly  walked  toward  to  his  side  . . to  take  a  quick  glimpse  of  himself  . . to  see  himself  in  its  huge  window . . then  there   he  saw   Mr   Whydian . .  and    next   to  him . .  was  . .  Mr  Hulihne . . cigar  in  his  mouth . .  smoke  puffed  repeatedly . . intensely  looked  at  Giavahny . .  within  proud  sneer . .

11/26/2023 

Giavahny indignantly began to . . shout out within agony . . dashed toward huge window . . then Giavahny astonished saw . . Mr Wyhdian dash toward him . . while Mr Hulihne behind  puffed his cigar on and on with a sinful smile . . Giavahny . . halted . . Mr Wyhdian . . then halted . . Giavahny . . turned . . Mr Wydian . . turned . . with a ghastly smile . . Giavahny . . horrified confused frightfully rushed toward side . . where there he again saw man with gun nefariously targeted it toward him . . Giavahny insufferably screamed . . yet was . . voiceless . . then abruptly Giavahny . . felt glimpse of people within huge window . . baleful . . he looked toward . . then . . shocked to his core . . did he perceive people . . people . . helplessly desperately dig dig its dry barren land . . again . . Giavahny petrified intensely tried to shout out toward . . his uncle his aunt . . were there . . his uncle his aunt . . unbelievably . . yet again his voice . . could not be heard . . no . . Giavahny again felt a headache intensively permeate . . yet then instantly horrified scene caught his eye. . saw man change gun target toward. . his uncle his aunt . . then . . blasted . . Giavahny . . nearly   collapsed fainted inside . . screamed within . .  tried   to   dash   toward . . his  uncle  his  aunt . . yet wretchedly . .  his uncle his aunt . . helplessly . . collapsed . . Giavahny . . in despair collapsed as well gradually helplessly . .  grabbed his head in desperate grief screamed . . no . . frustrated inward petrified outward . . Giavahny screamed . . again and again . . could not  stand  it . . could  not  take  it . . he . . desperately  wanted to head . . toward . . unconsciousness . .  where  no  inevitable  reality . . exist . .  yet  again  felt . . pain  real . . pain . . severe  pain  agonized  pain . . repeatedly . . pierced  through  his . .  heart . .  . . his  uncle  his aunt  passed away right in front of his eyes . . Giavahny . . screamed a voiceless agonized scream within himself . . a struggle helpless struggle . . where no heart could be despaired than his . . yet abruptly . . suddenly . . Giavahny ghastly perceive . . from afar . . dishonest laugh . . corrupted laugh . . foul laugh . . which got nearer . . fearlessly hastily did laugh . . got nearer nearer . . Giavahny unconsciously abruptly felt a deadly chill . . then suddenly did Giavahny . . feel dusted wet gadget . . while disturbed laugh without no halt got louder and louder . . Giavahny . . tried to wake himself . . bestir . . himself . . yet . . no . . he was already awaken . . Giavahny . . in severe fear tried to dash away . . from rancorous laugh which laugh got louder louder than ever . . yet  Giavahny . . then suddenly horrified in shock . . perceived . . terrifiedly perceived . . the covetous laugh rapacious laugh . . Giavahny heard was . . he . . himself . . it was his . . laugh . . filled with . . selfish . . rapacity . . no . . Giavahny cried . . no . . no . . Giavahny deadly confused . . then  instantly  he  heard  a  desperate  cry  of . . he himself little Giavahny . . through his voiceless voice . . toward himself cry out . . "to merely achieve your greed . . to manipulate minds through tricks . . to be admired whatever takes . . even  though  it  means to lie . . even though it means to be part of wrongs . . even though it means to abandon . . true honest believable people . . your  uncle  your  aunt . ." then . . with  that . . suddenly . . did . . Giavahny  feel  himself . . hold  a  wet  gun . . a  damp tainted gun covered with innocent blood . . Giavahny heavily trembled shivered in despair in disbelief . .  no . .  it . .  is not mine . .  it  is  not . . then  did  Giavahny  instantly  looked  front . . into  its  huge  window . . then  there . . he . . saw . . saw . .

12/24/2023 

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Giavahny . .  saw . .  Mr  Wyhdian  gun  held  blood  spread . .  looked  straightly  at  Giavahny . .  another sneer . .  of  Mr  Wyhdian  engraved in  front  . . Giavahny . . absentmindedly  mindlessly  slowly  stood . . while  again . . saw  Mr  Wyhdian . . stand . . Giavahny . . turned . . then Mr Wyhdian turned . . toward . . his uncle  his  aunt  tragically  passed  away  lied  in  front  of  them . . Giavahny  collapsed  again  felt   his  heart  torn  apart . . then  abruptly . . Giavahny  felt  a  presence . . within  its  huge  window . . was  little boy Giavahny . . in  front  of him . . boy   that   cared   about   his   uncle   his   aunt . .  boy   that   used  to  live  within  faith  like  he  was  told . . that tried to act virtuous within . . however . . at certain point . . life became full of pretentious lies . . for his rapacious greed constantly used innocent people for his own rapacity . . Giavahny  . . yet every time throughout his inward battle . . every period . . on the verge to act dishonestly illegally . . his constant inward battle between himself little Giavahny . . made him . . suffer . . felt guilt . . ever . . since . . Giavahny yet eventually . .  lost  his  inward  war . . for he has chosen to be dishonest lie . . has chosen to live as a hypocrite attached to power money fame . . pretend to be humble generous only in public to be admired . . persist to be obsessive misconceive every human admires him must admire him . . has chosen . . to . . abandon . . true reality . . his aunt his uncle . . in vanity . . in greed . . Giavahny . . absentminded . . in shake . . stood in front . . then . . he . . wearily looked at . . himselves . . in . . its huge window . . little boy Giavahny  faintly  within   tear  . . man   with   blasted  gun  in tremble . . Mr  Wyhidian through his greedy eyes . .  gazed  and  gazed  intensely  at  Giavahny . . Giavahny   looked   at  them . . grinned . . yet  with  painful . .  regret . . deep   down in  his . . saddened  irrecoverable . .  heart  . .  then  absentmindedly  did  Giavahny  pull   trigger . . to  . . none other than . . Mr Hulihne . . who  has  been  his mind  controller  which  brought  Giavahny  to  the  ill  minded  sick  corrupted  world . . then . .  another  blast . . toward . . himself . .

Corruptive  minds  are  based  on  delusional  greed  rapacity  narcissistic  minds,  minds  they  are  the  best minds  they  have to be looked  up  to  they  have  to  be  in  the  main  center  of attention from everybody every hour which is not understandable  acknowledged by  people  with  logical  normal  mind  except  for   those  who  have  the  same  corruptive  narcissistic minds  because without exception  not  anyone could be the best in real life except in their own delusional world. Those  corruptive  minds  lies  on  thought whatever  bad  happens  to  themselves  is  everybody  else  fault  not  their  own  they  don’t  need  to  listen  to  good  advices  because they  are  the  best  they  must  be  the  best  no  matter  what  due  to  their  abnormal  delusional  mind  where  nobody  should  be superior  to  them  which  has  been  intentionally  covered  for  years  merely  to  be  pretentious  humble  person  to  get  everybody  to  admire them  however  personality  is  difficult  to  be  camouflaged.  Unfortunately  these  type  of  corruptive  minds  are  incurable  where  no pills  could  cure  root  of  this  problem  unless  they  face  life  or  death  matter  which  connects  to  a  further  grave  problem  when people  with  these  types  of  corruptive  greedy  narcissistic  minds  want  to  represent  people  or  to  be  a  public  figure  only  to  get attention  without  any  good  productive  cause  where  innocent  people  could  be  negatively  exposed  to  these  unstable  ill  minded harmful  people and authority  which  is  tragic.  I  yet  believe  in  without  doubt  lightful  goodness  which  is  why  incessantly pray for peace without greed benevolent light try to fully enlighten unstable minds to stop denial of their abnormality acknowledge their mental state problem receive treatment throw away their pretentious dishonest manipulative minds for in the end  like  we  know  it  is  their own  corruptive minds  that  will  draw  themselves into  their endless swamp of lies misery and  eventually  will  be  the  blame  and  irrecoverable victim  of themselves

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I Again Thank You

To Be Continued Soon a little later 1/21/2024

네 곧 봐요 감사해요 

 

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